Sleep
Sleep 'til dawn,
Sleep 'til one,
Sleep 'til the noise is gone
The occasional "bang",
The occasional "shot",
The occasional screams of a dying son
Sleep 'til the war is gone.
The Note
Sit’n there with a gun in my hand, talk’n to my family.
Little do they know this is the last time they will ever hear me.
And then it happens, then they know.
Your bloody brains are slide’n down the wall.
The police bust in ten minuets too late,
Then one says "Oh, shit, I stepped in his brains!"
The other one says, "Whats his note say?"
"Howdy, howdy, howdy, this is my note.
To my family, my friends, and foes.
They drove me to this point,
Where my mind is bounce’n off the wall.
I wrote this note to let you all know…
That it’s all your fuckers fault, and the next time you see me…
It will be wit the casket closed!!"
This is how you kill your mind
Your ass be smoken pot all the time
Move your self over you swine
I'm gonna kill yo motha, yo Fatha, and yo brotha....
Cause THIS IS MY TIME!!!
My life is not worth anything,
So why don't I just blow out my brains?
My life is nothing, but a stain on a baby's bib.
But how could I obtain such things that would make me want to live?
I sit here and contemplate,
If it is worth living for the next day,
And I just sit there filled with rage.
I wonder what it is about me that scares people off.
I am normal, if there is such a thing.
Am I ugly? Is it my teeth?
Is it something you can see?
What is wrong with me?
False Sense Of Security
There it was, three days in the making,
A plan to bait and hook me.
On a Friday we showed our affection,
Only to lead me into a false sense of security,
But you have yet to answer the question that still haunts me.
So you just leave me stranded…
With a false sense of security.
Nothing Holds Me
Hatred is only lower love
Like wings of a free dove
You could fly away
Nothing bled on this day
Sometimes birds get shot
I am what I'm not
And it might hurt
Bury me within the dirt
Of the times I'll waste away
And all alone with you
What could I do?
I am by myself
I am no one else
I think it's time to fly
Spread my wings and soar
Get out of my way
Nothing holds me
Hand me the key
Nothing wants me
Unlock the door
Replay the horror
That has unfolded for us to see
Nothing holds me
The Only Real Smile
Slit my throat on your hair
Tempting whispers, always there
On the tip of my tongue
Living off of your iron lung
Slashed my wrists on your smile
Painful you, all worthwhile
I live in this state
Clenching jaws, they will masticate
So the angels sing
For a huge nothing?
And we dance in the air
They would think that I didn't care
With every breath you breathe
Pull it inside of me
Circulate in my cold world
Choking on your every word
You never lost that glimmer
Your shine never went to a dimmer
shade, your eyes just suck me down
I'm afraid that I might drown
And never reach the surface
I don't want to leave this
The words I taste from you
Precious heart, honest and true
Though I hid it all the while
I held within, my only real smile
Gaze
So what was I supposed to think?
What was I going to say?
Push me to the brink
And I'll fall far away
The dark seas that are your eyes
Only seem to leave me empty
Drowning in your hypnotize
Love in me, far from plenty
Awarded for each rise
While hated for everything at all
Slip and I won't feel those eyes
Care, and I won't let you fall
Everything
Everything that I am
Am I really anything?
I am just as torn apart
You say evil's in my eye
Play upon the world a stage
It was meant to be this way
You were always there for me
But I wouldn't pay my due
Voices that are calling me
Giving me all my choices
Which should be the way
My wound without a stitch
Sing the saddest song for me
Lonliness forever bring
Away from all of this
Every word I would not betray
I'd run and stay behind you
My safe place to hide
Anything that I could do for you
And I would give up everything
Silence (Keep From Me)
Only when I'm alone
My reality I can't dream
I am so unknown
And you can't hear me scream
For all of you
Help me free myself
From this sea of blue
And green stress
I wish away our rage
Another painful silence
Life is just a game stage
Filled with horrid consequence
So keep from me
And play the game on your own
Destroy
Close my eyes to warmth
Brush away the cold
Leave me feeling nothing
Brush this dust off from my soul
Give me a special meaning
I don't want to remember
Every thought you should be stealing
Just let me drift away forever
Giving, getting nothing back
Floating in my see of pity
Innoncence is something I must lack
But don't feel sorry for me
The warmth, it will invade
Bitterness can wash away
But truth cannot be saved
If it were frost upon the day
If there is a love inside of me
Kill me off in suicide
If the cold won't leave
Destroy the source in genocide
Pleading
The brightest flame burns so quick
You may never ever know
It's been such a pleasant trip
I don't want to let you go
Just bury me now
I'm already six feet in the ground
One good thing may happen
But it never lasts long
Don't leave me again
God, I feel so wrong
How could I push you?
My priorities misplaced
Now what can I do?
When I'm a failing disgrace
Please, don't let me stray
I'll try the best I can
I'll even start today
My heart is in your hand
Final
Cut the flesh to bleed me dry
Stab the eye to make me blind
Bite the hand that feeds me
Held down and drowning in the sea
Hiding behind fake smiles and laughs
Inside, lies the pain, an opened gash
Blind, so I don’t see them anymore
Bleeding, so I don’t feel the opened sore
Biting, clenched to mask my rage
Drowining, somewhere in my thoughts
Hiding, lost battles all I fought
And inside, I break away from your cage
Dull the senses to take it away
Just one soul, washed away in the rain
Bite my tongue, stopping evil speech
Close my eyes, to the skies I reach
On my knees for the first time tonight
Praying, to take away this life
Remember
The things that I have said
You know I never meant
The lies I live because of you
And the wounds that never heal
I hope you think of what you do
When you bend and kneel
I need this more than you know
To let all the anger go
I wish everyone could see me
Just to see inside
To show you all the things I hide
All the truths are falsified
You make me feel so dejected
When I should rise above
All the feelings, all rejected
In what should have brought me love
Just One More
I won't just sit around and wait
Hoping for a false sense of change
Why I still have hope is a mystery
I knew the first day, it was history
Bleeding my soul for a piece of mind
Believing one day I might find
Something worth saving
But in my heart, I'm still craving
I'm still chasing after you
Without really a reason to
Why should I even feel this way?
When everything here has turned cold and gray
I'm sure you feel the same way
I sure hope so
And it's evident that we both know
Today is the last day
Just one more to suffer into
And finally...it's all throughScott's PoemFull of anger Full of thoughts in mind Full of memories Leave the past behind It only makes matters worse Adding liquid to the flame Leave your issues Before it brings you shame Full of grudges, you need to forget Full of hate, time to let go Full of bs, truth is, only I know Leave all that drama It takes up space Adds craziness Let it be Before it devours you Finally, so now do you see it’s true? Monday starts a new day A New face Let’s leave the past behind Without a trace. Move on Move forward With poise and grace!Made by my MOM (Alisa)