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Raksha

You call me insane, I know. I've opened my heart and my soul to you, and all I feel is pain - Blind

About Me

Well, it has been determined that I exist, at least to myself. And further, I exist to you, or you would not be reading this. And even further... ah, screw it, I don't care THAT much about all that existential crap... College student and loving it.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Lara
Birthday: March 32nd
Birthplace: Berlin, Germany
Current Location: Madison, WI
Eye Color: brown and green
Hair Color: dark brown
Height: 5'7''
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
The Shoes You Wore Today: my boots
Your Weakness: depression
Your Fears: myself
Your Perfect Pizza: thin-crust pepperoni and hamburger meat with some jalapenos
Your Most Overused Phrase On an IM: hmm...
Thoughts First Waking Up: wait, if I skip ____ then I can sleep for ___ more minutes...
Your Best Physical Feature: eyes
Your Bedtime: whenever the computer releases me
Your Most Missed Memory: mental security... oh, wait, that was never real
Pepsi or Coke: neither
MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: either or
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: PG Tips
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: neither - tea
Do you Smoke: nope
Do you Swear: like a sailor
Do you Sing: occasionally
Do you Shower Daily: unless there isn't any warm water... T.T
Have you Been in Love: nope
Do you want to go to College: I am
Do you want to get Married: if I find someone who can tolerate me for extended periods of time (and vice versa)
Do you belive in yourself: sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Do you think you are Attractive: sometimes
Are you a Health Freak: heh, hell no
Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms: absolutely
Do you play an Instrument: trumpet and gamelan
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yep
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: nope
Have you ever eaten a box of Oreos: nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yep
In the past month have you been on Stage: nope
In the past month have you been Dumped: nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope (kidding me? I'm not going anywhere near the lake at these temperatures!)
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
Ever been Drunk: nope
Ever been called a Tease: just about
Ever been Beaten up: only in fencing
Ever Shoplifted: nope
How do you want to Die: without regrets
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a mad scientist
What country would you most like to Visit: back to Ireland or Germany
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: any
Favourite Hair Color: blonde or red
Short or Long Hair: either
Height: any
Weight: w/e, just not overweight
Best Clothing Style: all black is always hot
Number of Drugs I have taken: only painkillers
Number of CDs I own: too many
Number of Piercings: none anymore
Number of Tattoos: one
Number of things in my Past I Regret: a few
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!trait snapshot: introverted, secretive, messy, depressed, does not like leadership, somewhat nihilistic, observer, does not make friends easily, unassertive, feels invisible, feels undesirable, hates large parties, does not like to stand out, leisurely, suspicious, submissive, abstract, unpredictable, intellectual, likes rain, likes the unknown, negative, weird, avoidant, strange

My Interests

biochem, physics, basically all branches of science, fantasy/sci-fi, current events, politics, fortune telling, medieval weaponry, alchemy

I'd like to meet:

someone who understands me better than I understand myself, so I can ask them a few questions... my good twin (seeing as I'm the evil one, I'm sure)

Music:

Blind Guardian, Afro Celt Sound System, Sonata Arctica, Lacuna Coil, Nightwish, Exilia, Gorillaz, Linkin Park, Carl Orff, Yoshida Brothers

Movies:

A Flight Of Dragons, Titan AE, The Breakfast Club, Something the Lord Made, Boondock Saints

Television:

House, documentaries, news, anime

Books:

anything fantasy; The Silver Wolf, by Alice Borchardt; Kushiel's Dart, by Jacqueline Carrey; The Dragon and the Unicorn, by A. A. Attanasio; Brother to Dragons, Companion to Owls, by Jane Lindskold

Heroes:

Just about everyone mentioned previously, actually, along with my parents. I love them very much, even if I don't let on all that often.

My Blog

Post 13 - Deutschland and Reflections

So...  ich bin in Deutschland!  I love it here, all over again.  Things are going well.  My dorm is wonderful; it has a bathroom complete with shower and toilet, and a mini-kitche...
Posted by Raksha on Wed, 13 Jun 2007 01:18:00 PST

Post 12 - Moving On

Well, so we're approaching (those who haven't already reached it) the end of another school year.  And I'm running on a full 0 hours of sleep - huzzah for all-nighters!  The summer looks v...
Posted by Raksha on Thu, 03 May 2007 01:44:00 PST

Post 10 - I Didn't Know What Cold Was

...  until just this week.  Cold is...  When your nose has frozen shut and your scarf has frozen to your cheeks.  When you need an ice scraper for your glasses because the conde...
Posted by Raksha on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 10:46:00 PST

Post 9 - Grr to Tagging

Fine, I'll do it.  But I don't have to like it.  *mock-pouts*  TAG ... YOUR'RE IT... SO YOU GOTTA PLAY! Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about yourself. People who get tag...
Posted by Raksha on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 10:52:00 PST

Post 8 - New Years in Orlando

HELL YES!!!  I'm going to Orlando with the marching band for New Years!!!  WOOHOO!  Ok, so the reason I'm so excited about this, is that until yesterday they weren't certain if all of t...
Posted by Raksha on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 08:32:00 PST

Post 7 - Next Semester and Other Important Things

Well, it looks like I'm more or less all sorted for next semester.   My Classes:Chem 329: Fundamentals of Analytical Science (aka A-Chem) - HonorsChem 343: Intro Organic Chemistry (aka O-Che...
Posted by Raksha on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 11:38:00 PST

Post 6 - Snow Days Are For Pansies

Alright you lot what are so excited about missing school for snow...  Apparently, UW-Madison takes great pride (sigh) in not closing for bad weather.  Of course, first of all, this wasn't ba...
Posted by Raksha on Sat, 02 Dec 2006 06:15:00 PST

Post 5 - Crazy stuff

Newsflash:  The entire UW Marching Band is on probation indefinitely.  The last half hour of band today, the chancellor came and spoke to the assembled band, and informed us that if certain ...
Posted by Raksha on Fri, 06 Oct 2006 10:47:00 PST

Post 4 - Marching Band

'Tis sad, I know...  I now have to concentrate on marching the way I used to.  High-stepping has taken over my muscle memory!  Of course, the other thing is that I actually have muscles...
Posted by Raksha on Fri, 29 Sep 2006 11:46:00 PST

Post 3

I tried to post something ages ago, but it didn't go through.  Doesn't seem to matter now.  Everything feels like it's working out wonderfully for me, which makes me have to ask: Why can't s...
Posted by Raksha on Mon, 25 Sep 2006 10:46:00 PST