[†]Cynical Tendencies™[†]

R.I.P Jeffery Shaw
I went away. To a place far away. Never to return. So far away..But in the end, I returned again, From that place so far away, and now my colors are back to grey. So I guess I'll learn to love you day by day and that way, my colors will no longer fade to grey. -By, Your's truely
My name is Shelby and I'm currently 17. My soul belongs to Timi and my heart belongs to Josh.♥
"Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn't go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew then disappeared
The curtains flew then he appeared...saying don't be afraid
Come on baby...and she had no fear
And she ran to him...then they started to fly
They looked backward and said goodbye...she had become like they are
She had taken his hand...she had become like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper"
LockDown
7/9/07-3/25/08

I am merely just a fragment of my own imagination. I separate fantasy from reality, tape it back together, and live in a world not known to most. My thoughts seem to consume me day by day, but my thoughts seem to be irrational, but at that same time, at the most rational. I live in my head and don't let other's know what kind of suffering I've endured. I don't like to tell people because humans are vile creatures. You tell someone your thoughts, and then later on, they get used against you, but in a perfect world, fantasy would consume it nothing would be what it seemed.
I have been through quite a lot in my life. From abuse to drugs, I've been through it all. Even though I have been through all of this, I am not some sort of monster. I am a really nice person if you take the chance to get to know me. My heart is filled with love and yet emptiness. I care a lot about mostly anyone who befriends me. Even if I've only known a person for a day, I care deeply for them. It doesn't matter if this person beats the shit out of me and spits in my face, I will still care. There's only one person in this world that I truely despise, but he's not in this world anymore. I am nice, but I have a natural since of meaness. It's only because I've had to fight all of my life. Sometimes I get mean for little reasons and later, I regret what I have said and force myself to appologize because like I said, I am not a monster. I say and do mean things and I'd really like to change that, but I'm still in the process on working on my self-control, which is going good for me. I have been offered drugs, and I always turn them down because I believe I am such a better person without the drugs. I don't need them anymore and I certainly have the strentgh to handle my own shit.

I the most supporting boyfriend I could ever ask for. He means the world to me. He makes me smile even though half the time I am angry about something. He always manages to cheer me up. It's been such a long time since I've had someone to love that it feels absolutely wonderful. I can't wait to get out state's custody and spend all my time with him. It's going to be a dream come true. I am very proud to say I have fallen in love him. He is my guardian angel and I love everything about him. Slowly, he is changing my prospective on life in the most beautiful way possible. I would give my life for him.
I love you, Josh.
Write me if you will. I will not attempt to pick a fight with you unless you say something ignorant. Who Would I like To Meet?
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