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I'm a deep, deep, deep hearted person...I would call myself a CHRISTian...after Jesus himself...I believe that Jesus died for my sins and that God is the Alpha and Omega, beginning TO end, who was and is and is to come...I believe Jesus will come again and if I'm not prepared, I won't go...I'm looking for myself right now...I have a great conviction and calling in my life...I'm not sure exactly what it is, but that is what I wanna know...BUT I do make mistakes, but I believe that God's grace is over anyone who has asked for Him to come into their lives, but I also believe that God isn't a library card...you can't intetionally sin and expect God to forgive you if you don't change your ways...like me...I have been struggling for some time now with a certain thing and I don't believe that God has really forgiven me, b/c I haven't forgiven myself and changed...I have tried, but I have failed all previous attempts...but is that an excuse? If God is the one He says He is, He can help me...AND BY ALL MEANS HE IS THE ONE HE SAYS HE IS...the problem is the spiritual war going on inside me(in which I am winning b/c of Jesus and the sacrifice that He made on the cross)...my body wants to keep sinning and to give up, but my spirit longs for change...I also know that there is a being out there named Satan...he knows how to make people turn away from God...he is a force to be reckoned with...but God is so much bigger...there is no comparison...I am reading a book right now called "In the name of Satan" it's about demonic posession and how to combat them with the help of Jesus Christ...it is awesome so far...I'm afraid to let out what is cooped up inside me...I'm picky...I want a certain person(haven't found them yet: human) who will stick to me closer than a bro or sis...Jesus is my ROCK AND SHELTER AND SHEPHERD, and is already closer to me than a bro or sis, whom I can rely on to be there for me...right now the only one who is keeping me strong is Jesus...He is working in my life so much and I praise Him and thank him...and I am going to live for Him...please pray for me still...I have been forgiven and set free, but everyone needs prayer...I Love Lara Dean Henry!!!She is the best girl that a guy could ever want and I got her...I love her with all the limh, as she said to me first...I only get to see her once or twice a week, but it is definitely worth it when I do get to see her...I love her purity and the way that she looks at me...I love that she has a relationship with God...She is my dream girl, no joke...Every time I think about her and talk to her and see her, the very thought of "us" identifies with my spirit...I love her smile and her voice...I love the moments that we spend thinkin of new catch phrases to pick at each other with...***architect***lol...I love that she loves me...I have always wanted someone to share my feelings with and someone who would love me for me and want to be with me as much as I want to be with them...and God sent me Lara...I love her accent..."Hey Darlin.." lol...I love the conversations we have...they are sometimes so random...and they can change in an instance...they can change from talking about food to talking about a smile...and they can change from being so comedic to deep-hearted and sincere...and I love that she gives me sincere comments all the time...and RANDOM QUESTION TIME is my new favorite pasttime...=) I love you Lara...(non exhaustive list of things I love about Lara...)