About Me
I'm single, what's new? It's by choice. Ever so bitter, and even more cautious of everyone and anyone.
I'm not defined by my significant other;
I'm defined by the moments in life that make me who I am today.
I choose to focus on what's most important to me, and then,
I may re-think my position on commitment,
because my view on “settling down†does not have a very likely outcome.
It could be today, tomorrow, even yesterday, I will still stand strong.
I live in a city of my choice,
one that so many seem to take for granted despite the various amenities it offers,
but all and all, home is where the heart is,
and my heart could not be too far from my family and close friends.
Those that complain of how uncool this city is
and compare it to other more "exciting" cities
most likely don't have a sense of fulfillment
no matter where they live or how much they've attained.
They are most likely more concerned about others, and those others don't matter.
Being narrow minded often limits many to the same places, same foods, and same faces.
Maybe they are afraid of change, or feel uncomfortable around unfamiliar surroundings,
or fear that others will judge them
-- but the advantages of trying new things will allow you
to add another thing on the list of things to do, eat,
and of course more interesting folks to play or dine with.
So if you must know, I don't submit to "sticking to my own kind."
If I did, there is none like me in this world, maybe Mars?
Many choose to worry too much about what others are doing
instead of concentrating on their own well being.
Well, a few years from now,
they will most likely be at a different venue doing the same thing,
worrying about the same thing
with nothing to show in the years that have passed them by.
While others are content with how much they've accomplished.
By saying accomplished it may or may not have anything to do with material items,
it has a lot to do with your value as a person.
Your actual worthiness.
I take life seriously, but I spend several moments of the day enjoying it.
I give to give. I take, but I say thank you.
I honestly believe my only achilles heel is caring too much,
and seeking revenge even more.
Read this part again because I want to make it clear that I hadn't lied about my nature.
If you came to my page looking for another chick to throw meaningless words at, do it.
I'm sure you'll be amused by my reply.
If you came to my page looking for the scoop on poop,
well, I don't have much poop for u to scoop because I practice what I preach.
These two are the reason why I never die of sheer boredom.
My babies.
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you
know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When
someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have
expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide
you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or
spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for
the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part
or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring
the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled,
their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is
time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come
to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you
laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give
you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a
season .
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build
upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept
the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind
but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season
or a lifetime.
I miss my friend... rest well
The pain of losing someone you hold close to your heart is so unbearable that I wouldn't wish it upon anyone -- not even those that i hold the lowest regard towards.
We all tend to forget to appreciate all that we were given. Yes, we all work hard and strive for a better future, but often, the true meaning of living is forgotten and misconstrued.
Sucess. We all have our different meanings, but it should be a state of mind, not measured by our possessions, but the worthiness of your existence on this earth - and by doing so, in a non-beneficial manner, and feeling great about it. Sure, we all lose our way at times, and feel hopeless by the events that feel unfair, or unjustly imposing on us. God would never put more on your plate than you can handle. It's a stepping stone that can only make you stronger, more perceptive, and utterly grateful.
Life is a precious privilege, not a right. Treat others as you would like to be treated. Help those in need. Remember your family, friends, peers.
Raindrops.
Every time I close my eyes, I see you looking at me looking at you.
They say you need to let go, but why should I have to let go? It's not like a crime, or a sin, it's cherishing someone that touched my heart with his presence. It hurts..
.. hurts so much that the corners of every dark corner can not hide the agony. I'm trying so hard to be strong, but I keep failing -- but I'm still trying.
You often said we all need to get together. We did, for you my one and only curly fry. As everyone said their goodbyes, I refused to. I know I'll be seeing you babe. Maybe we can be reincarnated as doodle bugs together
A funeral is for the living, to help find closure. I hope those that attended found that peace in their hearts and minds. Thank you to all those that helped to make his last wish real. I hope that we all will continue to make it everlasting. To his mom -- the wonderful, yet strong mother that allowed us to come across such a great friend. No other gift could even compare.
If only those that were not blessed by Curtis Chow could experience the true meaning of an angel sent from above. I hope that those in need will always have an angel by their side to help lift them over the tough clouds.
When you need someone to lean on, I'll be there. I cant promise to make life any easier, or less painful -- but I'll help lift that burden you are carrying on your shoulders. No one should go through life alone. No one.
Maybe I'm babbling. Maybe I'm experiencing an epiphany. Maybe... it has finally set in. This ever so life altering intimacy. Could be a lack of sleep, as deprivation tends to lead to delusions. Don't take this as a misconception, learn from it, rather than to regret later. Life shouldn't be filled with regrets, because it is too dear, too precious, but still unforgiving.
Today marks a significant moment for me forever -- and a day. It leaves me a little more cautious, a tiny bit weary, but extremely insightful.
I guess I shall leave this endeavor to let him rest well. That's what he wants for all that he cared for and touched.
I'll end this entry before it becomes a novel.
One life. One love. One. ..
