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If your free you'll never see the walls

About Me

My name is Natasha, I was born February 18, 1988. I come from Irish, Italian, Indian, and Dutch decent. I have blue eyes and currently red hair.
I'm pretty spontaneous. I don't want to have to look back on my life and regret not taking chances, so I live for the moment. I believe lifes to short to play it safe. I'm usually always energetic and people tend to assume I'm on drugs because of this. I can assure you that I'm not, I just like to have fun.
I dye my hair alot, I love to experiment.
I'm a clean freak, if I'm bored I'll start cleaning.
I have a big ocd with things having to be organized alphabetically and I also have taphephobia.
I firmly believe that laughter is the best medicine. I have a twisted and vulgar sense of humour that most people usually don't understand.
Music is a big part of my life. It's always been a huge outlet for me and I consider it my therapy.
The most important thing in my life though is my friends and family. I wouldn't be where I am today without there support, they really helped me turn my life back around. I have the most amazing best friends. We've all been through so much together and they've never failed to pull through. Were all so much alike it scares me sometimes.
I will openly admit that I tend to spoil my pets, I can't help it though. I try not to, but it's like a disease. I can't walk into a pet store without buying something. It's pathetic I know. I have a yellow lab named Vermilion and a Djungarian hamster named Samara.
I consider myself a friendly person, I'll talk to anyone. I do try to return all comments and messages. Unless you send me rude or perverted comments, then I will most likely ignore you. Please keep in my mind I'm not here to look for a boyfriend, so sending me perverted messages isn't going to impress me. I think thats rater annoying actually, come up with something more creative.
I'm pretty open-minded, but at the same time I'm also very opinionated and honest. I'm not afraid to speak my mind, or stand up for what I believe in. Although sometimes I'm a little to blunt and I don't know when to shut up.
I graduated college in December with an associates degree and I plan on going back to continue my education and get my bachelors.
I have a high tolerance to physical pain. And no that was not a reference to S&M you twat.
I consider myself trustworthy, I see no point in betraying others. Although I have a hard time trusting people because of numerous individuals.
I don't think highly of myself and I'm not one-sided. I believe there is a positive and negative to almost every situation.
I love to write, it's a great form of expression for me. I began writing when I was eight and since I was ten I've had three poems published. I'm currently working ..ing the third installment to a story I've been writing since I was fifteen.
I would love to travel the world one day. Theres tons of places I'm just dying to visit. My dream is to live in Europe.
I find beauty in simple things. Things most people don't take the time to notice or shun. And if I had the chance I wouldn't trade my scars.
I'm not proud of alot of things I've done, but the important part is that I have learned from my mistakes and have grown from them.
If I don't get back to you right away, please be patient. I'm not on here as much as I used to be and I don't live on here.
I also have profiles on Model Mayhem, Deviant Art, and VF. My modeling webpage is also listed on the DGS website. Ask and you shall receive these links. These are the only other profiles I am on. If you see any other profiles with my pictures on them, they are fakes.
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My Interests

Music, Vampire Mythology, modeling, Acey Slade, Karl Marx, Gory/horror movies, night time, rain, making people laugh, karoke, running, meeting new people, swimming, horoscopes, traveling, fishnets, photography, medieval and victorian theology + clothing, fire, writing, castles, purple, red, black, art, nature, roleplay, guitars, going to the movies, Halloween, Hot Topic, knives, summer, concerts, serial killers, visiting haunted places, the woods, smoothies, iced tea (I'm an addict), leopard print, stripes, leather, jewerly, and corsets. I also enjoy making up words, comics, and stupid pickup lines with Jess, raving with Angel, and dancing with my legendary dancing partner Amber.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who has made an impact on my life through art and people who aren't afraid to look outside the walls of conformity.

Music:

Agent Provocateur, Alice Cooper, American Head Charge, Android Lust, Audioslave, A Perfect Circle, Bella Morte (saw live), Bif Naked, Bile, Bloodsimple (saw live), Bullet For My Valentine (saw live), Burn Season, Bush, Candlebox, Carfax Abbey (saw live), Chevelle, CKY, Coal Chamber, Cold, Collective Soul, Collide, Cradle Of Filth, Creature Feature, Deadstar Assembly (saw live), Deadsy, Deathstars, Deftones, Demon Hunter, Demons & Wizards, Dido, Dimmu Borgir, Dope, Dope Stars Inc, Earshot, Epica, Evanescence, Finger Eleven, Fiona Apple, Flyleaf, Future Leaders Of The World, Garbage, Godhead, Godsmack, Guano Apes, Heretics In The Lab, In Flames, Jack Off Jill, Kamelot, Kidneythieves, Killswitch Engage, Kittie, Korn, K's Choice, Lacuna Coil (saw live), Latexxx Teens, Live, Laika, Lofidelity Allstars, Marilyn Manson, Massive Attack, Metallica, Mindless Self Indulgence, Murderdolls, Muse, Mushroomhead, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Oomph!, Opeth, Orgy, Otep (saw live), Out Hud, Pantera, Pink, Placebo, Porcelain and the Tramps, Portishead, Powerman 5000, Probot, Puscifer, Rammstein, Rob Zombie (saw live), Sarah Fimm, Shinedown, Shiny Toy Guns, Slipknot, Snake River Conspiracy, Sneaker Pimps, Soundgarden, Starlit, Static-X, Stone Sour, Still Life Decay, Switchblade Symphony, System Of A Down, T.A.T.U, T.H.C., The Birthday Massacre, The Red Paintings, Three Days Grace, Thrice, Tool, Type O Negative (saw live), Within Temptation, White Zombie, Zeromancer

