YOU LOVE ONE SIDE OF ME THIS ONE SIDE OF ME YOU HATE THIS SIDE OF ME THIS ONE SIDE OF
ME, AND IN THE MIDDLE, MY HEAD IS SPINNING, CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE IS MY MIND.
cherry gum pops and lollipops licked. you must think i'm crazy, a fire burning inside my heart can't take anymore.
the cold water washes everything away. if you were my sea i'd be your mermaid.
i grow my hair out to feel beautiful, i vomit to feel perfect. no wait....i lied, i'm fine with the way i look. i weep in the mirror of truth.
i smear make up, glitter eyes. red lips. she's a vamp.
i dance to the disco. the lights of the city flash. bonfire run.
THIS IS THE STUFF WE DO TO DESTROY. THE LOVE WE'LL KILL TO MAKE MONEY AND NEVER SHARE. THE THOUGHT OF MEMORIES IN A PARAPHRASE ARE TOO DIFFICULT TO UNDERSATND. TO FATHOM UP. WATCH THE DEAD BODIES COME TO LIFE AGAIN AS I TELL HER ALL MY SECRETS. THE SKELETONS IN MY CLOSET ARE BOLTED UP AND I WANT THEM TO BREAK IT DOWN, KICK IT DOWN, WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU HAVE TO DO TO SHED THE NASTY LAYER OFF MY FIGURE AND SEE THE REAL ME. GOING OUTSIDE BRINGS NO PLEASURE TO THE DRAMA THEY HAVE IN STORE FOR ME. I TRY NOT TO THROW UP FOR ONCE BUT AS I PASS A TRASH CAN I CAN'T HELP BUT BE SUCKED INTO THIS SILVER TRASH CAN ABYSS AS I THROW MY HEAD DOWN IT WITH THE RANCID FUME OF VOMIT. 12-3-07
YOU THINK THE ANSWER LIES WITHIN WHEN YOU'RE HEART BETRAYS YOU
MY FAVORITE HOIDAY IS HALLOWEEN, I LOVE AUTUMN AND SUMMER.
HE'S MY PERSONAL LACHRYMOSE I'D DO ANYTHING FOR.
SOME EMOTIONS ARE LIKE A SLAP IN THE FACE, YOU CAN'T MISS THEM.
TRAGEDY IS ALWAYS JUST AROUND THE BEND.
I'D WASTE AWAY IN SOMEONES ARMS IF I COULD.
LOVE IS WHEN YOU LIVE TO HEAR SOMEONE BREATH, TO HEAR THEIR HEARTBEAT.
LOVE IS LIKE FIRE, SPREADS RAPIDLY AND IS HARD AS HELL TO PUT OUT.
SHOULD I SMILE BECAUSE WE ARE FRIENDS? OR CRY BECAUSE THAT IS ALL WE WILL EVER BE?
IF YOU DON'T LIKE SOMETHING, CHANGE IT. IF YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT, CHANGE THE WAY YOU THINK ABOUT IT.
YOU'LL NEVER FIND IT, IF YOUR LOOKING FOR IT...
THE GREATEST THING YOU'LL EVER LEARN, IS JUST TO LOVE AND BE LOVED IN RETURN.
