You want to know who I am, here it is...I am a firm believer that whatever is supposed to happen in this world (for good or bad) will happen. I also believe that I have a lot of input on what happens in my life and try my best to make things happen for me rather than to just let the rest of the world dictate what will happen TO me. I stand up for myself when I need to. I work hard for the things I want but I am willing to let go of the things that no longer serve a purpose in my life. This includes feelings, resentment, jobs, people, places, objects, etc. I am a direct reflection of my environment which is a curse and a blessing at the same time. If I am around people who are pessimistic, negative, self-pitying, etc it is very easy for me to become that way. But at the same time if I just change little things in my surroundings and bring people into my life that I want to be like and admire, I can become that way as well. This may be one of the reasons I am very social and like to meet people from all walks of life, all races, all sexes, all ages. Good people are good people. And I will be friends with anyone who shows me respect, is kind to others, and brings out the good qualities in me. I have a good idea about what I want to happen in my life. But as I grow as a person sometimes these ideas change. I am not SO attached to how I want things to be that I cannot accept the things that are handed to me in life for good or bad. I will take any situation put before me and learn something from it. I am a fighter and I am 100 times stronger than I look, mentallly and emotionally. I am a spiritual person. I pray, but I do not practice any one religion. Nor do I judge anyone else for their spirituality or choice of religion. Everyone must find their own path that works for them. I love my family and my friends (for they are the family that you choose). I believe in karma. That everything you put out into the world will come back to you, so I try to put the best out there that I can. Any opportunity I have to help someone I will do the best I can. Especially for friends and family. But I also know that self reliance is a gift, so while I will help and encourage others, I will not do everything for them. I love with my whole heart. I don't do anything half way. But I do it at my own pace. I am easy going and relaxed most days, but when I feel threatened or pushed, I will push back to maintain balance. Home is the most important place for me. I feel very insecure when I don't have a place that I can call home and be comfortable. I take my responsibilities very seriously. I need at least a few minutes everyday to be quiet and just rest with my thoughts, or read, or whatever I feel like doing at that moment. I think the greatest power we have in this world is choice. Every decision in our lives is completely up to us to make. Not all of them will have great options, but every direction we take is ours to choose. I completely own every decision that I make and refuse to blame anyone if my choice was a bad one. Just another lesson learned. I can't stand anyone that tries to cop out of a situation by saying they did not have a choice. I repect people that can handle life as it comes at them. Mostly because I know I have had a difficult time with that in the past. But I am getting better and growing as a person. I want to be the best ME that I can be....
"More than anything else, I want myself. I want to live with integrity and truth. I'm not going to hide the jewel that I am, nor will I mask my imperfections. No bargains, no avoiding reality, no conning myself, no lies."Ditto. I want to learn. I want to experience. I want to grow."If in a relationship there is no tension [meaning no deepening of knowledge of self and others], it ceases to be a relationship and merely becomes a comfortable sleep state, an opiate-which most people prefer."I want to feel the tension. I want someone to wake me up, challenge my blind spots, and be a companion on my journey. I want to live and love without being attached to the outcome.....................................................
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"I believe in the Church of Baseball. I've tried all the major religions, and most of the minor ones. I've worshipped Buddha, Allah, Brahma, Vishnu, Siva, trees, mushrooms, and Isadora Duncan. I know things. For instance, there are 108 beads in a Catholic rosary and there are 108 stitches in a baseball. When I heard that, I gave Jesus a chance. But it just didn't work out between us. The Lord laid too much guilt on me. I prefer metaphysics to theology. You see, there's no guilt in baseball, and it's never boring... which makes it like sex. There's never been a ballplayer slept with me who didn't have the best year of his career. Making love is like hitting a baseball: you just gotta relax and concentrate. Besides, I'd never sleep with a player hitting under .250... not unless he had a lot of RBIs and was a great glove man up the middle. You see, there's a certain amount of life wisdom I give these boys. I can expand their minds. Sometimes when I've got a ballplayer alone, I'll just read Emily Dickinson or Walt Whitman to him, and the guys are so sweet, they always stay and listen. 'Course, a guy'll listen to anything if he thinks it's foreplay. I make them feel confident, and they make me feel safe, and pretty. 'Course, what I give them lasts a lifetime; what they give me lasts 142 games. Sometimes it seems like a bad trade. But bad trades are part of baseball - now who can forget Frank Robinson for Milt Pappas, for God's sake? It's a long season and you gotta trust. I've tried 'em all, I really have, and the only church that truly feeds the soul, day in, day out, is the Church of Baseball." ~~Annie Savoy~~.....................
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