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Zoie Bear

Silence is my Depression

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HotFreeLayouts No later than midnight whence from my bed I did rise.A vision of death in the pale moonlight.My skin as white as the snowy Ground. To the air I did take flight above this very town.Dressed all in Black the very resemblance of Goth.Duchess of the eternal night. My cold lips embrace your neck.For eternal lifes kiss...I do not love you except because I love you; I go from loving to not loving you, From waiting to not waiting for you My heart moves from cold to fire. I love you only because it's you the one I love; I hate you deeply, and hating you Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you Is that I do not see you but love you blindly. Maybe January light will consume My heart with its cruel Ray, stealing my key to true calm. In this part of the story I am the one who Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you, Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.Love is patient with a life That brings its share of pain. We know sometime there is an end To the most stubborn rain. We know the sun comes out again On a world that's fresh and new, And all the gifts we freely give Somewhere, sometime accrue. We know sometimes we have to wait For life to come around, And sometimes that it won't, but still There's some good to be found. And even when things happen that Your soul can hardly bear, Know that I'll be next to you; My love is always there. Let me be the bandage for your bleeding; Let me be the ocean for your tears. Let me be the secret of your healing; Let me be the song to still your fears. Love isn't love that cannot love in darkness, Nor is it love that turns away from pain; Nor would I love would I not hold your sadness And with my love your love of life sustain. So do not think your malady a burden, And do not think my willingness deceit. Just let your sorrow flow into my garden, And I will share with you the harvest sweet. I would not be the sun to end your night, Nor would I be the wall to turn your tears. But I will watch with you until it's light. Because there are no words to set things right Nor hopes that one immersed in mourning hears, I would not be the sun to end your night, Offering a wisdom far too bright To soothe your pain or put to rest your fears. But I will watch with you until it's light. There must be time to grieve that sorrow might Be equal to the love of days and years. I would not be the sun to end your night. For grief, before it breaks, must reach its height, And tides must turn before one homeward steers. But I will watch with you until it's light. There are agonies no friendship can requite, A bitterness unstained till dawn appears. I would not be the sun to end your night. But I will watch with you until it's light. How often when two people fall in love, One of them is forced to move away? We can't convince our hearts that they must move; In people love just doesn't work that way. 'Cause of all the love I feel for you, Life will be an unrelenting wound. Love will shadow everything I do. Missing you, my heart will be marooned. In time, of course, my feelings will adjust; Such pain cannot forever be sustained. Some visits, letters, phone calls will, I trust, Yearnings quell, and grades must be maintained. Oh, but I will miss you, miss you dearly! Until hell ends, I'll be existing merely.Although we have to be apart, We'll always be together, Close enough in mind and heart To manage any weather. Reality is often bleak, But love remains inside A glass house on a mountain peak, The wintry world beside. Love can build its own four walls And heat its own small room. Through icy winds and blinding squalls, Love can be in bloom. Though continents drift far downstream And mountains disappear, And life dissolve into a dream, Our love will still be here, You'll turn, and I'll be here.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet someone in a dark spooky house.haha just kiddin. Storey I'm working on................ Into a girl's past.. the thick sweet smell of his cologne still hung in the air. Its funny how even in a bar clouded with cigarette smoke you could still detect the linger of a bad cologne. This on was no exception. She thought is was pretty typical of a "dirty Rat" like him. "Dirty Rat", maybe that was the name of his brand. She imangined it in a black bottle,stocked on a shelf in some seedy little shop,in the seedy part of town just waiting for seedy men like him to come and buy it. Listen to me,she thought I don't beleive I am Letting myself get all worked up over the damn smel of hi damn cologne..Get a Grip Ceris maybe this was a bad idea. Coming here like this..Again. "Just drinks" Shed said knowing full well where the conversation would lead. God he was so predictable "He missed her,he loved her He didn't know how to go on without her"."Then why did you kill her?" it was right on the tip of her tongue and she wanted to scream it at him.Yell it loud so everyone would hear it. So everyone would know what she knew. That it was him all along. She didn't know how she knew it,but every bone and every fiber of her body knew it was true."She was my best friend" she thought."and you killed her" Again on the tip of her tongue,yet she kept it to herself."Proof,But there was no proof. The police had been searching for three month now. Even they had failed to conjiue up any proof. So that was the reason she continued to meet him for "just drinks". Deep down she hoped that one day he'd slip up. She had played it out a million times in her head. He'd say somthing revealing and she'd call him on it and he'd crumble and confess and it would all be over and he'd pay.Oh how he'd pay.And she'd be victorious and... And... Lily would still be dead... One year Earlier..... "Come on Ceris,just try it."Lily pleaded from across the table.. Never in her life did she imagine she'd ever be staring at a raw piece of eel and comtemplate consuming it. Whose idea was it to come to the sushi bar anyways. Oh, right Lily's. "It'll be fun" she said "it's all the rage"she said "expand our horizons" she said "what's wrong with one horizons?" Ceris argued. What's wrong with the cozy tea shop down the street from her apartment? That she could deal with,but in the end Lily convinced her that "mr yoshi's sushi bar" was a good place to be on a saturday night. So here they were.Two women,a bottle of saki and a platter of raw fish. C'mon Ceris" Lily started again" you're not chicken are you?" Chicken? Ha! Now that's something she could eat"of course i'm not chicken"She said"let me just have another shot of that saki first. That'll help me get my nerve up" Yeah right.She'd already had three shots and she still wasn't convinced that she couldn't go on unless she'd eaten at least three differant types of raw sea creatures.

