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california

I am here for Friends

About Me


i am STEPHEE!
HAZZAR!
I AM BORED
and ive only been out of college for a week. and i have the whole of summer to sit on my ass and go to work and earn money; but i have nothing to spend it on. so give me something to do. lets go out. lets go to the beach. lets have some fun. summer better be good this year cos the last couple have been pretty much a big pile of wank and im not down with that.
i dont think i drank nearly enough beer last summer
lets make some new friends and not be weird about meeting new people. im tired of waiting for things to happen. im getting fidgety just sitting here at the computer but i don't want to go into my town, because as much as i love it i sometimes just can't stand to be there. i want to be in brighton everyday.
I WANT MY SKETCHBOOK BACK!
i want some pain. something interesting
i wanna get sunburnt and peel off my skin and laugh until drink comes out of my nose
and dont call me cute :) i'll bite you.

My Interests

i am interested in:

click above :)

I'd like to meet:



i'd like to meet:
no slags, no whores, no arseholes, no players, no twats, no sluts, no bitches and no cunts.

just someone nice.

if youre some terrifying 15 year old girl who's plastered with makeup, giant backcombed hair and hanging out of her clothes, i really REALLY don't want to know. Likewise young boys. I would however like to know, why you feel the need to keep trying to be my "friend".

i'd like to meet someone from canterbury...idk.

Music:

i will never stop listening to:
brand new - your favorite weapon
taking back sunday - tell all your friends
blink 182 - enema of the state
neutral milk hotel - in the aeroplane over the sea

"cut me open. sun poisoned. this offer stands forever. new haircut. new bracelet. eyeliner. wait forever. first kisses. new stitches. november to remember. nightswimmers. collar weekend. appearance ticket; watch her from the roof. as she walks across her backyard.... now go cry in your car.. you're just jealous cause i'm young and in love."

Movies:



Television:


Books:

"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you'll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there's still one more tier to all this; there is always one person who you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occurred. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist. The person is real, and the feelings are real--but you create the context. And context is everything. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

Heroes:

tom petty - the world keeps shitting on him and he still fights through. amazing man. real star.
stuie warrior - waiting to see him is like waiting for christmas, and once he is here, time goes so fast i can barely keep up. worth every second of waiting. probably loves betty more than me though [;
elliot guy - i have weird dreams about him and they scare me. amazing man; always cheers me up with tales of catbum ear holes and liver failure.
tom swanborough-nilson tells me to fuck off constantly. my big brother. bread + 35mm
"lucky" alder - tea and sudoku and neutral milk hotel and "stepheeeeee!" and occasionally pubic hairs
michaela berryman - oh my god shes in oz. what a bitch. i miss her loads and her big boobs and girly chats. the only woman i will ever love. haha
abi, becky, megan, rob, jack, josh and ellie - make college hilarious when we bitch and talk about sex loudly and scare people and dont care :) they're pretty much the only reason i go to college these days!

My Blog

one of those weeks

swear down all i do is moanbut seriouslyim not a fan of the last couple of weeks.car crashing into us = no fun.panic attacks when crossing roads = no funrandom death infection causing back paralysis =...
Posted by california on Thu, 15 May 2008 12:52:00 PST

that feeling

that feeling you get when you know everythings going to shit and there’s nothing you can do about it for a million different reasons....or maybe just because im an idiot. i wish for just once i ...
Posted by california on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 11:03:00 PST

good people

michaela aka.muffinman - you keep me grounded. one of the only girls who has stuck by me no matter how stupid i am. you tell me straight and don't sugarcoat anything and i am so grateful for your hone...
Posted by california on Thu, 29 Nov 2007 06:47:00 PST

eastbourne town

you actually do my head in. no wonder we have such a shit reputation as the bitchiest town in the fucking south east. all this backstabbing and sleeping with everyone you can get your grubby hands on....
Posted by california on Sun, 11 Nov 2007 06:45:00 PST

when did we first meet ? reply to this please :))

i am shit and can't remember when i met ANYONE except for like 2 people.so, when was the first time we met ? even if it was only once :) tell me and i'll probably remember some amusing anecdote to add...
Posted by california on Sat, 01 Sep 2007 01:08:00 PST

what do i want

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Posted by california on Sun, 26 Aug 2007 06:38:00 PST

Quality mates- had to be done

Good times this was a well good 3 days. ahaha. bexhill de la warr. shockingly dull ! and it rained on us n all ha ! weird man in brighton station walked into my pictures of sod all and made it excelle...
Posted by california on Fri, 17 Aug 2007 07:48:00 PST

Next year....

Ho hum.I don't know what to do. My interview at hastings was awesome and i was told i had got in after having looked through only two work books and ignoring my portfolio completely. Brighton didn't e...
Posted by california on Tue, 15 May 2007 04:59:00 PST

Rant ?

I am so sick of this whole "size zero" shit. Who started this ? I'm sure I am not the only one who thinks seeing a girl's ribcage through her chest is just the most disgusting and unattractive thing e...
Posted by california on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 07:19:00 PST

About Stephy

I never know what to write in my About Me. Nothing seems accurate as my personal perspective changes everyday. So, (stealing the idea from Dannerzzzz) here is where i would like you to write me a new ...
Posted by california on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 05:52:00 PST