Who Am I?
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Am I Dutch? Or Indian/Goan? Or Kenyan? WHERE AM I FROM?!
Am I a pessimist? Or a realist?
Am I selfish? Or merely protecting myself from pain?
Am I too dreamy? Or will my imagination carry me to my true destiny?
Am I the outgoing model/singer? Or am I just that girl desperately seeking acceptance?
Am I a family person? Or am I looking for the family that didn't exist behind the cover-up shield?
Am I an extrovert, because I'm outgoing? Or is that, too, a cover-up for the smallness of my inner child?
Am I a bi***, because I speak my mind?
DO I SPEAK MY MIND???
Or am I saying what I believe our society today expects to hear?
Am I not liked, because I let the world walk over me? Or is it because I'm not the bi*** people expect me to be? Even though I try....
Am I too selfish, because I take more than I should without thinking? Or am I too giving because the world has more of me than I do?
Am I a victim of my own mind, as people love to tell me repeatedly? Or am I a witness of the world's eager willingness to stand on the side and WATCH people suffer?
Am I that small girl that still yearns to be a child, yearns for the days of oblivion to what pain of the heart really meant...? That small girl who did not know betrayal even when it was smacked in her face....?
Or am I the woman of awareness and growth, where her innocence is gone along with the trust of the world...? That woman of strength with limits still unknown, fighting to see the glimpse of hope that love, true beauty, and "good" still exists...?
Am I a different person, now that my opinions differ from the little girl of ten years ago?? Was THAT me, or is THIS me?
Born Melissa Nathalia Barreto - de Blok on March 17th, 1989, in a small hospital in the south of the Netherlands - I came with a destiny...
And now, Mellow Dee will carry it forth.
I stand proudly
Mellow Dramatic
Mellow Dragon - fiery as ever...
My music's destiny is none other than my own,
My destiny is nothing but my music,
My life is music,
Its notes my air, its harmonies my drug,
Its rhythm my food supply,
Its mood my orgasm...
Full of colours, full of spirit, full of soul.
Full of ME.
Who am I, you ask?
Ever Changing
Ever Lasting (in thought, not in presence)
Ever Evolving
Different
Strange, even, sometimes
I am what I choose to be.
I am my destiny.