the "what ifs" in life.........stuck on slow while everyone else is in fast foward. .....my heart is on my sleeve for you to come and smash like all the rest .....no more headlines, only deadlines and timelines ...no more mind fucks and heartbreaks. no more daydreams and make believe. childhood notions are all gone, love has exited the wrong door, no one can actually know anyone through one of these spaces, but let's try anyway. I'm just your average girl next door trying to get inspired.I'm the nerd that sat in the back of your class with her head in the books.The comedic mime from a completely different version of Alice in Wonderland. Love me or hate me, but no one can ever break me, so fuck trying and let's just be, whatever and whoever as long as it is true. .....a faint whisper before the big climax, the last call before the bar closes, the last sigh on an other wise uneventful night on the couch watching re-run after re-run. ....."....Love is just around the corner, don't shut your eyes to it, but don't get blinded by it.""Without you, today's emotions would be the scuf of yesterdays," ~Hipolito, the Writer, "Amelie""Life and death, energy and peace.If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could.The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it,for having been allowed to walk where I've walked,which was hell on earth, heaven on earth,back again,into,under, far in between,through it and above." ~Gia Carangi, "Gia""Before you can change the world you must realize that you, yourself, are a part of it. You can't stand outside looking in." ~The Dreamers."I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone, sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt." ~Celine, "Before Sunset"In your life you will meet many people. All are significant.They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello"."Fear is an awesome drug, don't let fear take control,use it as a motor. It takes practice.Put yourself into a situation when you're scared stiff.First there's panic,but after awhile the body's self-protection system kicks in.You do thing you've never dared.You overcome your limitations.You believe you can do anything." ~Jan, "The Edukators""If you're frightened of dyin' and you're holding on...You'll see devils tearing your life away. But...if you've made your peace,Then the devils are really angels Freeing you from the earth.....from the earth....from the earth" ~Jacob's Ladder
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