YOU SMILED AT ME, LIKE JESUS TO A CHILD
DISCO BALLS, CUPCAKES, ENERGY DRINKS, PAPER HEARTS, ALAINA BEATON, BOYS, GIRLS, BLOOD, EDWARD GOREY, BATHTUBS, HAIR DYE, RAINBOWS, RAIN, POND SCUM, MUSIC, ZOMBIES, VAMPYRES, SEMANTICS AESTHETICS, SKINNY DIPPING, SWIMMING IN THE SEA, DRAWING MERMAIDS, CAMPING WITH FRIENDS, BATHING WITH A SIGNIFICANT OTHER, MAKING LOVE, TONGUE CONTACT, TIARAS, LOVE, MYSPACE, FAKE EYELASHES, HELLO KITTY, STRAWBERRY LIP GLOSS, PEARLS, CUTS, SCARS, GRAFITTI, CHEWED UP PENS, TIRE SWINGS, VIOLENT AND ROUGH AFFECTION, SPIDERS, POETRY, ART, PHANTASMAGORIAS, SALT WATER TAFFY, DIAMONDS, BIG HAIR, BAND AIDS, TATTOOS, PIERCINGS, METAL, GLITTER, CHAINS, EYELINER, HAIR STRAIGHNERS, RED LIPSTICK, "NICOLE RICHIE" SHADES, BEATING HEARTS, STARFUCKS (STARBUCKS), SKELETONS, ROBOTS, GUM BALLS, LOLLIPOPS, CAMERAS, NINTENDO, BOTTLES AND PILLS, SCREAMING, CLIFFORD THE BIG RED DOG, CURIOUS GEORGE, GAS STATIONS, PINS, PUPPIES, BUNNIES, KITTIES, UNICORNS/HORSES, MERMAIDS, FAERIES, BED HEAD, WEED, PEACE, BEER, GUNS, TANKS, CIGARETTES, FAKE COLORED CONTACTS, CHERRY BLOSSOMS, TEA, LIFE, STORIES, LIGHTERS, STONES, SMOKING, ABANDONED HOTELS/HOUSES/BUILDINGS, PUDDLES, LIBERATION, ROCKING OUT HARDCORE IN THE CAR, POP ROCKS.
Which Trainspotting Character Are You?
UNDER THE STREET LAMP YOU KISS ME. I'M STARING BEYOND YOU. LACING MY FIGNERS THROUGH YOURS. I WANT TO BELIEVE YOUR WORDS. WORDS OF LIFE. AND HOW MUCH YOU WANT ME. I SLEEP WITH COMFORT OF DARKNESS. ETERNAL QUESTIONING. DEMANDING REASON. EXPECTING NOTHING IN RETURN. FUCK. I ALMOST LOST MY LIFE TO THE OCEAN. LET ME FLOAT AWAY OUT TO SEA. CHOKING ON SALT WATER. I'LL BE THE DIEING MERMAID. THE WATER NYMPH THAT NEVER GOT HER PRINCE. I'VE BEEN CALLED STUPID BEFORE. MAYBE I REALLY AM. FOR EVERYTHING I DO. DAY AFTER DAY I SEE YOU AND WANT TO EXPLORE YOUR WHOLE BODY. UNDERNEATH ALL THOSE COOL AND TRENDY CLOTHES YOU WEAR. WONDER WHERE YOU'VE BEEN AND WHERE YOU WANT TO BE. I PICK UP THE CLOTHES UP FROM MY BEDROOM FLOOR. I CAN PUT THEM BACK IN THEIR PROPER PLACE SO EASILY. WISH I COULD DO THAT WITH MY LIFE. I DON'T HATE MYSELF. BUT I HATE WHAT I DO. AND SOMETIMES WHAT I BELIEVE IN. LIKE YOUR LIES. YOUR SWEET LIES THAT SUCK ME INTO A BLACK ABYSS OF SENSASUAL LOVE I CAN'T HELP BUT EMBRACE. I WRAP MY ARM ACROSS YOUR CHEST AND I FEEL YOUR WARM CHEEK AGAINST MINE. YOU STICK YOUR CIGARETTE IN MY FACE AND I TAKE A DRAG WHILE YOU STILL HOLD IT THROUGH YOUR FINGERS. WHAT CAN I SAY? I LIKE YOU A LOT. I'M NOT SAYING THAT'S A BAD THING. BUT I'M NOT SAYING THAT'S A GOOD THING EITHER. I SMELL VOMIT. MAYBE THE SPIT ON MY T SHIRT IS WHAT IT IS. IT STINKS SO BAD THAT ODDLY I LIKE IT. CAN WE GO BACK TO THE GOLDEN OLDEN DAYS? WHEN WE WERE BEST FRIENDS? I LOVE YOU AND I'M A FUCKING FOOL. I DRINK WATER. IT GOES SPLISH SPLASH INSIDE ME. TOUCHING MY INSIDES. MY INTESTINES. LOVELY. I WAS GAZING INTO YOUR EYES AND YOU LOOKED BACK AT ME. YOU PULLED ME TOWARDS YOU TO KISS YOUR LIPS, HAVING THE TASTE OF NOTHING, THE TASTE I CRAVE. I URINATE AND COUNTS THE SECONDS TILL I NO LONGER HEAR LITTLE SPLASHING. HUH. IT'S A WHILE. WE LACE OUR FIGERS TOGETHER AGAIN THE NEXT DAY. THE SUN BLINDS MY EYES. THE HEAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M ON FIRE AND RED ALL OVER. TOUCHING YOUR BODY AND ADDING MORE HEAT IS HEAVEN. THIS IS MY LIFE. I SURPRISE MYSELF HOW FAR I'VE GOTTON WITHOUT SLITTING MY OWN GODDAMN WRISTS.
