My name is Ana, my Gf Dawn and I have been together for 8 yrs. She is American I am the British half. We have two gorgeous dogs - They are big and boisterous and they like to run, so we spend alot of time in the forest. We like to go to the forest especially at night when the dogs [and me] can run and play hard and be a little wild without people who don't like that, to spoil our fun. It's even better if it's a full moon to light our way.
So many people irritate the fuck out of me for so many reasons and unless I know people arn't going to get on my nerves or I feel awkward around them, then I prefer deserted places and for it to be, just us, on our own.I like the feeling of true freedom and there arn't many places you can feel that way on this little rock.
I like walking with my gf & dogs in the rain because it means everyone else goes indoors!. I like the beach at night. My gf is the most important person in my world - she rocks. She puts up with me, which I do know can be a chore at times x. I don't have many people in my life, I'm a stray...but my mom is important to me. She doesn't always get me, but she tries to understand!I look for depth in people, when there isn't much below the surface I'm not really interested...I don't really understand people who want to just read tacky mainstream gossip mags or watch dumb chat shows...I tend to be drawn too people who seem to be loose cannons...A little crazy, but in a good way. Thankfully Dawn is responsible which is what I desperately need in my life!...I don't like people having an opinion about me when they arn't someone who understands the first thing about me...I'm 'feral' and unless I feel some connection with people alot of the time I'm unsocial and alone and avoiding people...I feel disconnected from most people. Other people's rules and regulations / control leave me feeling trapped so I try to stay away from it all as much as possible...I like to control the world in which I live and I am upset by people having control over me.
My head is either totally blank / racing with thoughts or making analyses to make sense of things. I want to do so much but sometimes end up staring at the wall instead. I zone out alot. I talk and talk or I don't want to / can't speak at all. I am mostly absolutely p!ss poor with verbal communication but well thought out in writing...unable to pay attention and focus, process information or operate at all in many types of situations and environments. An empty 'shell' when I'm out of my comfort zone, that leads some people into thinking of extreme shyness. or I can be an attention seeking over confident pain in the arse. Prone to frequent big tantrums. A perfectionist. Uninterested or obsessive. Can't start or finish tasks but find it difficult to stop others. Stopping one thing and starting another is problematic.......There is rarely any middle ground...I am aware that my head is just 'different' and not in ways which I choose or that people think are 'cool' but in ways which can make life so fuck!ng awkward and difficult - 1 reason why I like to stay in my own little world as much as I can, where I am very happy :)I can be pretty serious but I have a pretty quirky? sense of humour. I don't find the humour in most jokes but when something just amuses me it really amuses me and I can't even really describe what those things are.You should know that, if your a straight woman and feel uneasy for any reason - you shouldn't f/k!ng flatter yourself [in that way] I don't mean to sound hostile and I'm sure most people arn't that ignorant - but some are...I may sound cold some of the time, but know that I can have a 'big heart' [when I like / can relate to / trust and understand people]
AnaAll writing from My Lost Soul [By: Ana]72] Play Nice!71] Animals versus People From a Social Interaction point of view70] Day In The Life of a Learning curve!69] My Dog | Poorly Eye68] ...A little more...67] Pretty Lights and Tree Monsters66] Various - part 265] Various...64] Wake UP! I am a dork63] ’Public Outcries’ & Emotional ’bandwagons’62] Mute!61] Dreaming [continued]60] Sleep and a not so dream like dream59] My response to a myspace friends blog [Politics | Religion | Same Sex Marriage]58] Politics | News | Rights [Same Sex Marriage in the US]57] I’m not well :(56] Thought processing PT2 [More serious]55] Thought processing...[Funny!]54] Pumpkins53] How to make me teary eyed!52] Lights51] Some good news50] A night out49] My head!48] Restraint!47] Patriotic [When it suits me!]46] Hand Writing45] Blood! [Groups]44] A Day In The Life Of Me43] Tuesday42] Thinking opposite to others always? [Judgments & Opinions]41] Untie Me!!40] Confusion39] On a more positive note! [Positivity is a lie]38] I’m Sorry | The end37] Crushed36] F--K OFF35] Voting [You could get kicked in the ass by a moose too!]34] I Wanna be popular too! [Insane sarcasm!]33] It is infuriating to be me!32] ’Rage’ / Temper...31] Stick to your own side of the sraight fence30] So Tired Of...29] Obsessive behaviour PT.228] Religious beliefs PT.1!27] Why to NOT take just any personality [disorder] test online!26] Seeing the light?25] Your chance to be a voyeur!24] I'm Just a Stray23] [Don’t!] Get To Know Me!22] For Leslie & Trixie [Donations]21] Doom20] A PURE Deviant19] Jekyll and Hyde18] What’s your ’feel good song’?17] Picture this?16] C@nsorsh!p Hell!15] I Miss You :(14] The documentaries I watched while I was away...13] I really like you!12] Differnt? | ’The anti profile’11] The Sun Rises In The Dark...10] F**k when we stopped being nomadic & turned to farming9] [TechniKult of Flesh] 'Angelmakers' ~ V3! ~ My version8] Everything is so f**k!ng ’gay’7] Just leave me alone, you’ll make it worse!6] A couple of verses I put together for someone to someone...5] Social interaction4] Other People.3] My dogs home alone...[Howling]2] Groups1] Protect Wolves
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