I do not find many people who can truly see me for me and be able to handle what I have to offer. I am a lover, not a fighter, unless of course i am faced with no other option but to defend myself. I'm a hopeless romantic. I refuse to settle for any thing less than an almost perfect love. The make up break up kind of b.s. relationship is not for me, i can now say i have tried it once and i hated it more than anything i have ever tried. I learned some things just don't work out, it's not necessarily anyones fault. It just is what it is. Sometimes people just don't bring out the best in each other.
I believe in surrounding yourself with uplifting positive energy as much as possible. I have a dark side and have since as far back as i can remember,this does not make me emo, depressed or Gothic, i am what i am and i have no labels. I am real. I have no problem telling you like it is and i will not go out of my way to impress you nor will I ever pretend to be anything in which I am clearly not. Not much excites me but i am easily content. I'm pretty much fearless, with the exception of failure and being put under. I have survived through a lot of crazy stuff that noone understands but myself and nobody i know has seen or felt the nonsense I was caught up in. But, it only made me stronger and made me realize I can live without a lot of things, which have been taken away from me a handful of times including my freedom. What i CAN not live without is family friends and music, A pen and A paper. I have a lot to figure out these next few months, including where I am going to school for journalism, place of residency and a few other things. All i want is to write and live a semi simply life.
** Minus the Drama and all that is low class white trash, those undeserving of my energy and beautiful soul. I'm going places. And by places I don't mean strip clubs. If your sly enough for me to allow you in, I'd like to believe I wasn't blind and there is a good person inside. If your dumb enough to push me away, then off I go and there I'll stay. My heart is locked. Until I open it back up. I will erase all that I know and start anew, alone.
If anything is meant to be, me with you , you with me, time will heal these awful things the puzzle will be Complete.
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I pray to God one day, when I am in the right place I meet the man of my dreams and I will be his everything as he will be mine. If not, I will be a content, career oriented, world traveling God Mother to my many baby girls and spend lots of time caring for and spoiling them as well as myself.
Almost Famous - Tiny Dancer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qn3tel9FWU
My most fave movie. For multiple reasons, and this is about the best part. No words...Penny Lane
Almost Famous: Ask me again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k35cuOy1s-I