my chemical rachel™

I'd like to meet:

if i could meet mychem and this guy, my life would be complete.

we hold in our hearts

the sword and the faith.
2/11/08 R.I.P. Shawn Foley & Jon Dolceacqua.
3/13/08 R.I.P. Mike Vicino.

Music:

this is the part where, due to a bullet scrambling your brain, your capillaries start to leak fluid, causing swelling that puts pressure on your motor neurons and voluntary motor activity fails.

Movies:

baby, ill be your frankenstein.

Television:

Ouran High School Host Club!! ♥

death note!

Books:

Heroes:

I just wanted you to know
That the world is ugly,
But you're beautiful to me.
This man, his vision and his band have saved my life.
I can't speak for the thousands of other teenagers with those words on their lips, but they hold true and close to my heart. I have been a MyChem fan for 5 years. They have truly touched me and inspired me to become a better person. They made me feel like I was not alone. They made me believe that there are good things and good people in this world, despite how frightening and cruel it can be. They told me that everything was going to be okay. To this very day, they make me want to wake up every morning and truly live. I want to get up every day and work hard at something to make as big a difference in someone else's life as MCR has made in mine. Gerard Arthur Way is my hero, role model, and inspiration. He is everything I love about this world. Thanks to him, I want to live my life to the fullest and with no regrets, holding my head up high, because I am SO PROUD of the person I have become thanks to him. Say whatever you'd like about me, but I know that these past 5 years has made me a BETTER PERSON. Say whatever you'd like about Gerard, but I know that he is the strongest fucking person I have ever seen in my life. He has overcome so much; from clinical depression to drug and alcohol abuse to ROCK BOTTOM, and has rose to the fucking top. He manipulated those horrible moments of his life into something he learned from and matured from. He knows now what path he needs to be on, and exactly how to tread on it. I truly admire his strength the most out of all of his redeeming qualities. He also inspires me creatively. He is not afraid to cross lines, to stray from the beaten path; he's not afraid to piss people off. He taught me that it's okay to not be cool. He taught me it's okay to express yourself and make a name for yourself with the person you are. Until MCR came into my life, I had been clutching onto my individuality for dear life. I honestly feel like I have grown up along with these guys; they had helped me through so many tough times, given me a place to vent, a place to battle all of my demons. My imperfections. My fears. They helped me FIND MYSELF. That is such a beautiful thing that I simply cannot let go for the rest of my life. Even if one day I don't like MCR any longer, I can never forget that right now, they are one of the biggest and most influential parts of my life. I will always carry that love in my heart. Sometimes hearing one of their songs anywhere just makes me so happy I want to cry, or I can't even speak. I don't have an explanation for it, and I don't need to. All that matters is what they have done for me, and that it means so much to me. 5 years ago, I was afraid to live. I was afraid to face rejection, scrutinizing, fear, betrayal, failure, sadness, solitude and loss. Now I know that all of these are a part of life, and they're what make the beautiful things in it all the more special. I am no longer afraid to live.
"Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit and never let them take you alive."
-Gerard Way
Gerard Way. Mikey Way. Bob Bryar. Frank Iero. Ray Toro. Thank you so much. I love you boys with all of my heart, and I will take that to the grave and beyond.