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I am interested in making new friends. i have made some bad choices in keeping around people that were my so called "friends". i made choices for myself, but friends dont take advantage of you, consume all you buy, tear up your home, and never give in return in any way. they dont get you drunk when you have drinking problem, and then try to get whatever it happens to be what they want. I have also been too loyal to friends ive had in the past. sometimes people change for the worse. or you were just blind to it when you were younger and cared too much by the time it was realized they only cared for an addiction or only themselves. it was hard to watch the life and human decency, and love, drain from their lives and eyes. i have had a vast array of friends from all kinds of backgrounds, yet they all had one thing in common, using me for something they wanted with no reguard if they were putting me or my safety in jeopardy, at one point or another, or all the time. so i fianally had to get these people out of my life. even people i still really care for had to go as well. i just needed to fall of the race of the earth and better myself and think and gain perspective.
no more allowing myself to be walked on or fucked over. i am the queen of revenge, i just though drama and bullshit was something that should be left in high school.
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I am a good judge of character, sometimes to make a real decision, because some people are very deceptive. or have to very different sides. I just want to spend time with people that make me feel good, that are fun to spend time with, that you can trust, and be there for eachother when one needs the other. im not saying i want everyone to be my best friend, but i want all my friends to be good friends. And since changing my life around, i have met some great people that i never would have otherwise. no one is perfect, and we all have our issues. Jerry, the existing roomate when i moved in has turned out to be one of the most genuine and lovabe people i have met. funny as hell, everyone that knows him adores him. always trying to do whatever he can to cheer you up. I just want to keep him and take him everywhere i go! he has some typical guy traits, but the good deffinantly outweighs those little quirks.Teri, the cool ass chick across the street diagnoly, is such a sweetheart. she know my secrets and i know hers, and we can talk about anything. i know if i ever needed anything i wouldnt have to hesitate to ask. although i try not to ask much of anyone. shes a bit of a party girl, and has some hard things to deal with in her life,but i totally relate! and jerry has had his share of the world being cruel. tanya at the tattoo shop is such a sweetheart, i will be sad to see her move, but hopefully she wont be gone too long!
I just gotta do what i gotta do to make my life a happy and healthy. and that means, i cant have certain people around. kinda sucks.
im interested in doing whatever i have to to start making myself and those i care about happy. i have no shame. i love to be sexy and show off, but hate to speak(sometimes). i dont care what people think about me, as long as the people i care about know the truth! ...
Obviously, pictures of my self interest me! i am completely a model wannabe. i have been paid to model, i just cant say "i am a model" it sounds wrong. VETO RAMIREZ TAKES PRETTY MUCH ALL OF MY PHOTOS, SO OBVIOUSLY HE IS MY FAVORITE!(BEST FRIEND AS WELL)i totally enjoy unique/twisted/unconventional type stuff. blood especially.
Making clothes, going wild, traveling to the beach, Wine, mermaids, dancing, taking pictures of everything, running through the sprinklers at 2am, going out by myself and meeting people when i am in a brave mood, 4:20, strange bars, strip clubs! come give me money if i ever get the crazy urge to do that wild stuff again...
finding people i used to know, concerts, or watching friends play music,i cant live with out having music on, & HALLOWEEN IS THE BEST DAY EVER!!!
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swimming at night is always fun, and i love playing beauty parlor with my friends dying and cutting their hair and putting make up on them- and usually they are awake for it!
figuring out what i need to do to get my life back to mine. stop letting people walk all over me. no more doormat sara. thank you very much. im not a fucking yo-yo, for anyone!
Peitri! the best living male in existense, ever!
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PRINCE, he is my musical god- *bows to prince* i would also just love to meet all the musicians i listen to.
maybe also anyone who isnt a waste of my time.
Prince. If I Was Your Girlfriend.LIVE
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I AM NEVER OPPOSED TO MEETING NEW PEOPLE, IM JUST A HARD PERSON TO REALLY GET TO KNOW. WHO HAS TIME, REALLY, TO MEET AND MAKE NEW FRIENDS WHEN WE ALL HAVE TO SPEND MOST OF OUR TIME AT WORK!
