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Manic

About Me

I decided to start a myspace page about one living with the highs and lows of a manic depressive individual. I have been diagonosed with bipolar around 4 yrs ago. It has been a trying journey to live a relatively normal functioning life. I constantly have had the highs and lows of the disorder and as well as all the other medications that one takes trying to find a balance. So far no real success. Hopefully as I keep trying different methods I may find some reasonable hope for those who also struggle with this illness. As of August 23 2007 I have been put back on lithium to try to bring me out of the severe depression that has been going on for the last 3 months. I am also trying omega 3's and Vitamin B12 to also aid in releiving depression. I am going to journalize my journey in the blogs on a day to week basis and see if this new approach will give me more of a levelled out life. I also would love to meet people who go through this and to share with me their journey towards a better life.

My Blog

I passed my belt test...I now am a Apprentice Black Belt in MMA

A bipolar success story...I  can't post all my negative experiences now can I...Here is my big accomplishment...I tested for my Apprentice Black Belt in front of several people.  It was being video-ta...
Posted by on Sat, 21 Nov 2009 00:28:00 GMT

Days like today I want to find a rock and hide under it...

How it all began today...I have been so sick that some people think it might have been the H1N1 flu virus.  I have no idea but whatever it was it knocked me on my ass for a good couple of weeks.  Cons...
Posted by on Tue, 17 Nov 2009 02:19:00 GMT

Insomnia

The clock on my computer says 5 am I don't need to be up for hours.  Its Sunday the day I can sleep in...but I cannot.  What seems to aid me to sleep at night is when I take my lithium and zoloft but ...
Posted by on Sun, 18 Oct 2009 06:24:00 GMT

What is bipolar to you?

This a question I am curious to ask anyone who wants to share...since I myself is "crazy in the membrane" so to speak I bring out this question to you...Feel free top speak your mind, vent, encourage,...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Aug 2009 13:53:00 GMT

I feel "CAGED"

I have been living these past few months trapped in the "cage" of what I call my mind.  I have completely pulled myself into a compartmental box and threw away the key.  I feel a loss inside thats so ...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Aug 2009 00:26:00 GMT

It's black its white its up and down ... here we go round and round

Literally your up your down...your here nor there...omg I am turning, spinning round and round...and all I want is to get off this merry go round!As the picture depicts yes I am now a blonde...It seem...
Posted by on Sat, 28 Feb 2009 01:32:00 GMT

Fighting my way back to the top...won't be online very often...training for my next major fight

I believe the last time I blogged I shared about taking each goal or vision one step at a time.  Those of you who have been following along my blogs know I am a competitive kickboxer...trained fo...
Posted by on Sun, 19 Oct 2008 01:55:00 GMT

IN A STATE OF FLUX...where do i go from here?

 I am in a state of flux which seems to be dragging out its time and energy and my mental capabilities of dealing with this damn illness and all the stress that has occured this year. I am in dou...
Posted by on Mon, 25 Aug 2008 12:31:00 GMT

I dumped my boyfriend last night...I am so fucking upset!!!

I have pms (major severe cramps), had a tooth extracted where I was given T3'S and antibiotics, haven't been taking lithium for a week because the combo of pills made me feel comatose until today, and...
Posted by on Fri, 11 Jul 2008 13:32:00 GMT

All the labels I am given by doctors...OH MY!!!

Here I am recovering from all the stress of being at ER (Emergency) to many doctors appointments and paperwork after paperwork to fill out for disability and to just about being commited in all of one...
Posted by on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 22:23:00 GMT