To: Friends Who Care
By: Risa KurosakiThough I do not wish to woe upon myself,
I just want to express I have only brushed happiness,
Though once and only,
My life hangs on that single thread of hope,
But though that string is my savior,
It’s just the gallows’s arm
Leading to my downfall.Those I have faith in and held in utmost esteem,
Just laugh at my dreams
And ridicule my sincerity.
Yes, to those I have called my friends,
Those words spoken to you,
Not in joking terms,
Were true,
I would expel my own blood for you.
Those words were not just air,
But the same words of sincerity you mashed in the rubbish can.I realize myself I am not an angel of God,
Perfect in everyway,
But I just exist,
An atom of life,
That has hit misfortune in many ways.
I,
Cerberus’s chew toy,
Am destroyed,
As he pulls me in,
Gnaws and grinds me until I feel such pain,
To torture till
There is no remedy
And when he mercilessly spits me back out in the
Cold rain clouds.
Still alive,
But barely,
Still dangling on that dreaded threaded noose.You have let people in to your warm, inviting house,
But that beautifully crude door closes on me,
Leaving me in the rain
And dark.
Yet I wait diligently till you all come out.
And not revealing a word
About that sensation of steely cruelty,
Hoping one day, I will join you in the warmth.Every one of you have touched my life,
I am grateful for all of you,
You act kind and caring,
But when I tell you what is wrong,
That you are the reason that makes me feel so,
You become hostile.
You were just an apparition of a dream,
That colored glass portrayal of you,
An illusion
Now shattered.
You have now become
Vindictive like many times before.
Yet,
You still ask what is afoot.
But do you really
Want to know?Here is the answer you’ve all been waiting for,
The reason for my misery,
If you have not found out already,
Is simply this:
My closest comrades
Put me down,
Torment me,
Left me in the dark,
Ridiculed me while I was down.
Is that a good reason?
You decide,
I always seem to mange to forgive you all,
But really, do I?
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Risa "IDOT!!!!" K.
Birthday: april 26
Birthplace: pasadena!
Current Location: South Pasadena, baby!!
Eye Color: sexy brown
Hair Color: sexy dark, dark brown w/ highlites
Height: 5'4" NO!!!!!! *wah*
Right Handed or Left Handed: ritey
Your Heritage: I'M PROD TO BE AN AMERICAN!!! but if u ask for background, Malay/Chinese,/Japanese
The Shoes You Wore Today: tennis shoes
Your Weakness: uhhh, not tellin!
Your Fears: let see, being alone in the dark! (tho i can sleep w/ out a nite-lite)
Your Perfect Pizza: oooohhhh... a subject i like!!! let's see, MAJOR CHEESE ACTION! and mushrooms, and sausage!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: straight A's, get more friends, and GET A GUY!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: hallo!
Thoughts First Waking Up: shit, morning already?!!!
Your Best Physical Feature: uuuhhh, none
Your Bedtime: none, well, when my mum screams at me,"Get to bed RITE NOW or i'll....."
Your Most Missed Memory: When i first met my best friend Rachel Du in 3rd grade
Pepsi or Coke: coke baby!
MacDonalds or Burger King: errr, if forced, id say Mickey D.'s (mcdonald's)
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate RULES THE WHOLE FRIGGIN' WORLD!
Cappuccino or Coffee: uhhh...
Do you Smoke: no, not really
Do you Swear: HELL YEAH!
Do you Sing: yup! love ta! im singing rite now!
Do you Shower Daily: yeah, duh!
Have you Been in Love: yes, but my heart was crushed
Do you want to go to College: oh yeah!
Do you want to get Married: yup!
Do you belive in yourself: yup! tat's y imma Risa!
Do you get Motion Sickness: sometimes!
Do you think you are Attractive: HELL NO!
Are you a Health Freak: no! I AM RISA KUROSAKI!!!!!! I AM CERTAINLY NOT A HEALTH FREAK!!!!
Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms: i love thunderstorms! dont u?
Do you play an Instrument: clarinet and piano!
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yesh, but it was just a taste!
In the past month have you Smoked: naw
In the past month have you been on Drugs: naw, i used to be on crack.... JK!!!
In the past month have you gone on a Date: wish i had!
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yesh!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: ????? who the heck r u askin da stupid questions????
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Heck ya!!!
In the past month have you been on Stage: no, unfortunately
In the past month have you been Dumped: no, but i dumped somebody long time ago...
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: how'd ya no????? JK!!!
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: uhhh....... imma keepin my mouth shut!
Ever been Drunk: maybe
Ever been called a Tease: uhh, ya
Ever been Beaten up: i may not be tall, but as sure as all hell, if i guy wanted to fight, he's still bearing battle marks! (ask pam about Karate Sparing!)
Ever Shoplifted: uummm, yes. DONT KILL ME!
How do you want to Die: w/ honor
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a buisness
What country would you most like to Visit: japan
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue
Favourite Hair Color: dirty blone
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: taller than me, (not too hard to find, rite?)
Weight: any
Best Clothing Style: any
Number of Drugs I have taken: uuuuhhhh....
Number of CDs I own: too many to count
Number of Piercings: 2 (both ears)
Number of Tattoos: none, yet!
Number of things in my Past I Regret: at leat 20 (no exaggeration! it's serious!!! i really mean it!
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