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CrystAL

You can't say that I didn't try

About Me

I'm not easy to tolerate and those who do deserve awards. I'd love the world to revolve around me and I'd like to have the power to rip ones heart out with out ever touching them. I don't laugh enough, but when I do it's infectious. I'm easily annoyed/irritated, I'm very mean and often don't think before I speak or I dont speak at all. No in between. I can keep secrets, I can lie lie lie, the truth could be staring you in the face, and you would believe my lie. However, I'm no liar. I had big dreams, but I killed them. I revived them.
Day to day life wears on my soul, but I do it anyway.
I quit all the wrong things.
Oh and Im an excellent detective. ________________________
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I knew somebody like you.
No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,
I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you.
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you no,
No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I... (This world is only gonna break your heart)
(This world is only gonna break your heart)
Nobody loves no one.

My Interests


fucking eddie vedder or better yet- being his lover, alice in chains, alternative, anti-abortion, anti-formula, ap, aqua, attachment parenting, baby wearing, bad guy die, beach, black eyeliner, boobie drunks, books, bradley method, breastfeeding, breastmilk, child birth, child-led weaning, christianity, christmas, cloth diapering, cloth diapers, co-sleep, co-sleeping, comfy beds, cooking, dancing, degrassi, devotional time, domestic divas, drumz, eddie vedder, gentle discipline, giving, good times, gwen stefani, i lechoo, ilechoo.com, instinctual parenting, jesus, jesus christ, jungle, junglescene.com, l.a.m.b., la leche league, lll, love, loving my husband, mac, mothering, movies, natural birth, natural family planning, natural living, nirvana, no doubt, noelove.com, nursing, organic, our lord, parenting, pearl jam, pilates, pink hair, poetry, pregnancy, pro-life, rain, reading, sephora, sewing, slings, stone temple pilots, stp, strong women, temple of the dog, the bible, the lord, the word, thrift store shopping, thrift stores, thrifty bitch, unassisted birth, unconditional love, wahm, walking with god, whole foods, writing, PCC, Pasadena City College ....

I'd like to meet:

Tengo que confesar que a veces
no me gusta tu forma de ser
luego te me desapareces y no entiendo muy bien por qué
no dices nada romántico cuando llega el atardecer te pones de un humor extraño con cada luna llena al mes.

Pero a a todo lo demás le gana lo bueno que me das sólo tenerte cerca siento que vuelvo a empezar.

Yo te quiero con limón y sal, yo te quiero tal y como estás,
no hace falta cambiarte nada,
yo te quiero si vienes o si vas,
si subes y bajas y
no estás seguro de lo que sientes.

Tengo que confesarte ahora
nunca creí en la felicidad
a veces algo se le parece, pero
es pura casualidad.

Luego me vengo a encontrar con tus ojos y me dan algo más
solo tenerte cerca siento
que vuelvo a empezar.

Solo tenerte cerca

siento que vuelvo a empezar...

Music:

dub-fucking-step, jungle, alternative, old school soul and R&B, classical, classic rock, oh and new-fucking-wave
oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we never needed
any more than this
any more than this

oh elise it doesn't matter what you do
i know i'll never really get inside of you
to make your eyes catch fire
the way they should
the way the blue could pull me in
if they only would
if they only would
at least i'd lose this sense of sensing something else
that hides away
from me and you
there're worlds to part
with aching looks and breaking hearts
and all the prayers your hands can make
oh i just take as much as you can throw
and then throw it all away
oh i throw it all away
like throwing faces at the sky
like throwing arms round
yesterday
i stood and stared
wide-eyed in front of you
and the face i saw looked back
the way i wanted to
but i just can't hold my tears away
the way you do

elise believe i never wanted this
i thought this time i'd keep all of my promises
i thought you were the girl always dreamed about
but i let the dream go
and the promises broke
and the make-believe ran out...

oh elise
it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out
every way to smile
forget
and make-believe we never needed
any more than this
any more than this

and every time i try to pick it up
like falling sand
as fast as i pick it up
it suns away through my clutching hands
but there's nothing else i can really do
there's nothing else
i can really do
at all...

Movies:

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, the notebook, garden state, brokeback mountain, how high

Television:

lost, er, greys anatomy, sex and the city, hereos, scrubs

Books:

la biblia, cold new world, the notebook, go ask alice, go ask jay, the womanly art of breastfeeding, many others; too many.

Heroes:

my daddy

My Blog

I miss you

Yes I fucking do.     plsfckingblvt
Posted by CrystAL on Wed, 05 Jul 2006 03:52:00 PST

Car accidents

are the devil. My cousin(shes number one on my top 8) was in one this morning. She is fine, thank God. But the car is not. My emotions are not. The dr said if she had not been wearing her seat belt sh...
Posted by CrystAL on Sat, 27 May 2006 04:47:00 PST

Do I get a chip on my 30 day?

I think I should. I deserve it. I wish I could just come out and say it. This is not it. lol Friday it will be 30 days. These have been some interesting 30 days. Never have I accomplished less, doe...
Posted by CrystAL on Thu, 11 May 2006 06:57:00 PST

WHo the Fuck?

Reads these? This shit has got nothing on livejournal. NOTHING. hahahaha Anyways, I have some people on my list, yea, people I already know, but they dont know I know. Make sense? One fucked my once b...
Posted by CrystAL on Wed, 21 Sep 2005 11:28:00 PST

bueno

old friends. Im very well. Fucking hot, but well. I'm over worked and under paid. Need vacation bad, or just a good night out. If I added you or requested your "friend" shit- I miss you A LOT(irl-ers...
Posted by CrystAL on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

que no.

bueno. Im not here to have a 5455849057249 friends. Im here to catch up on my trendy fuck real life friends. Yes, ill add some, but probably not you. Im a livejournal junkie. And no I don't wanna get...
Posted by CrystAL on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST