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Depressed idiot who hides behind smile. Everything is always fine. Emotions are buried deep inside. Yes, I have them but I will never show it. Not to you anyway. Paranoia is always there. Schizophrenic, mood swinging, dark minded, perverted sometimes. Tried to be nice, didn't work. Tried to be something else, didn't work. What I am now? Don't know. Idiot? Any case, leave me alone. I have been cursing this world for far to long and I have lost my breath, my lungs are full of ash, my eye's are full of blood and my mind is overclouded with suspicion that something is coming to drag me down the road of good hopes but that all is a lie. A big lie. Everything is a lie. I don't trust you and don't know will I ever be able to do so. I don't trust my self for crying out loud. I have been cheated, I am cheated right now, and for sure I will be cheated in future. I am lying my self that sometimes I will be able to what I am, without mask, without over thinking everything just so I don't make some mistake or don't say something that will give up my real intentions. But I am afraid that I will go berserk and consume my self in great fireball that will obliterate everything around me. That would be nice at second tough. Let's bring it. Let fuck this fucking town and people who are living in this fake, good for nothing, forsaken city. Yes its a mood swing that is lasting now for to long.