How happy is the blameless vessle's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
Random Thought of the Moment: It's all transient. Who cares?
Quote of the Moment:"I'm not addicted to drugs, I'm addicted to glamor"
-James St.James
Normally this box would be full of stupid and useless facts about myself that you don't care about and never will need later in life. That's stupid. Instead, I think I'll fill this with a TL;DR description of who I am and how I live for the non-believers out there:
My name is Mike Stelzner. I am a pariah. I have zero self worthy. I am not a unique snowflake. I see things on a level most people don't and don't want to bother to learn to look. I am an artist. I mean this in the most full sense. Life is an experience, full of beauties in the most abstract way.
Sights.
Sounds.
Colors.
Emotions.
I embrace them all, finding even the most trace amounts of beauty in the beast. I like living like that. I release my feelings and thoughts via art. My art is abstract or impressionistic. You might not like it or understand it, but it feeds my soul to make it.
I am very empathetic. I'm the person you can talk to when you're overloaded with problems. The shoulder you can lean on. Someone who you can tell anything without fear of it being leaked. Even if I don't know you very well I'll treat you like a friend if you return the courtesy.
I enjoy conversation. Nothing turns me on in a girl like one who can hold a decent conversation, and further points are awarded to those who can make it a decent and mentally stimulating conversation. There are two things I pursue in life: happiness and knowledge. The individual human mind fascinates me. I love to know what makes people "tick".
I like to think of myself as exceptionally intelligent. Perhaps this is arrogance, but there have been a few key indications. I scored in the top 3% on my PSATs, in the top 50,000 out of 1.5 million students across the USA who took the test. My grades are mostly B's and C's, but I'm a trifle bit lazy with my homework. Dually, I'm full of useless information and facts.
I have one of the greatest musical tastes ever. With a few exceptions, I can pick up and listen to almost anything and thoroughly enjoy it. Currently, I'm infatuated with progressive rock. If you've never heard of Porcupine Tree, I seriously recommend you give them a try. Steve Wilson, their front man, is a genius lyric writer and musician.
I am a bohemian. I believe heavily in the concept of true love. I believe we all have a soul mate who we spend our lives trying to find. Some of us succeed, others don't. Aside from our soul mate, I believe it is possible to fall in love with another who is not one's soul mate. I believe love can fade in time, but while it lasts it is a beautiful thing. I've been in love a few times, and it was glorious while it lasted.
I've been told by a few people I have an impeccable sense of style. I suppose beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
I enjoy writing. I write plays on occasion and short stories for fun. I write at least one poem a day.
You may think I sound pretty cool, so why am I a pariah? Well every gem has its flaws. I'm very opinionated. I enjoy debates far too much, while others dislike them. I can be stubborn. I'm rather anti-social, "cautious and aware cause I'm afraid of being hurt" (Atmosphere from If I Was Santa Clause). I have a twisted sense of humor. This is ironic considering that true violence makes my stomach churn. I'm a bit too eccentric for some people's tastes. I'm not one of the crowd. I tend to have a chip on my shoulder over that.
It's your choice whether or not you'd like to get to know me. I recommend giving me a chance, let me open up, and I will be one of the nicest, most compassionate, deep thinking people you'll ever meet. If you don't want to, I'll just be the weird kid or another face on the bus to you. "Embrace how I live, God Loves Ugly" (Atmosphere from GodLovesUgly).
I'm still alive, walking in the sunshine
And if I die, I'm dying with a smile on my face
Axe Murder Boys from Still Alive
