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Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. ~Neil Gaiman
All our knowledge merely helps us to die a more painful death than the animals that know nothing. ~Maurice Maeterlinck
Do we not all spend the greater part of our lives under the shadow of an event that has not yet come to pass? ~Maurice Maeterlinck
When we lose one we love, our bitterest tears are called forth by the memory of hours when we loved not enough. ~Maurice Maeterlinck
Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection. ~Stanislaw J. Lec
Do not trust people. They are capable of greatness. ~Stanislaw J. Lec
I give you bitter pills in sugar coating. The pills are harmless; the poison is in the sugar. ~Stanislaw J. Lec
"You're no help," he told the lime. This was unfair. It was only a lime; there was nothing special about it at all. It was doing the best it could. ~Neil Gaiman
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My Interests

Dnd, Magic, Computers, the interweb, music, friends, movies, mind games, chess, and anything that provides a challenge.

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I'd like to see dana again, and Jenny :)
Your
Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Score
Category Your Score Average
Hacklust 46.23%
Will kill for XP 53.5%
Sensitive Roleplaying 40.51%
"But what's my motivation for this scene?" 54.7%
GM Experience 55.8%
Puts the players through the wringer 69.4%
Systems Knowledge 88.84%
Played in a couple of campaigns 90.4%
Livin' La Vida Dorka 45.98%
Has interesting conversations in public 63.3%
You are 59.23% pure
Average Score: 68.8%
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Music:

all of it.... everything from punk to ska, to emo, to rock, to oldies, to blues, to jazz, to grunge, to classical... minus rap (almost all) and country (all)

Movies:

Heh, my fav is a B-rated movie called High Strung. It had Steve Oderick (I know thats spelt wrong) and Jim Carrey before he was post Ace Ventura.

Television:

Adult swim, stand up comedy.... thats it...

Books:

Ishmael, Story of B, and My Ishmael.... if you haven't read any of these, please, seak out any and all of Daniel Quinns works. Im currently reading The Holy by Daniel Quinn... I -highly- recommend it!!!

Heroes:

I really dont have any...

My Blog

The White Beyond

I am progressing. I can feel it. Things are changing in me, and I like it. I am becoming a better person, and improving myself in ways I previously found impossible.I got a hug today, from someone who...
Posted by Recovering on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 11:01:00 PST

Bottling it up

Have you ever just wanted to explode? Like, you’re keeping something in you. Something unnattural. Something more then you. I get the feeling in the pit of my stomach. I sometimes wonder if it&r...
Posted by Recovering on Sun, 23 Mar 2008 12:50:00 PST

Disdain...

How badly must a person screw up to have a self described ’touchy feely’ person tell you ’Don’t touch me’ any time you go to so much hug themHow much must a person loath ...
Posted by Recovering on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 01:50:00 PST

March 15th, 2006

I am still alive. Today is a rather monumental day for me. I called off of work the past two days. The Ides has always been a rather... emotionally charged time for me. It’s chaked with greif, s...
Posted by Recovering on Sat, 15 Mar 2008 07:51:00 PST

Diamonds

I lose focus, and everything turns to youI entertain myself with fleeting memoriesof things that have not come to passcoupled with the sweet pain of those which have.Replaying, reliving, clinging on t...
Posted by Recovering on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 04:58:00 PST

Good bye...

Good bye:North Eastern Ohio. A lot of my life was spent here, and it has quite a few amazing memories. I was born in Vegas. I may live in Columbus. But Norther Ohio will always be my home.My family. ...
Posted by Recovering on Sun, 03 Feb 2008 08:00:00 PST

Another yearly ritual

I did one of these last year, where I touch on the important people in my life, and dedicate a sentance to them. It got some good feed back, and showed despite my inability to keep in touch, I still d...
Posted by Recovering on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 04:39:00 PST

B Minor

I've really been touched by art a lot lately. I'm noticing it in the most mundane of things, from the soft whispers of the wind in the early morning, words are full of meaning and strike like a searin...
Posted by Recovering on Sun, 21 Oct 2007 10:27:00 PST

New Job, and Phone Calls

Update:I have started a new job! Awesome hours, great pay. Im working at the Buybacks exchange place. Figured I'd let you all know.Lastly, I owe some (2) people phone calls. You know who you are. If y...
Posted by Recovering on Sun, 21 Oct 2007 10:08:00 PST

I guess Im supposed to do this too....

So. Here's the deal. You're supposed to write 10 statements about people you know. Good or bad, doesn't matter. BUT, you're not supposed to label which comment is for which friend. If you think you kn...
Posted by Recovering on Fri, 07 Sep 2007 05:23:00 PST