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jamie.

Free without you. So just skip all the

About Me


Coulda set it down
When things got tough
Coulda walked away from this love
But that’d been crazy
We were young, We were wild, We Were restless
Had to go, had to fly, had to get Away
Took a chance on that feeling
We were lovin blind, borderline Reckless
We were livin for the minute we Were spinning in
Maybe we were a lot of things
Oh maybe we were a lot of things
But we weren't crazy
Wendy: Peter. You won't forget me, will you?
Peter: Me? Forget? Never.
Wendy: Will you ever come back?
Peter: To hear stories... About me
Sorry I can't really respond to messages and comments; I don't have a computer in Orange County. And, when I come up here, it's not like I have all day to read seven pages of messages, and respond to three pages of comments. Thanks so much for your thoughts everyone. I read some messages, but not because those people are more important, depends on subject matter. I won't leave them not responded to, though.



Starved for knowledge,
Thirsty for the truth.
And in the pages I could
Sense all the longing in the world
I close my eyes, cause I'm longing too.
Who knows your name,.. anymore, anymore?
I'll say your name,
forever more, forever more.
Come on feel the noise
Girls rock your boys
We'll get wild, wild, wild!
Wild, wild, wild!
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And as you walked away
The echo of my words
Cut just like a knife
Cut so deep it hurt
I held back the tears
Held on to my pride and watched you go
I wonder if you'll ever know
Just give me a white lace collar and a few barettes, and I'll be the saddest little girl in the world.
Tonight, with my box full of sharp objects, that cause strawberry gashes, I will be breaking the habit. If something were to happen, cry a little for me, then smoke two joints.

The thing that hurts the most is to see the one you love, love someone else. A cutter unable to find something sharp enough is like a heroin addict who can't find her needle. And, when you love that addict, everything is lost.
[J]ust got lost again.
[A]lways apologizing.
[M]ake it work this time.
[I] don't know what to do.
[E]very moment without you is hell.
[L]ost and Delirious.
[E]xcept with you.
[I]'ve fucked up again.
[G]od, this is so wrong.
[H]appiness is overrated.
[M]aster's Favourite Slave.
[A]ble to be hurt.
[R]eady for you to love me again.
[T]ime heals all wounds.
[I]'m so confused.
[N]ot gonna do it again...
My name is Magic. My rave names have changed a lot from Easybake, Sweetness, Papa Squat, Poppy, to the latest Papi. I started partying in December 2006; my first party was Winterfresh. =] I just moved to Hawthorne in January. I post a lot of bulletins, if you don't like it, don't add me. =] I enjoy long walks on the beach, ice cream, boba, hanging out, listening to good music, going to shows, and making kandii. I dislike homophobia, the color yellow, rude people, moochers, people who don't like to share their herb, people who demand I share every little thing with them, people who eat all my food, and never give me jack shit in return, when they have money, wooden rollercoasters, your new girlfriend, and people that post 9850932854 bulletins asking people to whore them or comment their pictures.
You can find me ::
On Neopets :: [Ask for it.]
On FictionPress :: Bleeding Gemstone
On LiveJournal :: Jamesky
On AOL: SafeBlackWarmth
On YIM :: MagicCannabliss
On MSN :: [email protected]
Via E-Mail :: [email protected]
On Adventure Quest :: TheJunkieMonologues
On Corner Bodega :: Jamie
wispy smoke twisting rising rising rising, still.
a taste like flowers, like your hair
rolling tongues soften softer than anything
of such sweetness i could only have dreamed
but the dream is real, it happened it is happening
it will happen again, it is real.
-- Justin Sane
But all she can think about,
Is a, a better life, a second chance,
An' everyone she's letting down.
I'm not saying I'm battered and bruised
but I might as well be with the words you used
I believe in myself, that makes me stronger
Things changed and so have I
I wanna paint my face and pretend that I am someone else.
Sometimes I get so fed up, I don't even wanna look at myself.
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time.
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say.
I wish that I could start over.
I am slowly falling apart.
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
and you might think it's easy being me.
You just stand still look pretty.
I could have been someone
Well so could anyone
You took my dreams from me
When I first found you
I kept them with me babe
I put them with my own
Can't make it all alone
I've built my dreams around you

My Interests


..Faeries, Drawing, Painting, Sketching, Making Collages, Stickers, Stationery, Trading, Buying Selling, Making Bracelets, Making Kandii, Trading Kandii, Halloween, Jelly Bracelets, Gay Pride, Gay Rights, Autumn, Good Books, Cute Girls, Guitar Picks, Scars, Blood, Girlfriends, Ezcema, Lesbians, Unicorns, Softball, My Girlfriend, Rollercoasters, Loud Music, Bipolarism, Text-Messaging, Cuddling, Soft Kisses, Neopets, Therapy, Art Therapy, Being in Love, Good Books, Partying, Make-up, Role-Playing, Monopoly, Socks, Piercings, Tattoos, Smoking, Missing You, Writing Letters, Listening to your Band, Boba, Going to the Beach, Running, Flirting, Horror Movies, My Ex, Your Ex, MADD, Post Secert, Corner Bodega, Raves

I'd like to meet:

She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands


Angelina Jolie, Mandy Moore, Matthew Gray Gubler, Christina Ricci, Rosie O'Donnell, Ben Foster, Jorja Fox, Marg Helgenberger, Gary Dourdan, Jennifer Garner, Deanne Bray, Romaine Patterson, Keanu Reeves, Rosario Dawson, Adam Pascal, Tracie Thoms

I want to find the perfect girl, who isn't super crazy, codepedant, or a fucking tweeker // heroin junkie. Seriously, because I don't have time for that bullshit.