NIGHTMARES CREEP INTO MY HEAD AGAIN ON THIS BLISSFUL COLD SPRING NIGHT. THE BLACK SHEETS ARE MY ONLY PROTECTION. I WAKE UP THINKING ABOUT WHAT YOU MAYBE DOING RIGHT NOW. I LONG FOR WATER.
MAYBE JUST TO DRINK.
MAYBE JUST FOR SOMEONE TO DUNK ME AND DROWN ME.
MAYBE JUST TO LOOK AT AND SEE MY REFLECTION LOOKING BACK AT ME IN COMPLETE DISGUST.
WHATEVER THE REASON, I WANT IT. I SEE SPECKS OF WHITE IN THE AIR THROUGH THE DARLNESS. I THINK....COCAINE? CRAVE? WHITE MYSTERY CRAVE? LIKE BACK IN THE DAY? THAT SWEET CANDY. COCAINE CAN BE CANDY. DEPENDING ON HOW YOU LOOK AT IT RIGHT? EVERYONE LOVES CANDY DON'T THEY? DIRTY FINGERNAILS, BRIGHT PINK COLOR POLISHED ON ONLY THE MIDDLE FINGER FOR THAT SPECIAL MOMENT. IT'S NIGHTS LIKE THIS I WISH YOU WERE BY MY SIDE. WE COULD GET LOST UNDER THE SEA OF BLANKETS, TOGETHER AND NAKED.
TOGETHER FOREVER...
AS WE DANCE UNDER THE STREET LAMPS, PASS CURFEW ON A SATURDAY NIGHT IN THE PARK, I WATCH YOU AS YOU WATCH ANOTHER. YOU WOULD GAZE AT HER, THE TWO OF YOU SNOGGING, AND I WILL PRETEND THAT I DON'T CARE, I COULDN'T BE BOTHERED, THAT IT DOESN'T HURT ME DEEP INSIDE. OUR LIVES REVOLVE AROUND THE DRUGS, THE GLAMOUR, THE LAUGHTER. YOU'RE LONG GONE NOW, A FADED MEMORY. WHEN I TELL THE STORY TO PEOPLE OF YOU AND I, THEY MAY THINK YOUR JUST IMAGINARY, NEVER EXISTED AND YOU WERE ALL MADE UP IN MY MIND. BUT WHEN THEY ASK ME ARE YOU OVER IT? I'LL REPLY "NONSENSE" BECAUSE MAYBE YOU WEREN'T REAL TO BEGIN WITH. MAYBE YOU WERE JUST A TWISTED ANGEL THAT FELL FROM THE SKY AND INTO MY LIFE. NOT MUCH PURPOSE. AND YOU CAME AND WENT SO FAST. THIS IS NOT THE END BUT A NEW BEGINNING, DO YOU STILL SEE ME IN YOUR DREAMS? AM I YOUR PERSONAL NIGHTMARE? DO I CLOUD YOUR MIND WITH MEMORIES OF THE PAST YOU WISH TO FORGET? AM I REALLY THAT MUCH OF A BOTHER? I CAN STILL REMEMBER YOUR VOICE, ECHOING, THROUGH MY BRAIN. I STILL REMEMBER YOUR SCENT. THE WORDS YOU SPOKE THAT HAD NO MEANING TO ME. THOUGH FRIENDSHIP IS SUNK, I HOPE FORGIVENESS IS STILL AFLOAT. FORGIVE ME FOR TRYING SO HARD TO MAKE YOU HAPPY WITH ME. I FORGIVE YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE A LIVING HELL IN RETURN, CAUSE THAT'S ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO DO. (8-7-07)
What I like
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boys
Boyd Holbrook
Ryan Ross
Pete Wentz
Teddy Geiger
Macaulay Culkin
Conor Oberst
Randy Harrison
Elijah Wood
Liam Aiken
Jared Leto
Gerard Way
Drake Bell
Brain Molko
Kurt Cobain
Leonardo Dicaprio
Ewan McGregor
Tom Felton (Draco Malfoy)
girl
Jessica Alba
Avril Lavigne
Rihanna
Ashlee Simpson ..
