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and so it is. . . life goes easy on me, most of the time

About Me



And because Love battles
And because love battles
not only in its burning agricultures
but also in the mouth of men and women,
I will finish off by taking the path away
to those who between my chest and your fragrance
want to interpose their obscure plant.
About me, nothing worse
they will tell you, my love,
than what I told you.
I lived in the prairies
before I got to know you
and I did not wait love but I was
laying in wait for and I jumped on the rose.
What more can they tell you?
I am neither good nor bad but a man,
and they will then associate the danger
of my life, which you know
and which with your passion you shared.
And good, this danger
is danger of love, of complete love
for all life,
for all lives,
and if this love brings us
the death and the prisons,
I am sure that your big eyes,
as when I kiss them,
will then close with pride,
into double pride, love,
with your pride and my pride.
But to my ears they will come before
to wear down the tour
of the sweet and hard love which binds us,
and they will say: “The one you love,
is not a woman for you,
Why do you love her? I think
you could find one more beautiful,
more serious, more deep,
more other, you understand me, look how she’s light,
and what a head she has,
and look at how she dresses,
and etcetera and etcetera”.
And I in these lines say:
Like this I want you, love,
love, Like this I love you,
as you dress
and how your hair lifts up
and how your mouth smiles,
light as the water
of the spring upon the pure stones,
Like this I love you, beloved.
To bread I do not ask to teach me
but only not to lack during every day of life.
I don’t know anything about light, from where
it comes nor where it goes,
I only want the light to light up,
I do not ask to the night
explanations,
I wait for it and it envelops me,
And so you, bread and light
And shadow are.
You came to my life
with what you were bringing,
made
of light and bread and shadow I expected you,
and Like this I need you,
Like this I love you,
and to those who want to hear tomorrow
that which I will not tell them, let them read it here,
and let them back off today because it is early
for these arguments.
Tomorrow we will only give them
a leaf of the tree of our love, a leaf
which will fall on the earth
like if it had been made by our lips
like a kiss which falls
from our invincible heights
to show the fire and the tenderness
of a true love.
Pablo Neruda


“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing... not healing, not curing... that is a friend who cares."
-Henri Nouwen
“Live life fully while you're here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You're going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don't try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human.”
-Anthony Robbins

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"I cannot even imagine where I would be today were it not for that handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy. Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun."
-Charles R. Swindoll
"I have found a paradox, that if I love until it hurts, than there can be no more hurt, only more love."
-Mother Teresa
“Just let me go, we have to be able to say what we have to say 'cause if you're not trying to make something better, then as far as I can tell, you are just in the way.”
“I was in dire straits financially, emotionally I was a wreck, and spiritually I was bankrupt. And today I'm happy to be who I am. It's good. Life is good.”
"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations."
-Anais Nin
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”

"How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the world she wants, rather than to create it herself.”
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“We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are.”
“I disregard the proportions, the measures, the tempo of the ordinary world. I refuse to live in the ordinary world as ordinary women. To enter ordinary relationships. I want ecstasy. I am a neurotic -- in the sense that I live in my world. I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to myself.”
My journal

My Interests


Where ever I am I always find myself looking out the window wishing I was somewhere else."

"I have been misunderstood perhaps more than anyone else ever, but it has not affected me, for the simple reason that there is no desire to be understood. If they misunderstand, it is their problem and their misery."
-Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

"I DO HOPE I HAVE ALWAYS EXPRESSED AMPLE GRATITUDE FOR ALL THE BLESSINGs THAT YOU'VE GIVEN ME IN MY LIFE." (REFERED TOWARDS GOD.)


"SO BE LONELY. LEARN YOUR WAY AROUND LONELINESS. MAKE A MAP OF IT. SIT WITH IT, FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE. WELCOME TO THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE. BUT NEVER AGAIN USE ANOTHER PERSON'S BODY OR EMOTIONS AS A SCRATCHING POST FOR YOUR OWN UNFULLFILLED YEARNINGS."

“I'm not insecure. I've been through way too much f**king sh*t to be insecure. I've got huge balls. But I've been humbled. That makes you grateful for every day you have.”
-Drew Barrymore

“Everyone has a right to be stupid; some people just abuse the privilege.”

