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Gadjo dilo (means:crazy stranger)and thats how i feel most of the time....(too crazy for the normal,too normal for the crazy....somewhere in between) i'm a 40-year old woman,born in vienna(austria),but living in holland for more then 20 years. i'm working for a small local television-station and in my free time i also do a lot of filming&fotographing,make music,sing,dance,read,make clothes or other creative stuff,work on festivals,touring with bands,organize partys&events,meet with my friends,have fun&good conversations,surch for new things&challanges,meet new people,go to concerts and partys and do a lot of other stuff,but i also need my time alone to rest,think,relax and be with myself. i have a 14-year old daughter who i love very much (and who let me feel very old sometimes,cause she is getting big so quick)but i think that i'm a good example,that u don't have to be old and boring just because u're a mother,sit home&don't join the nice things of live anymore!!!(it's all just a question of organisation and a young spirit) i try to get everything out of live,even if it means that i fall down once in a while and feel shit,and have to start allover again,but that's the risk of live....and i want to be able to say at the end of my live,that i've really lived!!! i'm not religious,but i believe that everything that u going trough has a reason somehow....and most of the time i follow my intuition,which mostly works for me. sometimes i think that i'm a little too open,too honnest,too spontanius,too trustfull(even if i allreaddy had a lot of dissapointments in my life)and sometimes i wish that i would be more carefull and dont let myself lead by my feelings so much to protect myself......but i guess that me!!!!!