%D%A Find me on MySpace and be my friend! %D%A%D%A %D%A%D%A .. %D%A%D%A %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A N %D%A%D%A%D%A %D%A%D%AI am a gifted, free-spirited redhead who has been through way too much crap for someone of my age. I am an irritable artist with an unstable mood. Lost in the mirror. I am creative & talented, but feel so misunderstood and worthless at times. Determined to become my own person. Although seem very happy to everyone else, but I'm hurting a lot. Outwardly bright and dynamic, inwardly depressed, ashamed and frightened. Scared, alone, and needing Need help in a lot of things, don't want people to know, I just want to know they care. Im someone trying to be happy, but only finding sorrow. A messed up person who has no reason for this, try to paint a good picture of myself. Pathetic! A freak! A cutter! Healing, healing, healing Im not crazy just reacting to life and genetics. Wants more out of life A unmotivated, yet intelligent and the architect of my own suffering. Broken! Is it me who makes the monsters? Fool!!! Fool I am .. shes Insane, erratic, prudent who worships children because she never was one! I'm a childcare provider who wants to continue to live a great life. I live my life on different sides!! Unpredictable!! In my own little bubble, I have major issues. I am possible-impossible, visible-invisible! CONFLIICTED! But I know am going to find my way!! I believe in myself even if no one seems to understand! A queer, borderline, and recovering Catholic. And as I live my life, I live as if its my last! Even I cant remember, I know the real me is within me!! I am me and I can. You can't. I am like the music I play, different emotions at different times. A lot more sorted than I was. Musical indeed that keeps playing, playing like it wont give up. And in some way, there is no reason for me to hide!! I am, and will continue to be. The days of my life are in every chapter. Open book as they say. Thats how I understand. Read it and youll see.%D%A%D%A %D%A%9 %D%A
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