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About Me

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CARA CARA CARA CARA CARA CARA is my love love love love loveI recognize several clashing..aspects..of myself. I am an aspiring singer,I model for kicks here and there. I am a writer. I think far too much. I have survived hell, and can survive you. I have morals and virtues. I am quite amused by people, and their general attitude that the end justifies the means... I do have a child. his name is Damien Avory. he was born sept. 4th 2002. he IS my everything. if you think less of me for having a child..well, I think less of you. I really have nothing else to say at the moment, so here is a poem pertaining to to who I am, and what I believe in. Anyone I've ever truely cared about, I still hold very dear to me, and do not walk away from them.
|||I AM.|||
What does it mean to exist?Is existance in your mind? In your spirit? In your being?What exactly is "being" to you? Who are you? I am. I am passion and intricacy. I am a perfectionist without perfection. I am everything I think and feel, I am everything say and do. I am everything I was, and I am everything I will be.I am the mistakes I have made and I am the morals I live by. I am a nurturing mother. I am an artist trapped inside of my mind. I am weak and I am strong. I am a juxiposition of myself. I am introverted. I am empathetic. I am.
I cannot live by what you expect of me, or by what I expect of me. To exist is to feel. To have feeling and to livewith a pain is my soul is to exist.
I will never be you and we can never be one. I can understand you and holdyour hand. I can stand beside you through all that you are. I can cherish and support you, I can wrap all that I am around you to keep yopu warm..but we can never be one.
I can be your light in the darkness. I can guide you by the hand, but we will never be one.
I can give you all that I am..but I will never lose it. I can give myself completely and still not lose any part of what I am.
You will never be alone so long as you do not walk away from me. Two souls can coexist and complete one another but they will never be one soul.
We can piece together to be we..but we will always be you and I. I will never turn away from you and you can never let go of all that I am.
I am.

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My Interests

I tend to be more inclined toward music, art and literature, though I do like to go out and enjoy myself...I stillvery much value my time that I can sit and collect my mind and write.

as i mentioned in my "about me" section. I sing. I've got a very broad musical range, to where I can sing low and bluesy or high and operatic ). the band my friend and I are working on putting togetehr is more like..metal..but with bluesy and industrial influences.It will be pretty sweet if it all works out.

I'd like to meet:

I dont know that I'm interested in meeting anyone.

as a rule I like:Interesting, intelligent, artistic people with various outlooks on life? I dont know. I love versitility, and I love to try to empathize and understand different kinds of people. though, if you're completely two dimensional, or self centered and only capable of caring about yourself..I'm really not interested in wasting my time getting to know you. I'm horribly analytical and should I speak with you, chances are it is more or less to understand what is going on in your skull.
I really like thoughtful philisophical people. I'm going to change the world. you're free to join the cause.
and. of course.. Damien Caine.

COMBO is the coolest person EVER!!!!

Music:

metal/rock/hardcore/industrial/folk

a perfect circle
atreyu
ani defranco
alanis morsette
bile
cradle of filth
coal chamber
cryptopsy
decapitated
dimmu borgir
dog fashion disco
earshot
earth crisis
evanescence
fiona apple
gwar
human waste project
ill nino
jack off jill
jewel
lacuna coil
lollipop lust kill
manhole
marilyn manson
mindless self indulgence
ministry
my ruin
my life wtih the thrill kill kult
nine inch nails
nightwish
otep
opeth
pigface
poison the well
shai hulud
skinny puppy
snake river conspiracy,
theatre of tragedy,
tura satana,
tool,
tori amos,
taproot,
type o negative,
walls of jericho,
Thats all I can think of off of the top of my head.

Movies:

The ones I'm in it with Cara.. DUH!!---- se7en, american beauty, requiem for a dream, pi, labyrinth-- it either has to be really fun--or really deep..

Heroes:

Did they get you to trade your heros for ghosts? .us" Lost Children Visit

My Blog

lkshflh

Sometimes I feel like... just... up and leaving. to a place where I'm not reminded of certain hurts and betrayals.On a related note, I need to get the little heart on my ankle covered up, because its ...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Thu, 08 Mar 2007 11:06:00 PST

Texas

Is anyone going to be upset if I move out of state?
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 08:11:00 PST

ilu semi

mutinoussemi..:NAMESPACE PREFIX = AIM /> (1:49:50 PM): you at work? myxkissxmayxkill (1:49:19 PM): yes mutinoussemi (1:49:59 PM): thats no fun myxkissxmayxkill (1...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 12:25:00 PST

mew

So, here and there, people like to mention their belief that I may have a drinking problem. then today cara mentions how the oly time I'm remotely affectionate and sweet is when I'm drunk. &nbs...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 11:36:00 PST

.....

I cant keep doing this..
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Tue, 09 Jan 2007 07:37:00 PST

the countdown ensues

3 days 17 hours and some odd minutes until midnight of my birthday. which I probably wont do anything for.... but weds, if anyone wants to come out, I'm supposed to go out... it'll be in no mans land(...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Sat, 06 Jan 2007 04:34:00 PST

So..

I guess... now... they think... my mom had ovarian cancer.. and it progressed... into her spine.... and traveled up to her brain... cause the inoperable brain lymphoma....... and we're going in...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 11:22:00 PST

ugh

I keep sweeping in and out of these really crazy severe feelings of ... I dont know.. something like depression. they'll last like 20 minutes and cease. I cant figure out whats going on here. I dont h...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 04:05:00 PST

amor

life can eb disconcerting at times. but it has alot of potential for upward swings...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 04:58:00 PST

Rambles continued

I'm worried about the world moreso than myself. this place is crazy. sometimes I fantasize about what it would be like if people learned the concept of unconditional love. Maybe there would be as many...
Posted by Kiss or Kill? on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 05:19:00 PST