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full size ninja

so this, this is adult life...

About Me

sometimes i want to go home... sometimes i want to stay... but mostly right now i just feel cuaght in between and i haven't got any of it figured out...

My Interests

love, hearts, minds,community, art ,justice, anticipation, change, my indecent love affair with my ibook, and these people.....

I'd like to meet:

People... Dogs and cats are ok too. No reptiles. Well, mostly just not the ones without legs. Mostly people... I like people... and people who herd cattle or things of that sort...you should meet:my friend brtittany. her myspace and facebook are alphabetized.my friends at "to write love..."melanie cause she's cool like that.heidi cause she should be your hero.megan cause hookin ain't easy...

Music:

"I like when the lyrics meet the music and they have a nice sit down." lori mckenna, patty griffin,ray lamontagne, schuyler fisk, amos lee, dixie chicks, copeland, kate earl, marvin gaye, sam cooke, john mayer, jars of clay, leeland, jamie cullum, shane & shane, dave barnes, corinne bailey rae, switchfoot, damien rice, jeff buckley, leonard cohen, simon and garfunkel, janis joplin, fleetwood mac (stevie nicks), bach, mozart, joshua radin, coldplay, colin hay, garth brooks, randy travis, emmylou harris, allison kruas, johnny cash, waylon jennings, hank williams (sr. and jr), bluegrass, SOUL. everything sounds better on vinyl.

Movies:

the piano, out of africa, close encounters of the third kind, 2001: a space odessey, same time next year, butch cassidy and the sundance kid, walk the line, roman holiday, the good girl, the magnificent ambersons, gone with the wind, an affair to remember, to kill a mockingbird, anne of green gables and avonlea, pride and prejudice, crash, the queen, pans labyrinth, midnight cowboy,breakfast at tiffany's, charade, funnyface, rear window, vertigo, mr smith goes to washington ... tis the current selection... many others...

Television:

greys anatomy. general hospital ( its my thing... leave it alone...)

Books:

The House of the Spirits, Eva Luna (Allende), Poetry by Neruda and Donne, The Heart of Darkness, 1984 (Orwell), Pride and Prejudice ( Austen), The Hobbit (Tolkien), Gone With the Wind (Mitchell), Blue Like Jazz, Searching for God Knows What (Miller), The Barbarian Way (Mcmanus), A Grief Observed ( lewis), Captivating (Eldrege), Hosea (self explanatory), Galatians (paul), The Blue Faience Hippopotamus, Love you Forever, Till We Have Faces (Lewis), Velvet Elvis ( Bell)still reading: One Hundred Years of Solitude (Garcia Marquez)Plays I currently like: Sizwe Banzi is Dead ( Fugard), The Conduct of Life (fornes)

Heroes:

those who never stop dreaming, never stop fighting, and never stop loving.

My Blog

And I give up.

I gave up today because I had to& There were no questions just answers. So I gave up. I gave it over to the old boys club, to the lies that have tainted something that I hold so dear. I keep telling m...
Posted by full size ninja on Thu, 24 May 2007 03:45:00 PST

exile

i wish i could say i was living the simple life and that my lack of connection to the outside world through use of the internet was simply a choice. It was my choice to cut back on excess and to focus...
Posted by full size ninja on Sat, 06 Jan 2007 02:13:00 PST

i need a mender of broken things

Today I am tired. Today the tears are welling in my eyes. Surprisingly not for me... Surprisingly I am very happy. Happier than I have been in a long time and I wake up and know that the promises ar...
Posted by full size ninja on Wed, 01 Nov 2006 09:11:00 PST

somewhere at the start of me

So many of my deep fears about community have been put to rest recently. I left my home (church) in August. I left the day before I went on an eight-day excursion to the Dominican Republic. I sat in t...
Posted by full size ninja on Fri, 15 Sep 2006 08:39:00 PST

Flight to CA

I hate flying by myself. Well in actuality I hate a specific moment that occurs while flying by myself. It occurs when there is an open seat next to mine and I have no idea who is going to sit down. T...
Posted by full size ninja on Fri, 15 Sep 2006 08:36:00 PST

and now we got somethin...

It is somewhere close to early morning and I am waiting to depart. Instead of finalizing my travel situation (trains, planes, and automobilesin that order) I have decided to sit down and write. I wish...
Posted by full size ninja on Fri, 28 Jul 2006 09:02:00 PST

Forgiveness?

I am struck this early morning by all that we do to one another. Even in our in action we are acting. Acting to hurt, maim, and kill, figuratively if not literally. I am struck by the words that escap...
Posted by full size ninja on Sun, 16 Jul 2006 07:37:00 PST

Love Affair with Words

Lately, I have been experiencing this deep love affair with words. Since last April I have been discontented with language, the current lexicon, and its ability to communicate. I think this is closely...
Posted by full size ninja on Mon, 26 Jun 2006 12:34:00 PST

Life!

So here is the blog again... slightly altered and still sad. It was meant to be hopeful and to give my lovely friends a look at my heart and its current state. Loving you all! It started early last we...
Posted by full size ninja on Sat, 10 Jun 2006 02:22:00 PST

The most fun Megan and I have ever had

Hey you probably already read this but this may be the most fun Megan and I have ever had in our ridiculousness. As the 1 month anniversary of her departure arrives I wanted to place it on the interne...
Posted by full size ninja on Sun, 18 Jun 2006 06:06:00 PST