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and when I finish struggling

oh baby, hold my hand... and together... we will destroy this world

About Me

***GRACE***
i need something to hold on to
i need those words of being a surviror, stong, and loved.
i need to know what your thinking and feeling.
i need you to walk away.
i need nothing.
i am everything i need
But i havent got it. . .
******
She’ll give up nothing if it means saying goodbye,
She’d rather be alone then left behind
And she’d rather have her pain,
Then admit it even holds sway.
She’ll only give as much as she’ll receive,
Yet she desires nothing and everything,
Breaking the hearts of all who loved her,
And shattering the dreams of all that wish to possess her.
She’ll do whatever she has to
To play the part you think she should play,
She’ll do whatever it takes---
To keep everyone at bay.
She’d rather suffer in silence
Then admit that the pain just won’t fade,
And she’d rather question the darkness,
Then ask for help to guide the pain away.
She’ll give up nothing…if it means saying goodbye,
She’d rather be alone then left behind.
She hides her face to pretend that it doesn’t hurt,
And all because she can’t trust her own worth.
******
And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
^^^Sparky Is 559 And Eats Women When He's Happy..^^^
******
What you get is what you see
It won't take much to get hooked on me
So shoot me right into your skin
And I will be your heroin
******
'Cause I'm the fucking king of the world
Get on you knees
I'm the fucking king of the world
Do as I please
******
Im crying Everyones Tears, I died the night before,
Im crying Everyones Tears, what am I supposed to do?
******
The system is tryin to shake me--I can't believe YOU acting FLAKY--like...
...YOU CAN'T SEE THIS BEAST IS OUT TO BREAK ME....?
...AND YOU GONNA WAIT UNTIL "NOW" TO FUCKIN' FORSAKE ME??........ bitch
******
You've got me up so high
So high
My shoes are scraping the sky
So high
*****
Nothing is foolproof to a sufficiently talented fool.
"If you dont know, You wont know."
I want to go for a walk outside
I've got nothing to hide
I want to go for a walk outside with you
All complications will end tonight
There's not a person in sight
I need to go for a walk outside with you
Because I want to thank you for all your time
You see you don't even know
How much you ease my mind
I'm bringing more of me to the table I was uncomfortable to sit at before


Caught between the ones you love,
And the ones who would destroy you
Caught between the sunlight,
And the night that came before you
Caught between the madness and confusion of deception
You just close your eyes…
I can’t help noticing the fear that’s in your eyes…
Why do I feel this way
I can barely stand up straight
Just take a good look at me
Now I’m about half the man
Just half the man
Every dog has its day
I can barely stand the wait
Just take a good look at me
Now I’m about half the man
Just half the man
Caught between the streets you love,
And the other side of time
Caught between your new interest,
And the one you left behind
Caught between the madness and confusion of deception
You just close your eyes
I can’t help noticing the fear that’s in your eyes…
I’ve wasted so much time
I’ve wasted half my life
They tried to take away my life
They tried to take away my life
Caught between the Milky Way,
And the other side of time
Caught between your new best friend,
And the one you left behind
Caught between the madness and confusion of deception
You just close your eyes
I can’t help noticing the fear that’s in your eyes…
I’ve wasted so much time…

My Interests

I look at you
At everything you do
The words in your head
Still remain unsaid

Yea, one day i will ride
One day i will be free of this feeling
Only the street lights can lead me
Two wheels will burn my path
I will forget you in a breath
But you will remember me forever

I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had...

******

hey God
why are you doing this to me?
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
why am i seething with this animosity?
hey God
i think you owe me a great big apology.

terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie

hey God
i really don't know what you mean.
seems like salvation come only in our dreams.
i feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
hey God
can this world really be as sad as it seems?

terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie

don't take it away from me.
i need someone to hold on to.
don't take it away from me.
i need someone to hold on to.

hey God
there's nothing left for me to hide.
i lost my ignorance, security and pride.
i'm all alone in a world you must despise.
hey God
i believed your promises, your promises and lies.

terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie
terrible lie

you made me throw it all away.
my morals left to decay.
how many you betray.
you've taken everything.

terrible lie.
my head is filled with disease.
my skin is begging you please.
i'm on my hands and knees.
i want so much to believe.

i need someone to hold on to.
i need someone to hold on to.
i need someone i need someone.
i need someone to hold on to.
i give you everything.
my sweet everything.
hey God
i really don't know who i am.
in this world of piss

*******

the arrow goes straight through my heart
without you everything just falls apart
my blood just wants to say hello to you
my fear is warm to get inside of you
my soul is so afraid to realize
how every little bit is left of me
and i want you
you are the perfect drug
take me with you
without you everything just falls apart
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces

******

Don’t hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don’t need your help now,
You will let me down, down, down!

******

So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games
So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.

I'd like to meet:

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."


******

When you fall short and I fall short,
This is where I pretend I'm as tall as the sky.

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^^PLEASE^^

Music:



***Porcelain and the Tramps***
Fabri Fibra, Nuttin But Stringz, I Monster, Lupe Fiasco, Stone Sour, The Mars Volta, Rise Against, As Blood Runs Black, Chronic Future, Celldweller, Everytime I Die, Hinder, The Mars Volta, 311, Akrobatik, Al Green, As I Lay Dying, Atmosphere, Blind Melon, Busta Rhymes, CKY, Coheed and Cambria, Cool Calm Pete, Crossfade, Dilated Peoples, Dungeon Family, Eagles, Fear Factory, Flyleaf, Foxy Brown, GCH, Godsmack, Gorillaz, Hed Pe, Hendrix, Incubus, John Legend, Kelis, Kotton Mouth Kings, Korn , Lady Saw, Lords of Acid , Ludacris, Metallica, MSI, Moonshyne, Mudvayne, Mystikal, Native Guns, Nevea Tears, NIN, Offspring, Orgy, Otep, Pantera, Pepper, Pharcyde, Powerman 5000, RAGE, Rehab, Remy Ma, Rob Zombie, Shakira, Slightly Stoopid, Slipknot, Slum Village, Smashing Pumpkins, Sneaker Pimps, Static X, Sublime, Sugarcult, System of A Down, Talib Kweli, Three Days Grace, Trick Daddy, Trina, Wu Tang, Xplicit,

Movies:

Crash, Life Is Beautiful, Magnolia, Boondock Saints, Resivour Dogs, Empire, Pulp Fiction

Books:

The Perks Of Being A WallFlower, When I Was Five I Killed Myself, The Straw Men, Clockwork Orange, Fear And Loathing in Las Vegas, The Electric Koolaid Acid Trip

Heroes:

So I Layed Down On the Floor.
I Stuck Out My Pointer Finger, Pointed it At My Head.
And I Pushed Down My Thumb.
AND KILLED MYSELF . . . .

DAVID BLANE!!

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