Phil Before the March of Flames

About Me

aim = PhilB4theFlames

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Someone who actually respects herself.regardless of age. a high maintenance girl. someone that is a little crazy and most of all.a stalker... word.and herseriously the hottest girl on planet earth. not to mention thats sxe as fuck.

Music:

INTEGRITY, EARTH CRISIS, ONE KING DOWN, TURMOIL, VISION OF DISORDER, ADAMANTIUM, UNBROKEN, OUTSPOKEN, STRIFE, DOWNCAST, CAVE IN, AFTERSHOCK, ALL OUT WAR, ASCENSION, THE BACKLASH, CHAIN OF STRENGTH, CANON, CHOKEHOLD, COALESCE, JUDGE, CROWBAR, DILLENGER ESCAPE PLAN, DISEMBODIED, EARTHMOVER, EIGHTEEN VISIONS (OLD), TORN APART, DEADWEIGHT, EVERY TIME I DIE, EXCESSIVE FORCE, HATEBREED, THROWDOWN, PATH OF RESISTANCE, POISON THE WELL, DROWNING MAN, POLYGOT, SHAI HULUD, THREADBARE, GORILLA BISCUITS, MINOR THREAT.

Books:

the parallax view, finnegan's wake, inferno, more and more and more

My Blog

fuck life...

so some awesome shit happened to me today. ate good sandwiches. bought a shitty sampler that sounds like shit. watched a bum get fucked up. was inches from being arrested for driving while st...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Sun, 04 May 2008 03:54:00 PST

no good deed....

i put myself completely out there for someone who seemed to be in real trouble...now my heart is hamburger again.what a shocker i tried to help someone and got taken advantage of....now what?i go back...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Thu, 03 Apr 2008 10:50:00 PST

why?

sometimes i wonder if being myself is counterproductive to being in a relationship rather than condusive.
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 01:38:00 PST

hope

so i had all this fucking hope for tonight....and its been pissed away all because people keep reminding me of how much worth i DONT have.i think i have taken enough to do the job. i guess will find o...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 02:36:00 PST

i just dont care

and noone else does either.i have come to terms with it. i have even made plans to carry things out. i dont even know why i am tying so hard to write things out.i dont care about myself. i dont care a...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 12:21:00 PST

you want a resolution....

this isnt a plea for help. this isnt a come save me im hurting inside. this isnt a desperate call for attention. this is fact this is how i feel and how im being treated by everyone.my new years resol...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 05:10:00 PST

if

if monday night goes down the way i think it will.ill never go out again. it will be my new years resolution.never again.no more hope. no more love. promises that...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 01:29:00 PST

after

all those times i told you that.every single time i looked deep in your eyes and told you how i felt.for you to use that unique statement to describe someone else.its heartwrenching.its so hurtful tha...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Sun, 30 Dec 2007 03:11:00 PST

the perfect end...

to a perfect week.on top of everything thats happened.i just wrecked my car.might be totaled. please kill me, if you loved me you would.it was the last thing i cared about that hadnt left me....
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 12:25:00 PST

i lost her....

im so done with this. im so done with life. i cant do anything right, i cant be the person she wants me to be. i love her so much but now she doesnt care. she wants to be so far away from me and in an...
Posted by Phil Before the March of Flames on Wed, 26 Dec 2007 01:39:00 PST