Milla Jovovich
Porcelain
Emily Browning
Daveigh Chase
Sheri Moon Zombie
Amy Lee
Courtney Love
Jennifer Lopez
Victoria Beckham
Omahrya Mota
Keira Knightely
Hilary Swank
Claire Danes
Asia Argento
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My love, Earl Cain
The greatest demon ever, Inuyasha!
I Love Macaulay Culkin
WE CAN LIVE LIKE KINGS!!!!!!!
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Music
5 Days Dirty
30 Seconds to Mars
A Dozen Furies
A Static Lullaby
Action Action
AFI
Against All Authority
Against Me!
Aiden
All Bets Off
All That Remains
AMEBIX
Amy Winehouse
Anam Cara
Anberlin
Another Breath
Armor for Sleep
As I Lay Dying
ASSUCK
Avril Lavigne
BabyShambles
Bat For Lashes
Between Home and Serenity
Between the Buried and Me
Bjork
Bleeding Through
BLESSTHEFALL
Boyslikegirls
Bright Eyes
Bring Me the Horizon
Bullet for my Valentine
Bury Your Dead
Caliban
Carter Beats the Devil
Choking Victim
Circa Survive
Circus! Circus!
City Sleeps
CKY
Coal Chamber
Cradle of Filth
CSS
Cute is What We Aim For
Dead Poetic
Dir En Grey
Disturbed
Drop Dead, Gorgeous
Duran Duran
Eighteen Visions
Eleventyseven
Elliot Smith
Enya
Evanescence
Fall of Troy
Fall Out Boy
Falling Up
FAMILY FORCE 5
Fear Before the March of Flames
Fifteen
Fight Paris
Four Letter Lie
Foxy Shazam
FROM FIRST TO LAST
From Autumn to Ashes
Funeral Dress
Funeral for a Friend
Funeral for the Living
Greenley Estates
Grendel
GRIEF
Halifax
Haste the Day
Hatebreed
Hawthorn Heights
Hellogoodbye
Heaven Shall Burn
Holowhed
Hollywood Undead
Hopesfall
I am Ghost
In Flames
Insane Clown Posse
Jack Johnson
Jeffree Star
JOB FOR A COWBOY!!!!!
Kylesa
Korn
LEFTOVER CRACK
LINKIN PARK!!!!!!!!
Lost Prophets
Love Equals Death
Lovehatehero
Mando Diao
Mayday Parade
Marilyn Manson
Matchbook Romance
M.I.A.
Mindless Self Indulgence
MIYAVI! MIYAVI! MIYAVI!
MIYAVI ROCKX!
My American Heart
My Chemical Romance
My Unsaid Everything
Mozart Season
NAUSEA
Necro
Necrossis
Nine Black Alps
Nirvana
Norma Jean
On the Last Day
Open Hand
Operation Ivy
Our Hearts Hero
PANIC! AT THE DISCO *Sigh* Ryan Ross
Pantara
Paolo Nutini
Paramore
Peaches
Phantasmagoria
Poison
Poison the Well
PORCELAIN AND THE TRAMPS
Project 86
Rammstein
Rancid
Reel Big Fish
Remember the Day
Rise Against
Roses are Red
RU36
Saosin
Savage Machine
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Senses Fail
Shiny Toy Guns
Silverstein
Skillet
Slipknot
Something Corporate
Stellar Kart
Story of the Year
Street Dogs
Suicide Silence
Taking Back Sunday
Tegan and Sara
TEM EYOS KI
The Academy Is...
