Lord, you have examined me, and know all about me.
You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know my thoughts before I think them.
You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know thoroughly everything I do.
Lord, even before I say a word, you already know it.
You are all around me - in front and behind me.
Your knowledge is amazing to me;
It is more than I can understand.
Where can I go to get away from you Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise with the sun in the east and
settle in the west beyond the sea, even there you would guide me.
With your right hand you would hold me.
I could say, "The darkness will hide me; let the light around me turn into night."
But even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my innermost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
-Psalm 139-
Thank you for your grace, and let me never forget it.
There is a certain heaviness in the air when there are things unknown. Things I will never find. Secret thoughts and desires of those closest to me; I will never hear. Watching people that are so empty they cannot receive pure unconditional love. Giving love with no expectation or agenda. Emotionally Unavailable. Unable to break away from the pain we have endured. The heartbreak and the pain we have had to live with. The choice to let it all go. The emotional prison our experiences with love have influenced us to stay in. Breaking free from the chains of our past. Letting go of what no longer serves us. The choice to change looming in the distance. The choice to become our true selves; to believe in ourselves. To learn to love ourselves and know, that we are loveable.
St. Theresa's Prayer:
May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget theinfinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has beengiven to you... May you be content knowing you are a child of God... Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow yoursoul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of you. Love and light surround you. It isso!
Love is Letting Go of Fear
- Cousins Forever -