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this is to the people i know, the ones that dont who want to know me better, and the ones that i use to know! i just want everyone to know that lately i have been going through ALOT of changes.. there is soo much that i want to say and just dont know how to put it all together! first i have always been the one in my group of friends who is always down for whatever and up for anything! i always want to go out and party and have fun...ive never really kared about what people thought about me.. i lived to be happy and have fun.. i try not to let other people bring me down and i always do anything i can for a friend even if im the one suffering from it! lately i guess i made a big personality change! and some of my friends might not understand..trust me ive been one of those friends before too..i recently made a personality re-evalutaion..and kind of changed the way i was living life! i stoped being the wild crazy party girl and kind of became..the stay at home good girl.. i know BIG change.. i just found all of the stuff i use to do pointless to me now.. i guess u can say i grew up! now most of my friends think that this all happend because a recent love in my life! and to be honest.. he does have a big part in how i act now but he is not the reason for all of this! the things i do now are things ive been wanting to do for a while and knew i would come to a point in my life where it was going to happen i just didnt know when.. and since ive meet him ive decided to finally make these changes..i just want more out of life then always parting.. and all the drama that comes with it.. you have no idea how many enemies i have made and how many fights i have been in and how many druken moments that i have had.. no all bad but not all good.. we all have to live through our "stupid" moments to make smart ones! and from all of it i have learned that fighting is the stupidest way to solve an anger issue..and drinking although may feel like it helps then but will NEVER take away any problems that you have.. and you dont have to drink to have fun.. ive been through aLOT of heart achs and paint to now be able to appreciate the good things in life when they come around..and ive made alot of friends along the way! friends that i love and will always cherish..and freinds that i want to know that even though we dont hang out you will always have a place in my heart! and i will never forget you.. and for the friends that i have i love you very much and even though i make some changes i know that if anything goes wrong you will still be there for me!..and about the person that i love.. his name is igan.. no we really havnt been together for that love and i TRULEY do really love him.. as hard as it may be to believe.. you cant tell your heart how to feel.. it kind of has a mind of its own.. everything just feels right.. i really want eveything to work out between us.. and i know that even if it dosent.. i will be thankful to have loved this much when i thought it wasnt possible anymore.. and i know that my friends will be there for me either way! because that what friends are for! a TRUE friend to me is some one that no matter how much you hang out or dont hang out your feelings towards that friendship will never change.. and that any decision that any one of you might make the other will be there to support them no matter how sad it may be and that no matter how many arguements you may get into you will always work it out! there are really alot of ting that i have learned from my life! and really thats what growing up is all about.. going through things good and bad.. happy and sad.. and that the saying "if it dosent kill you it will only make you stronger" is the best advice anyone can give you! so after writing a whole story on hear.. i hope that some of u learned someting new about me and the one who alreadie know me understand me a little more now.. i love you all and i always will.. and good luck too all of you.. may your experieces bring you knowledge and help you understand your self a little better! bye!
"Ive learned that GOODBYES will ALWAYS hurt.. pictures wil NEVER replace accually having been there.. memories GOOD or BAD will bring tears.. and WORDS can never replace those FEELINGS!"