The All-American Rejects
The Birthday Massacre
The Blood Brothers
The Brilliant Green
The Format
The Fratellis
The Gazette- listen to "Filth in the Beauty"
The Horrors
The HorrorPops
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
The Ocean
The October
The Rasmus
The Smashing Pumpkins
The Used
Thursday
Tiger Army
TOXIC NARCOTIC
Unearth
Uffie
UNDEROATH
Waterdown
Yesterdays Rising
Movies
30 DAYS OF NIGHT
300
A Series of Unfortunate Events
Acts of Worship
Alpha Dog
All I Want (Try Seventeen)
Army of Darkness
Bunshinsaba (Witchboard)
Black Hawk Down
Boys
Boys Don't Cry
Breakfast on Pluto
Chicago
The Chumscrubber
Clockwork Orange
Dazed and Confused
Death Proof
Domino
Drop Dead Gorgeous
Eight Crazy Nights
Elephant
EVIL DEAD 1 and 2
Factory Girl
FAST AND THE FURIOUS: TOKYO DRIFT
Fast Times At Ridgemont High
Ferris Bueller's Day Off
Fight Club
Freddy Got Fingered
Gawi (Nightmare)
Ghost
Hairspray
Imaginary Heros
Little Miss Sunshine
Lord of War
Lords of Dogtown
Memoirs of a Geisha
Mean Girls
MIRRORMASK
MOULIN ROUGE
Mysterious Skin
PARTY MONSTER: Anything Macaulay Culkin
Penny Dreadful
Planet Terror
Red Eye
Resident Evil 1, 2, and 3
Requiem for a Dream
Rocky Horror Picture Show
† Romeo+Juliet †
Run Lola Run
Sid and Nancy
Silent Hill
♠ SIN CITY ♠
SLC Punk
Spun
Striptease
♥ TANK GIRL ♥
The Covenant
The Dark Crystal
The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things
The Hills Have Eyes
The Invisible
The Producers
THE QUEEN OF THE DAMNED
The Ring 1 & 2: Anything Naomi Watts
Tim Burton films
TRAINSPOTTING
Tristan+Isolde
Velvet Goldmine
T.V.
Adult Swim, Disney Channel, Bravo, FEARnet, Logo.
Aqua Teen Hunger Force
Bam's Unholy Union
Bleach
Blood+
Bratz
Cory in the House
COWBOY BEBOP!!!!!
DRAKE AND JOSH
Everybody Hates Chris
Everybody Loves Raymond
Eureka Seven
DRAWN TOGETHER!!!!!
FAMILY GUY!!!!!
FLCL
FULL METAL ALCHEMIST
George Lopez
Hannah Montana
INUYASHA
Jackass
King of Queens
Law & Order: Special Victims
My So-Called Life
NIP/TUCK
QUEER AS FOLK
Robot Chicken
Team Sanchez
The Boonedocks
The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy
The Little Mermaid *Urchin, 4ever my favorite*
Trinity Blood
Two and a Half Men
VIVA LA BAM
Wild and Out
Wild Boyz
Winx Club
W.I.T.C.H.
Yo Momma
By the age of 18, Nic Sheff was addicted to meth. It wasn’t pretty. He was skeletally thin, his arms were full of holes and green with infection, he broke into relatives’ houses and
stole from them…all in all, he spent five years bouncing back and forth between rehab and relapse until 2005.You wouldn’t think much good could come of an experience like that. Fortunately, though, Nic is a writer, and so is his dad, David Sheff. Together, they’re tackling the inner workings of addiction with their parallel memoirs, Tweak and Beautiful Boy. Which book you choose—and both are deftly written—depends on whether you prefer searing grief (David) or intense suffering (Nic). It’s like Woody Allen said: “Life is divided into the horrible and the miserable.â€
MANGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOY MEETS BOY BY DAVID LEVITHAN!!!!!!! The Realm of Possibilities. "Tithe" by Holly Black. "Go Ask Alice". Francesca Lia Block. Twilight series. The Keys to the Kingdom. Vampire Kisses series!
Pictures
GOD. Porcelain. Bam Margera. Emily Strange. Hello Kitty.
Music is my life..
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