I'd like to meet:
I have been through alot in my life. I am starting "ALL" over again, but this is how we learn to develope the skills we need to grow in life. If we never learn we never grow, therefore not being able to continue in life. I have been in many situations that I would love to have not been in, though have taught me much in life.
I want the best for myself and the man whom chooses to be with me. I want a man that is willing to walk beside me and grow with me; instead of in front of me or me behind him. I have much to offer the right person, but always must offer to myself first so that right person can always be offered "me" as a whole.
We can never recycle the time we lost, but only to learn and develope skills that prevent from losing any more time. I have developed these skills, I believe, that will encounter me in choosing the right person to walk with me, but the number one man in my life who will forever and a day walk with me is my lord: "Jesus" He has never steered me wrong when in my life and I won't let another come between us. I am not a godly person, I do not push him on anyone, but do however believe in him and his inspiring power in my life. I am dealing with alot right now with my sister being very ill and possiblity of death right around the corner....For this I do not understand, but he has a reason behind it, perhaps it is to make me even stronger than I am already or possibly to make me weak for something I haven't learned yet, whatever it is it is his reason and a good one I am sure. My sister has accepted it and for that I must accept the loss when it occurs. Perhaps then will I only understand it. I love her dearly and pray every day to Jesus to rid her body of the cancer she is dealing with that is taking her from me.
This is my time to shine.....My motto for this new year is
"2008 is gonna be GREAT!"
I plan to be a wealthy women NOT rich (yet anyways) by the end of 2008. You know; when you can go shopping without having to put off one bill or the other just for something you WANT and don't really NEED....LOL. This is the year that will come true for me, for I WILL make it happen.
I plan to be very business oriented this year, so guys listen up: when I say I am a very busy lady....I am. I work a lot! Living with myself and my 80 year old father. I have 4 online businesses I run, and work a full time job. With the screen name "focus'd on me" that is exactly it.Its all about keeping my train on the track! I will have my time for fun, don't get me wrong.......can't miss out on the play time; Butt....business most definitely before pleasure!! I am still single waiting for that special someone, "MAYBE" one day he will come along; but for now, it seems he is just hiding in some far off spot and won't come find me.......Oh'well man kinds loss (for now). I am very: ....sweet, loving, caring, hard worker both in and out of the home, not into games or fighting, all lover here. If you think you can keep up, are genuine, and love to make your lady feel special and laugh......holla', if not....don't botha'.
"LIFE GOES ON"
It's amazing to me how life goes on,
Even after your loved one has gone;
Though we miss them deep in our hearts,
Thoughts of our day is our normal start;
You never think you'll be able to live,
Only now; you live to forgive;
Forgive yourself and don't be mad,
For anger will surly just make you sad;
Make them proud and continue to live,
They know how much you have left to give;
They'll always be right there by your side,
Nudging you to continue forever to stride;
For life will not end for people like me,
Your loved one is gone, You must let it be!
A better place is where they are,
Yet, NEVER here, Nor NEVER Far!
WRITTEN::11/03/07
FOR::Irene Perkins-Gil
BY::Christine Perkins-Melville
~*~SISTER, SISTER~*~
Death, do we know what it means,
Is it heaven we see in our dreams?
Dear Jesus: Are you really waiting,
I'm not sure, I'm still debating!
"Trust and Believe"; that's what I hear,
Though all I feel is "why me" and "fear".
It shouldn't be her time to die,
So many years have passed us by!
Knowing now I must say "GoodBye"!
All I can do is sit and Cry.
Now that things have turned for me,
Accept your death, How could this be!
I wanted to get to know you again,
I need you back ~ My Sister, My Friend!
Now it seems I won't be able,
Life has turned so very unstable!
What will I do with out you?
My heart has broken right in two!
WRITTEN FOR MY SISTER
BY MYSELF
FROM THE DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART!!
I SHALL FOREVER LOVE HER AND MISS HER DEARLY!!!!
HER LIL BRAT::CHRISSY
Hawaii :: Mothers Day 2007 ::
My sister weeks before her passing.
