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Imperfect Doll.

Age: 18
Gender: Female
Status: Single
Zodiac: Gemini/goat
Orientation: Bisexual
Here For: Nothing, maybe friends?
Job: boredom ._.

W H Y | S O | S E R I O U S ?

†lovely†
†imperfect†
†lil' bit insane†
†hopeless romantic†
†thoughtful and deep†
†really sarcastic, sometimes a big asshole†
†totally in love with military uniforms, a masochistic bitch and proud of it...if you've a problem with it, i don't care about it†
†sadistic in thoughts and on the paper, but definitely not in my real life†
†avid for tattoos(no tribals >.<), piercings(all kinds of them), scars(only on male bodies) and BDSM†
†creepy and damn honest to my true friends†
†like a bird inside a dark cage, not able to fly away and sad about this fact†
†can be ugly, abusive, nasty, really mean and cruel†

My sweethearts.

♥ Akuseru ♥ ...she's the most important human in my dark life, the sunshine in my heart and the biggest piece of my soul. don't dare to hurt her. i would knife through your fuckin' throat ! ò.ó

♥ Seno ♥ ...this is my favorite wolf, the adorable lupus in my life. she is awesome, so don't hurt her or i would freak out really bad ! >.<

♥ Lisa ♥ ...she's my private Lucifer. I really like her and this in spite of a lot of problems in our past. Touch her, hurt her and i will break your neck ! :<[br />
♥ Kaija ♥ .. for being my friend, my enemy, my best critic and the first real friend i ever had. i'm warning you, don't hurt her sweet heart ! o.ô

Music.

Marilyn Manson
D'espairs Ray
The Candy Spooky Theatre
Dir En Grey
Buck-Tick
Girugämesh
Suicide Ali
Oomph!
The Pumpkin Heads
Deathstars
Unheilig
Agonoize
TheGazettE
Matenrou Opera
Flyleaf
Versailles
Miyavi
Gackt (and all projects)
X Japan
Boob
The 69 Eyes
Nachtmahr
Centhron
Malice Mizer
Moi Dix Mois
Escape The Fate
From First To Last
Blessthefall
Alesana
Rammstein
In Extremo
Subway To Sally
Evanescence
Panic! At The Disco
My Chemical Romance
Piass
Blood
Exist Trace
Venom
Nightwish
Latexx
Schandmaul
Peter Heppner (and many of projects)
4LYN
System Of A Down
Excrementory Grindfuckers
Phantasmagoria
Maximum The Hormone
Eve of Destiny
Combichrist
Three Days Grace
Wednesday 13
Slipknot
Samsas Traum
Josh Groban
Zombie Girl
Linkin Park
Him
Negative
Lordi
Iron Maiden
Dimmu Borgir
Children of Bodom
Electric Six
Bloc Party
Die Ärzte
The Birthday Massacre
ASP
Illusioun of Light
Combichrist
Nachtmahr
etc. ...

Movies.

Was nützt die Liebe in Gedanken?
Watchmen
Batman - The Dark Knight
Butterfly Effect
Nightmare Before Christmas
House of 1000 corpses
V for Vendetta
Sweeney Todd
The Mist
Heavenly Creatures

The insane girl.The depressing inverted shadow never vanishes again

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

My Name is Isabel, but you call me Nyuu, Fly or something else. I hate this real name and the person who it is. I haven't anything in common with this fuckin' person Isabel. That's not me...so don't use this name.
My life is really messy, too fast in my eyes and incredible dumb.
I know, it's smug, but I'm only able to respect people who are crazy like me, dorky, philosophic or thoughtful just like me. Why? That’s easy to say - I can't stand normal people, people who never were really sad in their life or never were in psycho situations. It’s impossible.
I don't care, if you like me or not. I give a shit of your opinion, because it's your life and I know, I'm only a damn number on your friendlist.
Deal with it!
You should know, that I’m not able to show unknown people how I feel about them or if I like them. I could do it later... but not at the first time. The reason for this is easy to say - I know nothing about someone at the first moment I met him/her.

I've reached a point in my life, where I must let go all the senseless dramas and the people who create it. I never thought that I could do this, but now I’ve changed my life. It wasn't easy, but now I’m really proud about it. I’ve learned, that I should hang out with people who make me happy, who are able to make me laugh. I’ve noticed that only those people are important to me. You know, my dears... I love all of you in different ways!
No, I’m not perfect or something like that, I’m just me and I hope you can understand it. It isn't necessary to look back to my sorrowful past. It's gone and now I look into the future with a bright smile on my face, because I know if I really want something, I can get all of my dreams. It won't be easy, but with hard work I’ll get it!

I've learned that goodbyes will always hurt, that some people will make you cry, but whatever...it's stupid to think about these little subjects.
Life will go on, everyday.

Love.

needless none of my business insane and hurtful shit, but wonderful a big lie in my life complicated past i only believe in friendship. Love? Fuck off! Go ahead with it ! ! !
i was hurt a thousand times... my heart was broken so often in this short life.
call me a nervous wreck, because love destroyed me badly.

Happy Birthday

I think my friend said, "I hear footsteps."
I wore my black and white dress to the
birthday massacre, birthday massacre, birthday
I wore my black and white dress

I think my friend said, "Stick it in the back of her head."
I think my friend said, "Two of them are sisters."
"I'm a murder tramp, birthday boy", I think I said
"I'm gonna bash them in, bash them in", I think he said

Then we wished them all a happy birthday
We kissed them all goodnight. Now he chases me to my room,
chases me to my room, chases me
In my black and red dress

I think my friend said, "Don't forget the video."
I think my friend said, " Don't forget to smile."
"You're a murder tramp, murder tramp", I think he said
"You're a murder boy, birthday boy", I think I said

Heros.

Swafnir ♥♥♥ you are my love, the unreal dream and the person i never want to lose. i know, you aren't real, but you haven't any idea how much you held and helped me. i love you, my dear ♥ Joker ♥ thank u for all the insanity, i'm thankful about your burning world. kiss you V ♥ for being the reason why i think, that revenge isn't only good for one person, but rather for the society, too. R.I.P. Rorschach ♥ for being the salt in my soup and your great kind and way of life. Marilyn Manson ♥ thank you for all these songs. WACKEN ♥ for being my hyding place, for being my mecca of metal Alex and Sash ♥ i miss both of you. i won't forget you. you were my mentors i haven't forget you, my sweethearts, but .. please understand. you have your own category ^__^

† Now .. some words to you, Yui Mitgard. † i really fell in love with you. i really believed in you.
i was so happy that i've found someone like you. You've shown me the absurdity of love. you made me strong. Many thanks for open up my mind. today i'm able to understand your lies, your fuckin' thoughts and stories. I've done with you and your life. you're unworthy for my love, but .. i can't hate you. it's not possible for me. are you proud of it? Go away, die and learn to understand my real nature ! ! ! Fuck you, bitch †††

Other Stuff.

♥♥♥ Damn Great o.O ♥♥♥
Its painful, its painful, and it cant be helped
She said it
but still, we continue this circus
(Forever!)
It's fun, so fun!
This circus is so fun
Rotten fruit, to dissolve my eyes
My skin festers, reflected on my eyes
I want to die, want to die
Get me out of here, please
It is impossible for anyone to say and feel

touching ;__;

yes, this fuckin' voice inside my mind >__<

awesome and sad in one

i always cry to this song ...