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: : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : : + : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : : + : + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + : + + # + + : + + # + + # + + : + + # + # + + : + + # + + : + + # : + # + + : + + # + + : + + # + + # + + # + # + # + # + + # + + # + + # + + # + + # + + # + + # + + # + # + + # + # + # # + # + # # + # # + # # + # # + # # + # # + # # + # # + # + # # + # + # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # # TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AWAY IN THE ARMY/AIR FORCE/ WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING I APPRECIATE IT. I MISS YOU MUCH AND HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!!!!!!!
AND BY THE WAY I FUCKING ROCK YO!!!!!!!!I am an awesome girl who is easy to get along with, if you put aside the fact that I am very shy... it takes me a while to warm up to new people. I do get along with everyone I meet unless they give me a very good reason not to, which is hard to do because I am for the most part a very easy going individual. Some people have said I am intimidating, though I haven't figured out why yet.I do have a small trust issue only due to the fact I have been let down by others quite a few times, but who hasn't? It's one of those things you can't really control even though you would love to. And I have let others down quite a bit also. I am horrible at keeping plans or doing what I say I am going to do. And if you are one of my close friends you know that. That is the one thing that I dislike most about myself. And it's not because I have found something better to do, or I enjoy to stand people up...It's just this weird mind thing I have going. Don't ask me why...It hasn't been diagnosed yet.haha!
I love learning weather it be literature/booksmart things, or just flat out life lessons.Without Learning how would we grow to be who we are? I would have to say my mistakes are what I learn from the most. I'll admit I've made quite a few, which is more than most like to admit. I think it's because I love to find things out for myself even when someone tells me facts that I shouldn't-I still do. Hey, why not learn the hard way! ha!
And just so everyone is completely cleared up on this...I MAKE MY OWN RULES. Well for the most part unless the law is involved...but you know ; ). My life phrase is "I do what I want," because for the most part I pretty much do! It's friggen awesome!
I am currently tied down at speedway, which to tell you the honest truth, I would love to get the FUCK out of there for good. The schedule sucks for me and I don't get paid enough to deal with peoples bullshit and try and do everything I need to do to close in between that bitching!!! The only reason why I haven't left yet is because I am comfortable knowing that I know all of my regular customers that come in, aquaintences, and some who became friends. They make my night go alot better. But for the most part it's a shit job...I'de rather be muddin! LOL! Who wouldn't!
I'm single at the moment. Not really looking that hard for a companion, just skimming. Had enough bad relationships so far in a short amount of time, I think it's best to give it a break for a while. Don't get me wrong, I hate being single, but It's not so bad. I see what it does to "some of my friends and I don't wanna be like that. OOOOO I got a man...screw your problems, When I talk to you it's all about my man.... yea...like I so totally talked to him on the phone today and stuff...and....SHUT THE FUCK UP! I know I've done it when I was engaged and I aplogize from the bottom of my heart to all the people I hurt back in the day, but now I know what it feels like and it definately won't happen again!!
I love to have fun! You name it, and I might do it...hopefully involving mud, trucks, beer or bonfires! I'm a country girl at heart cause that's where I was born and raised!!! I love to be outside, get dirty, get drunk and chill with the crew!!! Give me a HELL YEA!!!!!
MY DREAM IS TO MOVE UP NORTH AND START MY OWN BUISNESS DOING SMALL ENGINE REPAIRS...EVENTUALLY I'LL GET THERE!!!anyone who tells you nothing is impossible has clearly never tried to slam a revolving door
-arent A.K.A. reverend
trait snapshot:messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous
I LOVE TO SING!