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About Me

* The words u said have taken root in my heart, loving so deeply thus its only logical that my heart hurts now. Memory in my chest turns over and over again- is it true that everyone is as dumb as me. I’m afraid that if we continue to question ourselves it’ll just be crueler to each other. Nothing is left of u but a shadow of ur presence in the corner of my eye. I wait for my laughter to turn into tears. When love is at its breaking point it seems more pragmatic this way. Too many unanswered questions even if I know the response what difference does it make now. Heartaches are more sincere and intense than love and happiness. Loneliness is more realistic than embraces. Perhaps I’m being too selfish not wanting to live a lonely life without u. hard to let go and see the future, but I guess that’s the way that love is. Who remembers who said it first- to always love me. These past words will be come future scars. Time has past and it’s been to long that we’ve forgotten those moments of tenderness. If the saving of 1 second Could diminish the pain from thinking of u tomorrow I'm willing to give up everything In order to exchange for any tiny possible possession Happiness is remaining like an hourglass, gawping at those sweet memories scene after scene Even such ordinary possession is no longer mine Which now seems like a helpless extravagance I've already started to practice, gradually becoming anxious Anxious about a world without u Already told my tears not to cry I practice everyday. Everyday I'm familiar with A city without u Trying to eliminate in our world Those fond memories that belong to us Only u & I lost our way Didn't we say we would make a living together How could I go back alone
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(To me who cant see you) Everyday every night I am missing you Even if you are not by my side Even if I cant see you now; my heart is always… loving you and missing you The words that I didn’t finish telling you They are overwhelming my heart right now I’m a person who lacks so much And I know that is why you left Why didn’t you tell me? As I think of you more and more, I know that my heart will ache more and more but In the end I cant hold back my thoughts And I remember you and once again I crumble Now I cant love anyone else other than you My heart has been used to being yours I’m sorry for being like this Forgive me for only being this way Those last words that you left me, they haunt me. The times with you that I wanted to hold onto They make me struggle so much Help me, so that I can let you go Always tears fall in my dreams How come waiting for you feels like the end of my life? For some days, for some years You probably won't be the same Can I see you once more? How i cried, that night you left me the world with you, i don't have it, but i want it like this it's left, the parting, collapsing,How was your day today? Was it okay? It was too late yesterday so I couldn't call you I kept picking up the phone and then putting it down again That's how I spent the night a little silly, isn't it? I was curious about your day If you also hug your pillow when you sleep like I do Or Sometimes if when you wake up only the TV is on in loneliness When it's really nothing I think I loved you too much I know you hear me so why did you leave? You said you'd always be here but now, all I do is cry.. For sometime now I lived on without you Like nothing was the matter I was okay... like the promise we made on your last day I lived without you in my mind. But I think I'm still searching helplessly for your scent that still remains I'm back at your last place wallowing in my sadness. I think I loved you too much I can't escape this pain you left me in, I'll be waiting for you again though I know you can't come back to me Yes, it is stupid of me.

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My Blog

flying away again...

hey buddies,sorry i wont be able to reply ur emails for a while because i'll be flying arround certain parts of the world again. most of u know that it takes me a while to reply anywayz, but dont call...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Thu, 03 Nov 2005 12:53:00 PST

I love these guys

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Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Sun, 18 Sep 2005 10:17:00 PST

Over and over again

music video code by urbnmix.netnelly (ft tim mcgraw) - over and over   Cause it's all in my headI think about itOver and over againAnd I can't keepPicturing you with himAnd it hurts so badYeah, ...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Wed, 31 Aug 2005 08:10:00 PST

~~Home~~

Michael~~ Another summer dayHas come and gone awayIn Paris and RomeBut I wanna go homeMaybe surrounded byA million people IStill feel all aloneI just wanna go homeI miss you, you knowAnd Ive been kee...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Thu, 18 Aug 2005 06:25:00 PST

How to Deal

Sometimes a man has to choose And do something he doesnt wanna do Do I live my life with you as my wife? Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream? I gotta do this for me Cuz if I do...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

He left for another b4 he saw this...

I said that I had to go I really had no choiceI only cried while holding the telephone I promised that I'll definitely come backand things would be better then. The long wait for you will give me love...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Love

I wonder when it first began. The transition from liking him to loving him. I think back to the memories that we've made together, which now seems to me so few and yet so precious to my heart. I suppo...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Practice

If the saving of 1 second Could diminish the pain from thinking of u tomorrow I'm willing 2 give up everything In order 2 exchange 4 any tiny possible possession Happiness is remaining like an...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

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Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

goodbye doesnt mean forever-flying outta the country

Tonights the last night Im in the United States. So if u didnt catch a hold of me tonight then itll probably be a while before u can. Finalized all my plans tomorrow morning Im heading to Vancou...
Posted by ~*~**BeLoVeD**~*~ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST