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DreaM LoveR

In My Happy Home I Barely Breathe, In My Lovers Arms I Find Relief

About Me

I'm a dreamer with a porcelain heart. I am sometimes told I look sad, intense, or just miserable. I am Miss misunderstood yet I wear my heart on my sleeve and sometimes share too much information. I am a writer and have been writing for over 16 years. I am a poet which makes me pretty good with words. Not many people know that side of me, but it is a huge part of my daily life and helps me to function. One day when I completley focus on myself and not worry about others you may find a book or 3 published with my name on it or one of my aliases.
I do not find many people who can truly see me for me and be able to handle what I have to offer. I am a lover, not a fighter, unless of course i am faced with no other option but to defend myself. I'm a hopeless romantic. I refuse to settle for any thing less than an almost perfect love. The make up break up kind of b.s. relationship is not for me, i can now say i have tried it once and i hated it more than anything i have ever tried. I learned some things just don't work out, it's not necessarily anyones fault. It just is what it is. Sometimes people just don't bring out the best in each other.
I believe in surrounding yourself with uplifting positive energy as much as possible. I have a dark side and have since as far back as i can remember,this does not make me emo, depressed or Gothic, i am what i am and i have no labels. I am real. I have no problem telling you like it is and i will not go out of my way to impress you nor will I ever pretend to be anything in which I am clearly not. Not much excites me but i am easily content. I'm pretty much fearless, with the exception of failure and being put under. I have survived through a lot of crazy stuff that noone understands but myself and nobody i know has seen or felt the nonsense I was caught up in. But, it only made me stronger and made me realize I can live without a lot of things, which have been taken away from me a handful of times including my freedom. What i CAN not live without is family friends and music, A pen and A paper. I have a lot to figure out these next few months, including where I am going to school for journalism, place of residency and a few other things. All i want is to write and live a semi simply life.
** Minus the Drama and all that is low class white trash, those undeserving of my energy and beautiful soul. I'm going places. And by places I don't mean strip clubs. If your sly enough for me to allow you in, I'd like to believe I wasn't blind and there is a good person inside. If your dumb enough to push me away, then off I go and there I'll stay. My heart is locked. Until I open it back up. I will erase all that I know and start anew, alone.
If anything is meant to be, me with you , you with me, time will heal these awful things the puzzle will be Complete.
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I pray to God one day, when I am in the right place I meet the man of my dreams and I will be his everything as he will be mine. If not, I will be a content, career oriented, world traveling God Mother to my many baby girls and spend lots of time caring for and spoiling them as well as myself.
Almost Famous - Tiny Dancer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qn3tel9FWU

My most fave movie. For multiple reasons, and this is about the best part. No words...Penny Lane


Almost Famous: Ask me again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k35cuOy1s-I

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A wise woman who knows me very well once said:"You are like a caged bird that needs to be set free. Don't wait anymore. If you wait on people to let you out of your cage, you will be waiting forever. Just go! Realize your dreams. You will never be happy until you do.You either sit back and dream of flying, or you jump. So, jump. You may fall but at least when you're old and gray you can look back and say that you touched, tasted, and felt all of your dreams up front and center. Don't wait anymore. Go Doreen!!! You will be unhappy the rest of your life if you don't go to NY and at least have a taste of what your dream could be. I don't want to hear it anymore. I'm setting a deadline for you. You have to be in NY by December 31 of this year. If you don't do it by then, you won't ever, so there. Start applying to schools that will encourage your gift of writing. Find a place to live. Find a job. Just go! I'll be up there to see ya', I promise. Who knows, I may even find a job up there but don't wait on me. Make everyone proud. We all know you've got it in you so show us. Love you girl. Can't wait to see what you become. You have so much talent that you're wasting."..I love you Rach..
MY only SiSter, Jess, Maris and all my friends - my sis's, who have been there through all the madness and see me for me and know me inside and out, understand me and love me unconditionally, without you, I'm convinced I would have, at some point possibly given up. I know all this, you've all been hearing all this since i was a teenager, and I am going to focus my energy and put my all into making my dreams become reality.I love you all. And I am sure there will be many things dedicated in your honor when I reach where I am headed.

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My Blog

sleeping TLC

im layin in bed can hardly keep eyes open nvr been this easily tired...tonsils need to be taken out. asap..im scared, n im never scared..i want it done w no anastesia...it has to be possible. ? ive be...
Posted by on Tue, 26 May 2009 11:12:00 GMT

C.C.

I try so many timesbut it's not taking meand it seems so long agothat I used to believeand I'm so lost inside of my headand crazybut I cant get out of itI'm just stumblingAnd I'm juggling all the tho...
Posted by on Wed, 13 May 2009 06:27:00 GMT

Coco

Ohhh I, Don't know what to sayAnd I, have told you latelyThat I'm tired of talking about the same old reasons we changeJust take it easy don't worry about these mistakesBecause I'm keeping it cool, no...
Posted by on Tue, 12 May 2009 23:40:00 GMT

"Friday Night and i’m not going anywhere..."

So i'm bored thus i result to this.soooo i have a part time job taking care of two little boys.  They are adorable and considering i am usually surrounded by little girls it is quite interesting ...
Posted by on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 22:00:00 GMT

Check out this video: COOCH!

Check out this video: COOCH! Add to My Profile | More VideosANOTHER EDUCATIONAL AND FUCKING HILARIOUS COMMENTARY FROM TH EONE AND ONLY CHRIS CROCKER...AKA MY GAY LOVER. ; pThe way he says ...
Posted by on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 00:46:00 GMT

Check out this video: Da B**** Bell!

Check out this video: Da B**** Bell! Add to My Profile | More Videosbaha I LOVE CHRIS EFF ALL YOU DEBBIE DOWNERS....LOLYOU WISH YOU WERE HALF AS COOL AS THIS KID ;)
Posted by on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 00:43:00 GMT

How I feel about Chris Crocker

Okay, So I have been a fan of Chris crocker for quite a while now, for those who don't know who he is, he is the blonde haired , blue eyed adorable gay boy who is now the most famous video blogger on ...
Posted by on Thu, 13 Sep 2007 20:58:00 GMT

Back to hell....i guess

So i Got home from New york last night and i am still beat. I had fun hanging out with family and riding my motorcycles etc. Oh yeah and i finally played paintball which i have been wanting to do for ...
Posted by on Sun, 19 Aug 2007 15:45:00 GMT

WARP TOUR "07

Warp Tour '07 is gonna be the shit!!!!!!! JUlY 22nd Orlando date. We got Tiger Army, Coheed, KillSwitch, The UNSEEN, BAD RELIGION!,THE MATCHES OH and let's not forget AnBerLin... my loves. as well as ...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 23:16:00 GMT

like old timez

My bestest friend Lisa came to visit from Washington...she was only here four days but It felt like she never left. We had fun entertaining eachother and even got a wesley willis impersonation from so...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 11:47:00 GMT