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amanda.

& the eyes in my head see the world spinning round

About Me

And by the way you brought me here-Don't flatter yourself sweetheart-Is this what you wanted? 'Cause I'm willing to change.- I'm under the assumption that I'm gonna be the one thats leaving you-I keep my jealousy close-It's gotten late and now I want to be alone-If they knew how misery loved me-Cause you don't know who I really am-We'll look back and realize this was all we had-And everyone hears every little sound-I hope this time it will fade away-I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all-Sitting on a carousel ride without any music or light-everybody wants a piece of the pie-My thoughts are misguided and a little nave-Incinerate what's left of this-You're as welcome as cancer-I recall the sunshine as you were melting-A pictures worth a thousand words But not worth the words I need to hear-It started in our basement-A million miles away, would you throw it all away-I wish I was special You're so fucking special-And with the traces that she leaves-Our hearts pump dust and our hairs all grey-It wears her out-Half smoked cigarettes and you're the trash that infests my sheets-So vexed to find evidently there's just so much that hides-You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth-I want to be someone else or I'll explode-I'd offer you my hand, it would hurt too much to watch you die-These words are running through my mind-You think you're worth more than you earned-I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever-The Morning after I'm stuck in your throat-American dreams ripping at the seams-Ive been thinking maybe I can make this right-You know I am your worst nightmare-And all I know is you're cute when you scream-You always knew it was on purpose-walking away again seems like I know the back of your head better than the front-become more than a sitcom dependency MyGen Profile Generator

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

And start new when your heart is an empty room-I see that you've come to resist me-God damn the black night with all it's foul temptation-And I knew your heart I couldn't win-Oh, I will surprise you sometime-The flames and smoke climbed out of every window-This is no umbrella to take into the wind -The boundaries of language I quietly cursed-Make it with me in preparation for tonight-The longest shadows ever cast-Our hearts pump dust and our hairs all grey-But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet-And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today-I quietly tied all my guts into knots-But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize-Cuz you cocked your head to shoot me down-You're so cute when you're slurring your speech-Down a hill of pine tree quills we made our way-Just our hands clasped so tight-I can't control the part of me that swells up when you move into my airspace-have you been sleeping late cause you've been abused-The gift of memory is an awful curse-These walls are paper thin And everyone hears every little sound-Getting the air inside my lungs is heavenly-Well, she was my catatonic sex toy, love-joy diver-A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere-Add it up and basically people never change-Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole-I think I’m drunk enough to drive you home now-this strange plan is random at best -I came as advice that came too short-I might disintegrate into the thin air if you'd like-But my head's to the wall and I’m lonely-Everyone wants a double feature-Hold my hand to your heart and breathe-I recall the sunshine as you were melting-I surrender all my gall in a song of modern love

Music:

One million souls tossing down their hard earned lettuce for a piece of the hot rock indie alternative pie. I've sold out. How about you? Everybodys doing it even if they say they're not. Dont ask me cause I don't know. Rock saves. Its the next big thing. Have you heard the next big thing? I'm part of the revolution. Its all coming down soon. Hope you're there. Modest Mouse elton john jefferson flying device Radiohead james taylor Smashing Pumpkins Built to Spill ELO Stars Animal Collective Sigur Ros My Morning Jacket Wilco Broken Social Scene Pink Floyd Minus the Bear Belle & Sebastian Bob Dylan The Faint Interpol The Album Leaf Explosions in the Sky Secret Machines The Velveteen Sparklehorse The Cure Jimi Hendrix

My Blog

Cabin Fever

We mustered up the courage late last night to embark on an adventure. In search of a shack in the middle of the swamp four brave souls paddled our measly little canoe across the lake and into the unkn...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 26 Jun 2006 01:14:00 PST

Success Stories!

I've been sitting upstairs with the tv & my computer on, old school Death Cab is playing in my room and everyone is asleep in this house. My day planner says now is the time that I shoul...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 17 Apr 2006 02:27:00 PST

What a Creep

Been thinking about you, your record's a hitYour eyes are on my wall, your teeth are over thereBut I'm still no-one, and you're not a starWhat do you care?Been thinking about you, and there's no restS...
Posted by amanda. on Tue, 29 Nov 2005 08:34:00 PST

I am disgusted

I freaking hate way too many things, but Im pretty pissed off right about now, so I'll fill you in on my deepest darkest thoughts... or at least the top layer of them 1. Being Alone 2. Bumper stic...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I say it a lot, but I really do love...

1. SEATTLE 2. staying up late 3. really good conversations 4. being random 5. Victor's coffee shop 6. Being emo even though I dont admit it 7. Knowing my way around 8. spontanious...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

my life in near complete

The show last night was so epic. I nearly raped the lead singer of Franz because he was so intense. The Shins failed me and didn't play young pilgram and I cried, but no worries I got over it. Now all...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

leaf blowing? I think so

I got really bored today so Lizzie and I decided to get the leaf blower, throw on some goggles and make our way over to Taylor's house. We were busy leaf blowing his driveway when he came out and behe...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

CREAM

Holy effing efferson. It's like a party in your pants when you find out something like this! Taylor bought me a ticket to deck the hall ball and fully surprised me... How about my life is complete. Af...
Posted by amanda. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST