My name is Brian John-Michael Hutton, I am 18 years old. I go to Timberline High School and take college classes. I have really strong morals and trust in only one person and that is God. I am very serious person but at times I like to have lots of fun with few of my really close friends and it is hard for me to make new friends cuz i kno that friends dont act like friends. And I do not want to make enemies at all. I dont want people to hate me cuz I do care. I do not have any best friends but I do have people who I like to chill with at times. Kenny Bays is a really kool layed bac guy, he really mellows me out cuz in my life people expect me to be the BEST they have high expectations, and that scares me cuz if i get lazy and dont hold up those expectations I will be seen as a fake. Kenny dosent see me as a fake, he knos I worked hard to be where im at now. James Weston is also a close friend. Its funny to see how he grew from not giving a fuck about people or wat dey think to being lite hearted. His girlfriend changed his whole lifestyle and now he understands how to care for someone as they need to be. James is a really funny guy, he has a lot of inside jokes that at times dont make sense but when u hang out wit him for a while u start to make connections. I would do alot for these guys buy food for them as it is the case for most of the time or help them with their homework. I work constantly; school, home-work, and work. Its a daily routine. I have worked really hard to be where I am at today. I just recently got accepted into one of the most prestigious colleges in the nation, The Citadel Military College of South Carolina. It took hard work and dedication of doing my homework, going to work at Norma's where I was a Supervisor for 2 years and Fort Lewis Golf Course and my moms restaurant and have saved up over $14,000. Although throughtout my 4 years of highschool of not going to any dances and football games cuz of homework and work, being accepted to The Citadel is so much rewarding and worth all the sweat I put into build my future. I leave for The Citadel August 15. However, being accepted has its bad side, I think it made me lose the person I really cared for. Leaving this person is not easy for me at all but people who really kno me know that I am really dedicated to people I care for. Sometimes I wish I could go bac into time so I can hang out with this person again. I have to make alot of sacrifices for my future and sometimes I have to work around my life's obstacles to make sure I will have the most successful life. I kno that God will provide if I listen to him and never be irrational. But God knos that sometimes I cant hear him and i go down the wrong path and once I go down that wrong path I realize that it was God who told me not go down this path and I freeze up and my mind acts like a video tape rewinding and fast-fowarding my life of what will happen next and I think about the most worst case scenario. Then I get on my knes and ask for forgiveness. God had forgave me every single time and had provided and I am really gratefull. God has huge plans for me in this world. Anyways my time here is very short and it really sucks to kno that the person I cared for and actually loved wasted all this time when we could be going laser tagging or to the movies, or out to dinner, and most importantly prom. And I wont be going to prom so sorry girls dont ask me, I wouldnt feel comfortable. This person dosent talk to me anymore and I cant ask her how she is and how was her day because this person dosent tex or call bac. I hope, I mean I really hope this person can be in my life becuase I kno I could treat this person so good than anybody has ever done to this person. I am a very private person and really hate to share how I feel but I dont kno what to do anymore, i mean I kno wat to do. I am going to the Citadel, going to the Army like my plans demonstrate, make lots of money, live in California in a million dollar house (this is no dream, I will be making over 6 figures by when I am 29) have a mercades car. The only thing that worries me is if I will be happy because it will be lonely at the top. I will not have time to build other relationships cuz my future doest permit it. Succesful people work over 50 years a week and travel all across the world making business propositions. If the person I care for ever reads this i hope u can change bac into the person u once were that u promised u would.
Thats my life. Work. Future. Sacrifices. Me, Myself, & I. Happiness? Is it worth it? It depends, I only have 3 more months left in Lacey, Washington. So everyone that i kno make ur peace and make time to chill wit me or anybody else who is leaving for their future cuz u probably wont ever see them ever again.
