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About Me

How doth the little crocodile
Improve his shining tail,
And pour the waters of the Nile
On every golden scale!
How cheerfully he seems to grin,
How neatly spread his claws,
And welcome little fishes in
With gently smiling jaws!
your greatest creation is the life you lead -- Tarnation
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I trust all joy. --Theodore Roethke
By circumstances fed
Which divide attention
Among the living and the dead,
Under the blooms of the blossoming sun,
The gaze which is a tower towers
Day and night, hour by hour,
Critical of all and of one,
Dissatisfied with every flower
With all that's been done or undone,
Converting every feature
Into its own and unknown nature;
So, once in the drugstore,
Amid all the poppy, salve and ointment,
I suddenly saw, estranged there,
Beyond all disappointment,
My own face in the mirror.
Delmore Schwartz

My Interests

I'd like to meet:


These days which, like yourself,
Seem empty and effaced
Have avid roots that delve
To work deep in the waste.

--james merrill

dislocation

It happens in an instant.
My grandma used to say
'someone is walking on your grave.'

It's that moment when your life
is suddenly strange to you
as someone else's coat

you have slipped on at a party
by accident, and it is far
too big or too tight for you.

Your life feels awkward, ill
fitting. You remember why you
came into this kitchen, but you

feel you don't belong here.
It scares you in a remote
numb way. You fear that you--

whatever you means, this mind,
this entity stuck into a name
like mercury dropped into water--

have lost the ability to enter your
self, a key that no longer works.
Perhaps you will be locked

out here forever peering in
at your body, if that self is really
what you are. If you are at all.
--marge piercy

My Blog

Thailand!

first pics from thailand are up on flickr!
Posted by on Tue, 06 Nov 2007 16:32:00 GMT

Overdue Annual Post - Reflections on Adrina's Birthday

Intended to be posted on April 12th, 2007.My darling, my Rose, my baby; Adrina. You are seven years old, no longer the baby I cradled in my arms; no longer with the clenched fists and scrunched angry ...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 06:32:00 GMT

time

"In America, we teach people how to acquire things, but we don't teach how to lose them." The reality, Johnson said, is that life amounts to an unending series of losses. "From the moment that we co...
Posted by on Thu, 05 Jul 2007 18:25:00 GMT

ghosts

most of us have experienced it; that point which you think that the sum of your existence, who you are, what you are, or what you are doing is truly worse than never having existed at all.  despi...
Posted by on Tue, 22 May 2007 04:36:00 GMT

New Job!

I resigned from CNN.  My last day was Tuesday.  I have a new job as a Marketing and Communications manager for a non-profit.  It's really amazing and exciting!I lost most of my phone nu...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 20:42:00 GMT

i am going to thailand!

i am going to thailand in may or june!  i am going to buy so much stuff!!!!!  have any of you ever been?
Posted by on Fri, 26 Jan 2007 11:58:00 GMT

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[ mood | melancholy ] I so want to express the experiences in his passing, but they are all so intimate and significant, each second owning the heights of grief and sadness, hope, acceptance, ange...
Posted by on Sun, 06 Nov 2005 17:02:00 GMT