Music:

Saying Goodbye So soft the brief touch of your lips on my cheek. Was I almost intruding? "Look after yourself " should have been "I love you!" Then the Jumbo flew over my head and I shouted my love above the roar and thundering thrust . . . as if you'd hear. Through the clouds in my eyes I watched you fly away and wished I'd been born with wings.
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Movies:

Everafter,The Notebook,The Island,win a date with tad hamilton,underworld,xXx(Triple x),Fast n furious, Spiderman2,Walk to remember.Sweet home alabama.You don't know how I'm feeling. I have yet to vocalize.Desire deep inside me.Can you see it in my eyes? I tremble when I'm near you.Heat travels up my thighs,and I want you with an urgency.That I just can't describe.Dare I reach out to touch you? Do you think you'd realize.How much I want and need you? Can you see it in my eyes?I long to say, "I love you," But am scared of your reply.Terrified like a child,I've become paralyzed. The camouflaged emotions,Lead to pain and silent cries.And yet I just can't tell you.Don't you see it in my eyes?Confessing through this poem My dilemma summarized.The feeling's quite cathartic,But will lead to my demise.An echo fades into the night,an eerie mournful sound.A shooting star disappears from sight,and I crumble to the ground.There is no life within this garden;my sobs are the only sound.I have poisoned the honeyed fountain where your love could be found.Dazed, I stare at the stars above, my grieving howls fill the night!Unintended betrayal of lovehas hidden you from my sight.I remember how it used to bewhen we shared our fears and delights.You are a treasured friend to me.How can I make things right?feeling afraid, cold and lonely,I long to tell you how I feel,but you don€™t want to hear me.The pain for you is much too real.Should I back away and build a walland block away how I feel?Or, should I give you a call?We both need some time to heal.An echo fades into the nightas our friendship disappears. How do I know what is right?How can I ease my fears?If I do call you again, would the old wounds reappear?I can€™t stand to cause you pain.Hurting you again is my worst fear.

Television:


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Books:

Slow Tears I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek I think about better days and wonder if I'll feel that way again you look at me with those eyes I know so well always serious, so deep and insightful as though you're always in control But not today not now.Now you look so scared like for once you don't have the answer I gaze at you.looking deep into those hazel eyes.Hoping to understand why you've said those things you did I wonder for a moment if this is all a dream if I shall wake in the morning and be relieved you look at me with a confusion I have never seen slowly pull me towards you and wipe the tears from my cheek...
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Posted by Zoie Bear on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 02:26:00 PST

THINKING

>Troubled mind's think best in the middle of the night. As you all >can see. I was having a thoughtful night. Wrote about some >interesting problems that effect a lot of people. Just so you know. >One...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 09:51:00 PST

click five

A separation has it's falls And I don't wanna leave at all So write the letters in teary ink I just need some time to think And I just need some time to breathe Baby, just say goodnight I'll be go...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 01:41:00 PST

hmmmm

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - Name: Birthday: 11-30-79 Birthplace: azusa Current Location: lancaster Eye Color: green-blue Hair Color: changes red black ...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:32:00 PST

storey of a girl's life.

No later than midnight whence from my bed I did rise.A vision of death in the pale moonlight.My skin as white as the snowy Ground. To the air I did take flight above this very town.Dressed all in Blac...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sat, 20 May 2006 02:25:00 PST

Gurl I saw

gurl I saw a girl the other day; she looked very sad. Her face was drawn and pale, her eyes were red and puffy from many tears. There were still tears in her eyes yet unshed as I stared. Her ch...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sat, 20 May 2006 02:22:00 PST

Girl's smile

Girl's smile fade's away. They say I laugh, they say I smile, but what happens in between and all the while? The joker gets hurt, who is there to help? They don't see the cries, the scream, or th...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sat, 20 May 2006 02:21:00 PST

No regrets

no regret I'm sorry for the things I've done,And all the lies I've told,I regret it very deeply now,My nights are lonely and cold,I'm sorry for the pain I've caused,And all the hurt I brought,...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sat, 20 May 2006 02:20:00 PST

Thoughtless

thoughtless Silence I would like to ask,If your color blind?But I know you'd never answer.And noise, I'd like to dare you somethin,But I know you can not hear me.So solitude, I'd hang with you,...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sat, 20 May 2006 02:18:00 PST

Beauty

  Beautiful Tears are falling,From Beautiful eyes.Tears are falling,Because of Beautiful lies.Tears are falling,Because of what you said.Tears are falling,Onto a Beautiful bed.Tears are fal...
Posted by Zoie Bear on Sat, 20 May 2006 02:18:00 PST