Nick

yeah basically i go to school and work at equinox. Ucla is a little bit less than I expected, but still a cool place overall. Lately, ive been a little disillusioned with this place though. I miss my friends, I miss high school ironically, I miss old things. I can't seem to think abstractly or creatively anymore i just think in equations and results. Sometimes i feel like my edge is gone and im just trudging my way towards a degree and a white collar typical engineering job. I miss potential, mystery and the thoughts of before. I miss bbqs at 3AM and discussions about the Universe. I miss wasketfuckingball. This world in which I reside is tangentially related to my existence. I pretty much live for my mo (melissa) and the future- I always haved lived for the future and always will-(thats what keeps you from going insane). I have a kawasaki ninja, capable of folding space and time upon itself in a fury of acceleration leaving me literally smiling. Crowdedness, akwardness, lines, fucking college idiots with not an ounce of common sense- freedom from thereof ok? Thoughts are dreams are memories are nothing that is everything. I remember one night when I stared at the stars and remembered my future. When azure turned to purple turned to black, and the blue and gold flags were all the remained. We now all lead fragmented lives independent of each other, and that is what saddens me most.