Movies:

10 Things I Hate About You, Blood And Chocolate, Center Stage, Clerks, Clerks II, Cruel Intentions, Dirty Love, Disturbing Behavior, Earthsea, Ghostship, Ginger Snaps, House Of 1000 Corpses, Helen Of Troy, I Know Who Killed Me, Incubus, Labyrinth, May, Queen Of The Damned, Red Eye, Resident Evil 1-3, Serenity, Silent Hill, Strangeland, Super Troopers, Tamara, The Craft, The Devils Rejects, The Lost Boys, The Return, Thirteen, Underworld 1+2, Urban Legend 1+3, Valentine, Waiting.

Television:

ANTM, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Mad Tv, Point Pleasant, Project Runway, Smallville, and Trigger Happy TV.

Books:

Buried Secrets, Dark Lies, Go Ask Malice, Sacred Sins, The Midnight Club, and The Real Bettie Page.I support these musicians + bands!

Heroes:

I look up to these ladies!Bettie PageOtep Shamaya (Otep) There is so many more people that I look up to and to make a list of them all would be neverending, but my parents are my true heroes.
Loathes Conformity, narcissism, close-minded people, pedophiles, animal abuse, rape, liars, cheaters, stereotypes, Bush, backstabbers, when people ask me for nude pics, profile hackers, writers block, cold weather, drugs, bad hygiene, thousand leggers (I'm afraid of them), people who take themselves to seriously, drama, when people throw the word love around, not being able to forget the past, most religions, insomnia, racism, homophobes. People who are miserable 24/7- take Prozac and stop whining already, we've all been through shit. Half the music that comes out today and most trends. When people ask me questions that are clearly stated or anwsered in my profile.

My Blog

When will this end

To my Mother To my Father It’s your son or It’s your daughter Are my screams Loud enough for You to hear me? Should I turn this up for you? I sit here locked inside my head Remembering eve...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 11:41:00 PST

WTF!!!!!! BLARG!! ASS FUCK!

I wasn’t aware I signed up for a myspace dating service.... Oh wait thats because I didn’t!!! Ok so I know this particular site I’m referring to is for myspace profiles and stuff and...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 10:47:00 PST

Our Sins

The sicknessit’s rampidit’s globalevil prevailsdilatedmutatedwith hatredour sinsunveiledThis movie star’s an iconHis paychecks nice and thickHe entertains the masses with funny cleve...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Thu, 13 Mar 2008 12:56:00 PST

Confession

So yeah I'm going to be completely honest with how I feel right now, because  hell I'm an honest person and if you don't like it you can go have sex with an aids infested gorilla. Ok lately ...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Sun, 09 Mar 2008 11:49:00 PST

Haunted Cemetery

Ok so two weekends ago I was hanging out with Angel and we decided to go visit this cemetery that’s supposed to be haunted. Every since then I haven’t been able to shake the trip from my m...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 09:40:00 PST

Uber Thanks

I just wanted to thank everyone who wished me a happy bday last month and that I haven't forgotten about you all  : )  I keep getting alot of messages from people asking if I'm mad at them o...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Mon, 03 Mar 2008 01:54:00 PST

A Wilted Rose

I wrote this February 20, 2006 (please do not steal this!)   I couldn't have wanted more, I never asked for this you were something I couldn't endure. My whole life came down to this, I didn't ne...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 12:22:00 PST

Otep Concert 12/6/07

So last night was pretty much the most amazing night of my life! Last night I saw Otep at the Croc Roc and well it was fucking amazing! Bloodsimple was really good to, I suggest you guys check them ou...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 06:57:00 PST

Sick Cycle Carousel

If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mineIf it had a home would it be my eyes?Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of thisWell here we go now one more timeCause I tried to c...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Sat, 20 Oct 2007 05:04:00 PST

What You Are

And when you wanted me,I came to you.And when you wanted someone else, I withdrew.And when you asked for light, I set myself on fire.And if I go far away,I know you'll find another slave.Now I'm free ...
Posted by Paper Doll Decay on Wed, 19 Sep 2007 02:36:00 PST