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Just being dragged by the stream. the birds fed on my carcass and the foul beasts on my soul. i was tempted to go back but i had no chance or so i thought. i was after one thing though. love. but i started in the wrong place. i should have started in a safer place. but little did i know that there are unknown forces that control the mind and the heart to lead you through an experience to never be forgotten but that will teach you plenty about yourself that you didn't know. you have no idea what im talking about till you have a story like this to tell. i haven't included others in here. only myself. This title is MINE. but i will tell you living like this had taught me that life is important. you only get one second chance and if not taken advantage you will be screwed. life is simple. its social DARWINISM. the weak get killed the old are left to die. the strong and the young are to find themselves up the food chain and become predators to survive. we are more like ANIMALS that you ever think. i don't like to share my emotions. i hate it when kids cry. i will probably end up with 30 cats. but i hate them too. i love a sincere smile. i live for a mothers embrace. and i will kill someone that will even get the thought of hurting one of my loved ones. im not an extreme feminist but i do believe that women have rights as well as men. but they have to respect themselves. i am tired of seeing trash walking in our neighborhoods. im irritated when your skirt is smaller than my napkin. and please would you do me a favor and wipe some makeup off because by the amount you have on right now you can work in a circus. my family is very christian. im not. that great being is out there somewhere. but we also have to look for ways to improve ourselves without him. hes just the great provider. i don't judge anyone based on looks. but i do judge based on your actions towards me. i have learned a lot. i can submissive. but im really passive aggressive. i will do the slightest things to make your life hell. but im friendly so smile. i dont bite. i took my medication. im very aware that people LOVE to label themselves. i dont have a label. all i have are details and many stories to tell. so im a book. or a series. so heres a small and quick over view. im Carmen Lopez. carmen is my third name PERIOD. im 18. female. i open my mind not my legs! i have lived in la for all of my life. i will do the most outrageous things just to get somewhere in life. i hate competition but if its necessary i will CRUSH you. im working to be an editor in chief. my dream is to one day look back and laugh at myself because at that moment i will know i have healed all of my wounds and gotten over certain nightmares. laughter is the best medicine. i HATE lectures on how i should act. if you would only be in head for that lecture moment you would shut the fuck up and run if i one day claim instant insanity and do the deed. im already and individual and there is no way your stupid remarks will change me. sorry. i dont get mad easily thats a fact. i love rainbows. and no it isnt just because im gay its because why settle for a single color when there is a large spectrum of colors out there. i love nature and i love art. my inspiration comes from the many amazing people like mark ryden. dali, monet and my mother. she has sculpted me to be a hard worker. and for this i thank her, im a survivor. im pain. im courage. im dead. im alive. im here and there. i am everything but i will never be a card to play with in your deck.