Music:

Alanis Morissette, Alkaline Trio, Avril Lavigne, Billy Gilman, Carolyn Dawn Johnson, Evanescence, Faith Hill, Garth Brooks, Helen Reddy, Jack off Jill, Jessica Andrews, Jo Dee Messina, Joe Nichols, Linkin Park, Martina McBride, Melissa Etheridge, Metallica, Motley Crue, New Found Glory, Nickelback, Rascal Flatts, Relient K, Sara Evans, Savage Garden, Something Corporate, Sublime, t.A.T.u., Taking Back Sunday, The Goo Goo Dolls, Train, Weezer, Trick Pony, Blake Shelton, Kelly Clarkson, Bright Eyes, Bowling for Soup, Simple Plan, Maroon Five, Bitch and Animal, Sugarland, Gretchen Wilson, The Used, Smile Empty Soul, Larry Raspberry and the HighSteppers, Reckless Kelly, RENT, Kottonmouth Kings, She Wants Revenge, Ever So Good, Darlin' Maudie, Jupiter, The Break-Up, Rihanna, Blink-182

Movies:

Trainspotting, The Divine Secrets of the Yaya Sisterhood, Hanging Up, Lost and Delirious, Devil in the Flesh, Forrest Gump, Dragonfly, Legally Blonde, Strangeland, Peter Pan, Alice in Wonderland, It, Carrie, The Laramie Project, Requiem for a Dream, White Chicks, SAW II, SAW III, Set It Off, The Butterfly Effect, Se7en, The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, RENT, Nightmare on Elm Street, Gia, If These Walls Could Talk 2, Million Dollar Baby, Brokeback Mountain, Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle, Make A Wish, Hostel, Dawn of the Dead, 28 Days Later, Hard Candy, Accepted, Shaun of the Dead, Falling Down, The Salton Sea, Better Than Chocolate, Girl Positive

Television:

CSI, Law and Order :: Special Victims Unit, House, The Simpsons, King of the Hill, Criminal Minds, Malcom in the Middle, Numbers, Avatar :: The Last Airbender, South Park

Books:

Beauty Queen, Night Sins, The Door to December, Seven Up, Sophie's World, The Coffin Dancer, Dancing on the Edge, Find Me, Party Girl, Daughters of the Moon, Goddess of the Night, Candy, All She Wanted, The Laramie Project, Kim :: Empty Inside, The Empty Chair, Walk Two Moons, The Lovely Bones, Stop Pretending :: What Happened When My Big Sister Went Crazy, One of Those Hideous Books Where the Mother Dies, A Million Little Pieces, Blubber, Candygirl, Clubland, Crank, Telling Christina Goodbye, Signs of Life, Finding Katie, You Don't Know Me, It Happened to Nancy, Annie's Baby, The Kitchen Witch

Heroes:

..My mother :: She's been there for every waking moment of my life, every low and every high.
Zeb :: She's been through so much, but yet she seems to stay strong. I ♥ you.

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All prices include shipping.Pictures on request... 1 snack bag with some letter beads :: $11 small snack bag with sea shells :: 1 (Could possbily be put on kandii)1 Eight Card Neopets Booster Pack, Ra...
Posted by jamie. on Sat, 05 May 2007 05:48:00 PST

clear it.

Fuck me in the ass this morning, Strawberry Shortcake.I came home last night, and just crashed.Going out with Layne today, but I'm a little scared.I feel like crying, and just curling up into a little...
Posted by jamie. on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 04:50:00 PST

Fuck you.

Wipe that cute little smirk off your face; Don't lie to me, and say that you love me.Too much in common, only to talk at the right times;Fair weather friends.I'm all alone tonight;San Diego, meeting S...
Posted by jamie. on Fri, 06 Oct 2006 09:30:00 PST

Something I wrote. I give up.

My goodbye :: Dear you, I'm done thinking of you. I'm done talking to you. I'm done telling people about you. I'm done using over you. I'm done calling you. I'm done trying to find the scar, that b...
Posted by jamie. on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 05:30:00 PST

fuck you.

fuck all your stupid bitch asses. that say that you're there for me. no one is here for me now. && i need you the most. ONE OF YOU THAT I FUCKING CALLED, HAD A DAMN GOOD REASON TO GO. ONE. t...
Posted by jamie. on Sun, 01 Oct 2006 06:22:00 PST

Sad!

God, being up at six-forty-five is gonna kick my ass later.. I went to bed around midnight.. Jen would call me every time she got off a rollercoaster, every time shed get on, Id drift to sleep, but ...
Posted by jamie. on Sat, 17 Sep 2005 08:20:00 PST

101 Reasons Why I love You

101 Things I love about you.. 1. I love how beautiful you are inside and out. 2. I love your passion for everyone. 3. I love how good you are to me. 4. I love how you make me make the right deci...
Posted by jamie. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

OMFG.

Hey you guys. How are you doing? I hung out with Eileen today. We caught tadpoles together. It was so cute. I'm running out of cigarettes. I gave my reds and my twenty-sevens to Boo and Samantha. Next...
Posted by jamie. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

The List

1-6-05 9:05 PM I will not use inhalants. I will not drink alcohol. I will not eat/drink dairy products. I will not self harm. I will not smoke cigarettes. I will not get...
Posted by jamie. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

The best night ever..

likeatwolanestreet: Her and me started talking on myspace, and today, i went to her house.. and she looked so different.. so much prettier!! i was so intimidated, becuase i looked like shit! Plushi...
Posted by jamie. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST