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- LEGAL -
. GETTiN MY EDUMAKATION 0N AT CSUS .
- SNATCHED UP ON 012905 -
. DAUGHTER, SiSTER, FRiEND, SCHM0KEY'MAMA, L0VER .
- H0LDiN' 0N T0 TH0SE REAL FEW PPL iN MY LiFE THAT WiLL ALWAYS HAVE MY BACK -
. MY F0CUS IS 0N G0iNG UP FR0M HERE .
- THiNGS CAN 0NLY GET BETTER -
. TAKES TiME & iMA RiDE iT 0UT .
RAND0M SWEET N0THiNGS AB0UT MYSELF
i'm probably a hard person to understand. there's a lot about me that you might not EVER understand until you really get up close and personal. i have trust issues. this is ironic because i'm VERY quick to trust. and others are very quick to break it. evidentally i've been very quick to be duped. yehh. i used the word "duped". don't know what it means, check dictionary.com. -thas my best friend when writing essays. i hate writing, but jus as ironic as the rest of my life is, writing is what i'm best at. i'm a mutt. i've been confused for a mexican, a european, a vietnamese, and just a white girl with a slight hint of asian features. take your pick. i talk too much. when i tell stories, EVERY detail must be mentioned. i have a problem with feeling incomplete. i guess thats why i like details. i'm not bad at school, but i don't enjoy it much. i'm lazy, but i'm also motivated. like i said. ironic. my biological father and my boyfriend share a birthday. just by chance of course. i have a mom and a sister. and i'm a mom to my puppy. i don't believe that she feels herself to be an animal. i'm shy. but then i'm not. i'm shy in large crowds. but you can't get me to shut up once i'm comfortable. i used to be really good at math, until word problems entered my life. i love to laugh. its a release. i believe in the statement "you will only have about 6 real friends in your life, the others will simply be acquaintances". i've trusted and loved. i've been hurt. i'm sure i'm guilty of hurting too. there are those few in my life that have made such a big impact that i'll never forget them. i've learned that it's ok to have friends. you don't always need a best friend. but i've got some of those too. i let people come to me. i used to be a seeker, wanting to fit in. i'm too lazy for that. i'll be me, and i'll be around. if you enjoy my company, i'm really glad, and i'll end up loving you probably. but if you can't stand me, it's okay. i used to worry too much about what people think. it's useless. want irony here tho? when it comes to oral presentations, i D0 care what people think because i'm terrified of public speaking haha. i guess i enjoy attention like everyone else, but at the same time i hate being stared at. i get scared when ghetto ass homies try to holler. i seem to be a favorite for hispanic men. i love my family. we have a complex story behind us, but when it comes down to it, they're my heart. i love my boyfriend. i esp. like him because he became my best friend before anything. he's doing big things. mayb one day he'll fly big planes. he's cute. he's been my rock. he & the fams are the reason i wake up everyday and keep on living. i hate change. so much that just rearranging my room means a few sleepless nights. i want to move out. but i don't want to do that until i can take full responsiblity for myself. so it'll be a while. i have a job. but i'm only working one day a week at the moment. that'll change. i complain a lot. but most of the time, i think i only complain to have somethig to say when the area is too quiet. most times, when i "complain" about something, it really isn't bothering me at all. i procrastinate. i wish i didn't, but it seems that i do my best work under pressure. i want to be a nurse. they keep telling me that i shud consider changing my major. they can kisss myyyyyyy %^$#@ because nursing is what i want to do. my priorities in life have changed. you want more irony? when you get to know me, i can be extremely childish. i like watching harry potter movies. but if you take the time to really listen to me inbetween my random outbursts- i'm mature for my age. i know what i want. i know i can't let things get in my way. and i know that i've got to keep moving to get there. i'm done with associating myself with people that don't understand. i only need those that have continued to be "positive motivating forces" in my life. i need concentration, hope, and faith. and i'll get where i'm planning to go. i like to dream and imagine. but i try not to be to TOO naive. i've learned that as much as i'd like to believe people are only good, i can't always let my guard down. i'm not perfect either. this is how i know that you gotta watch your back. no one is. and thas how it is. so that's a little bit of my random rambling over a few things about myself. i only did this because i've been bored for 3 hours & this is how it goes. until next timeee, friend.