ALTHOUGH, I AM SLOWLY REALIZING FRIENDS ARE EXTREMEMLY OVERRATED. I AM GETTING RID OF ALL THE PEOPLE I ONCE THOUGHT I CARED FOR. BACKSTABBING AND LIES ARE THE BASIS FOR A LOT OF RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE LEARNED LATELY. I AM THE ONE WHO ALLOWED MY SELF TO BE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF, SO I HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT MYSELF. BUT I HAVE NO EXPLANATION AS TO WHE SOME PEOPLE CAN CLAIM TO BE YOUR FRIENDS, AND USE YOU UP, THEN TRY TO DESTROY YOUR LIFE WITH SILLY LIES AND STORIES. WHAT IS THAT? JUST GO AWAY WHEN YOUR DONE WITH ME. HAVENT YOU DONE ENOUGH? I KNOW I AM A GOOD PERSON, AND VERY LOYAL, AND TO ANYONE WHO TRIES TO SAY ANYTHING CONTRARY TO THAT, IS A FUCKING LIAR. SOME PEOPLE NEED TO TAKE A LOOK AT THEIR OWN PATHETIC LIVES, BEFORE THEY GO THINKING THEY HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT GOES ON OR WHAT SHOULD GO ON IN MINE. WHEN YOU REACT LIKE A CHILD, IT JUST PROVES YOU ARE STILL JUST CHILDREN.
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i have a pretty good idea of what i want from other people i let in my life, (friends or more) *** someone who knows what they want, or at least working toward it. someone who knows and loves themself. who takes pride in their health and appearance. who does not play games. i hate when people make calculated moves in order to get a reaction, and then analyze the reaction beyond what is necessary. just be strait and honest and it wastes less of everyones time! its really easy to just say what is on your mind. really. someone who loves and respects those around them, family and friends, and treats these people with consideration and patience. i would love someone to tell me they love me, to let me know i mean something, to call me the stupid sweet names. i want all that finally. not a concrete plan of what is to come, just what feels right now. someone who will give me what i give them. TIME, LOVE AND APPRECIATION. an equal. no womanizers - im enough to handle - if you can! i am secure and confident, i dont need to compete with other girls for someones affection. i should not have to. no downers! we all have enough to be depressed about! life has so much fun and happiness to enjoy!
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PRINCE!!!!PUSHBOX!!!! tool, Sevendust
PICTURE OF PRINCE IN VEGAS! AT 3121!
Purple Rain, Under the Cherry Moon, Graffiti Bridge, the notebook, queen of the damned (shut up, i know) sleepy hollow, the fifth element, fantasia on acid, hell fucking yeah. dancing at the blue iguana, yellow submarine, blast from the past, kate and leopold, (im a sap) the last unicorn, the little mermaid, im bored with this.
The L Word, and any Prince related anything.i dont really watch television
Cutting, by Steven Levenkron....if anyone wants to ask me questions about why i do what i do - DON'T- just read the book., also one called "a bright red scream" even more insight than Cutting. IF YOU DONT KNOW ME, AND HAVE NEVER MET ME, AND DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THIS SUBJECT, YOU REALLY NEED TO SHUT THE F*** UP. BECAUSE PASSING JUDGEMENT ON SOMETHING YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT JUST PROVES YOU ARE IGNORANT AND MAKES EVERY WORD COMING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH SOUND LIKE A STUPID CHILD. A LESSON MUST BE LIVED IN ORDER TO BE LEARNED. NOBODY LIKES A CRITIC. ESPECIALLY ONE WHO HAS NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT. ITS BETTER TO THINK WHATEVER YOU WANT, BUT VOICING IT IN THE MANNER OF TALKING SHIT, JUST MAKES YOU SOUND LIKE THE SELF SERVING MORON THAT YOU MUST BE, IN ORDER TO TALK DOWN ON A PERSON WHO YOU KNOW ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ABOUT. IF YOU DONT LIKE MY BLOODY PICUTRES, THAN DONT LOOK, HOW HARD IS THAT? THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY. MWAH!
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skye o'malley-yes its one of those books, but dammit its good. the happy hooker was fun to read, you gasp and are disgusted and totally shocked.Cocaine: an unauthorized biography.
Pushbox! i love georgia and the boys!
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