*^i sink your sins into me, oh, my beautiful one^*

my name's amanda, even in spain and mexico, and it means lovable. i am lovable...it's just that i'm not one to sit there in silence if i've got something to say. i'm everything short of a masterpiece whether you think it's good or not and i wish i could say how i feel and people not hate me for it. and i wish that all i the people i love loved me in return. life's not fair and i know this well. maybe that's the only way for it work out tho. i love people and i find beauty in almost everything. if i could, i would lay out under the stars every night this summer. i would not care about the way i look and go to Geauga Lake at least once or twice a month. a lot of people still have bad opinions about me, but that's okay...at least i'm not scrubby! which, by the way, is what a third of the kids at maplewood are and i think they're all gross. and that's coming from someone who will where the same jeans 3 days in a row. i hate it there for the most part and i'm more than likely going to tctc next year. i have secrets that i can't tell anyone. not because i think that they'll necessarily be offended or anything, but jut because i don't think they'd even really care...so why waste a good secret? i love going to the lake/beach and laying in the sun. i like getting sunburned to a certain extent and skinny dipping is definitely my thing in the summer. don't argue with me about that one...it's fun. i love music, poetry, art, and writing. i think everyone should pick up a book and read on their own once in a while. i also think that everyone should know how to play at least one instrument. people, including myself, can be very mean...even without meaning it. and i think that everyday we hurt more people than we know; even if it's because of something we didn't do. i promise you that i'll love you more than you ever know...even if you piss me off everyday. i'm emotional so be prepared but i also refuse to be bored or let others have a bad time if i can help it. i'll do anything to have fun...and that pretty much really does include anything...ask my friends. sometimes i get into a big snowsuit and lay in the snow with my amigos until our fingers hurt because we have so much snow soaking through our gloves. and other times i lay on my driveway and look up at the sky because it's just that pretty. i'm fantastic, really i am! i'm different, emotional, always happy and always sad, pretty, disgusting, loving and angry all at the same time. i refuse to let people wrongfully act like they deserve the world or like we've all done something against them. i look at life through the eyes of an artist and i love to sing in the car with the windows down. gas and campfires smell good and i like to cook marshmallows. i think teenagers and adults alike can be really dumb. often because neither know how to have a good time or at least appreciate it. they do different things to show this but still, they both do it...a lot. everyone just needs to lighten up about everything! that's all i have to say. not because that's all there is to say but because i'm very hungry and i want to go eat! i'll tell you more in person....until thenexohexoh, amanda ________________________________________________________ Layout made by ROCKxlthelxARTS at CreateBlog.com .