. msg . comments . friends . facebook . pictures .
!@#%$#^&
I really want to see the world. I'm a pretty happy person, and i love getting to know people. I try to live everyday to the fullest with no regrets. I love sunsets, good memories and nature walks. People who are talented and optimistic inspire me. If you get to know me, i'll open up. I don't tell a lot of people the way I'm feeling. I only trust two people fully. I smoke a pack a day, and drink whenever i get the chance. I understand life is full of good and bad things, and there's nothing that can change that. I try to have a positive outlook on life which i think is an advantage in itself. Recently, my best friend has inspired me so much. She taught me how to love life, and that no matter how bad it can be, it'll always get better. I love that girl to death, and envy her view on life these days. I don't eat meat and i'm probably not the easiest person to figure out. I have a big heart and i over think things. Depending on my mood i can either be shy and quiet, or loud and outgoing. I like being silly and i find ways to keep myself entertained when i come across boredom. I know i'm not here to impress you or anyone else, but I feel like I have to. i lovelovelove writing and and I lovelovelove reading, too.
I strive for perfection, but know I'll never reach it. I have low self esteem, and am probabaly the most self concious person you'll ever meet. I'm scared of rejection. It's because of this, cute guys intimidate me. If you're cute, I will not come up and talk to you in person. I've yet to make a first move, in my life, and it's because of my insecurities.
I'm infatuated with sign language, and have been since the second grade. I'm currently at Bloomsburg U?nivestity to become a deaf ed teacher. I absolutely love it here. It's the best thing i've ever experiences. I love helping people who are in need, and this is the perfect way to do it.
I currently have 13 piercings: five in one ear, two in the other, nose, septum, monroe, lip, belly button, and lower abdomen. I'm running out of places to get pierced, but I want so much more. i'm going to start on moving to tattoos. I'm getting my first one soon.
In all honesty, I care about what people think way too much, It stops me from doing the things I want to do. Honestly, if you took me for a drive, and put on some good, acoustic music, you will make my day. If you tell me cheesey pickuplines, you will make me smile uncontroably. To be honest, nobody on this EARTH will ever replace my best friend, so don't even bother trying. To tell the truth, I'm scared to death of the dark, and I sleep with a teddy bear every single night. It's a teddybear my ex had bought me, and I love it to death. This is me, take it how you want it.
So, all in all, I'm Kristen. and so far, it's never been good enough.
AIM - xxcatastrophicc
PS - don't ask me to fall in love..
"I just can't handle this, i'm just so scared of it ..a challenge fit for a man when i'm just a kid. I'm all torn at the seams, just like you said i'd be. if this is love then i dont want a part of it. But hey hey, i've got things to say I'VE LOST CONTROL OF LIFE. i don't know how many times i've tried ..to undo the not youve tied. My face is red and people change, i've changed for good this time."