"Love is always a choice."

I'd like to meet:



Music:

ATREYU, METALLICA,AVENGE SEVENFOLD, AUDIOSLAVE, IRON MAIDEN, NIRVANA, FOO FIGHTERS, THE RED JUMP SUIT, SYSTEM OF A DOWN, FINGER ELEVEN, CORROSION OF COMFORMITY, SALIVA, SAOSIN, HOOBASTANK, SHE WANTS REVENGE, JUDAS PRIEST, MAROON 5, LIGHTHOUSE, CREED, THREE DAYS GRACE, MEGADETH, MODEST MOUSE, MUSE, NEW ORDER, VYNILSHAKERZ, PARAMORE, RAMMSTEIN, RED HOT CHILLI PEPPERS, SUBLIME, THE WHITE STRIPES, THE KILLERS, 30 SECONDS TO MARS, THE FRAY, FLYLEAF, A FINE FRENZY, AIR SUPPLY, AMY WINEHOUSE, ANNA NALICK, BLACK SABBATH, CHEVELLE, COLD PLAY, DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE, DJ IRENE, DIDO, AUDIOSLAVE, MOBY, DJ TIESTO, EGYPT CENTRAL, EMMA BUNTON,GREEN DAY, FEIST, FRANZ FERDINAND, GODSMACK, GYPSI KINGS, HINDER, IN FLAMES, JARABE DE PALO, 3 DOORS DOWN, RISE AGAINST THE, HATEBREED, CELINE DION, SHANIA TWAIN, BRITNEY SPEARS, PILOT SPEED, NICKEL BACK, TOBY LIGHTMAN, PANTHERA . . .

Television:


"We accept the love we think we deserve. . . So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
- The perks of being a wallflower
"THERE ARE CONSTANT LEVELS OF CLOSENESS THAT I REALLY NEED FROM THE PERSON I LOVE [...] IT JUST DESTROYS ME TO NOT BE ABLE TO COUNT ON THAT AFFECTION WHEN I NEED IT."
"HOW CAN I ACCEPT BLISS WHEN IT COMES WITH THIS DARKNUNDERSIDE--BONE-CRUSHING ISOLATION, CORROSIVE INSECURITY, INSIDIOUS RESENTMENT AND, OF COURSE, THE COMPLETE DISMANTLING OF SELF THAT INEVITABLY OCCURS...."

Books:

"I'm a queen not a pawn. . . It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.

"Yet each man kills the thing he loves, from all let this be heard. Some does it with a bitter look, some with a flattering word. The coward does it with a kiss the brave man with the sword."

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."


Heroes:

My Blog

Johnny Cash "Hurt"

I hurt myself todayto see if I still feelI focus on the painthe only thing that's realthe needle tears a holethe old familiar stingtry to kill it all awaybut I remember everythingwhat have I become?...
Posted by ANA on Sat, 18 Oct 2008 01:01:00 PST

It is a huge thing to have earned with me if I can trust you...

 "Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart."  "I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't ...
Posted by ANA on Mon, 29 Sep 2008 12:42:00 PST

The Secrets of the Heart, Kahlil Gibran

I have loved you, but my love for you is painful to me and useless to you; and today I hate you, and hatred is a flood that sweeps away the dry branches and quavering houses. I have pitied your weakne...
Posted by ANA on Fri, 08 Aug 2008 10:07:00 PST

The perks of being a wallflower.

"He's my whole world [. . .] Don't ever say that about anyone again!" "Not everyone has a sob story and even if they do, it's no excuse." "And the people in the photographs always seem a lot happier t...
Posted by ANA on Mon, 28 Jul 2008 07:50:00 PST

MY CURRETN DREAMS

..> Your Dream: I DREAMT THAT I WAS TRYING TO CROSS AN INTERSECTION THAT WAS SATURATED WITH ON COMING TRAFFIC AND I COULDN'T CROSS. Words like traffic: Connections. Dealings. Movement. Chaotic pow...
Posted by ANA on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 08:29:00 PST