Internally: Finding the truths in life. Searching for the few pure hearted people left. Learning how to be at peace with the past. Finding hope and strength to face the future. Healing myself so I can accept love again.
Externally: Lazy mornings, late nights, laughing with friends, watching movies, music that says the things I'm unable to, art in all it's forms.
I adopted a cute lil' poison fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
Steiglitz
Right now, friends... but who knows. Just don't breathe on me, it's so... cliche.
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The Cure, Rancid, Lars Frederiksen and The Bastards, Nine Inch Nails, Sex Pistols, Dead Kennedys, Bodyjar, Dead Milkmen, Ministry, Social Distortion, Zombie, Ramones, Dropkick Murphys, Lords Of Acid, Nirvana, Eugenious, Flogging Molly, James, Pavement, Mark Lanigan, Meat Puppets, Op Ivy, Thrill Kill Kult, Joe Strummer, Toussaint McCall, Horrorpops, Devil Doll, Nekromantix, The Clash, KMFDM, Beastie Boys, Vandals, Angry Samoens, TSOL, Murphys Law, The Dwarves, GBH, Butthole Surfers, Revolting Cocks, Rocket 88, The Psycho Devilles, Depeche Mode, Roger Miret and The Disasters, Tiger Army, Guttermouth, Joy Division, New Order, The New Threat, Bob Marley, Bjork, Tori Amos... all kinds of stuff, mostly punk, industrial, some goth/indus., and cheesy 80's shit that makes me smile.
Donnie Darko, Imitation of Life (30's version), Willy Wonka, anything on serial killers, Clockwork Orange, House of 1000 Corpses, anything directed by Kevin Smith (except Jersey Girl), One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, Nightmare Before Christmas, Corpse Bride, Wuthering Heights, Romper Stomper, SLC Punk, Office Space, The Snake Pit, Fight Club, Natural Born Killers, What Dreams May Come, American History X, Crash, V for Vendetta (anything with Natalie), Garden State, Life Stinks, both The LOTR and Harry Potter series (Why do you have to just be a fan of one or the other??)... Lots of horror, drama, and a few comedies to make me not look so nuts... Just about anything that makes me think, cry, or puke. Preferably all of the above.
Mythbusters, Man vs. Wild, South Park, P&T's Bullshit!, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Nip/Tuck, Buffy (thanks Daniel for my obsession!), mostly any adult swim... Court TV profiles of serial killers, History Channel, Discovery Channel, not a big fan of sitcoms or "reality TV"...
Stephen King, Anne Rice, P.B. Shelley, Sylvia Plath, A. Tennyson, Chuck Palahniuk, Douglas Coupland, Mark Danielewski, Poppy Z. Brite, Elizabeth Dewberry Vaughn, Clive Barker, E.A. Poe, Homer, Lewis Carroll, Byron, Leonard Cohen, Camus, J.D. Salinger, Nietzsche... many many more...
Hero? Do they make those anymore?... OK, fine... my hero is Robert Smith.
Able to change band members, bemoan his lot in life, quote Shelley, play fantastic music, and never muss his hair...