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i've got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one
i don't have very much to give these days. all of my efforts are put in to supporting 4 people, and the rest is history. people tend to see me as the spoiled brat who has everything and whines about it all. girls think i'm out for 'their man' and guys think i'm all about rubbing my relations in their face. everyone is so incredibly wrapped up in my impact on their life that they can't even see that i have a life of my own. one that i don't even pay attention to anymore.
doctors tell me the same shit every visit. teachers yell the same crap at me when i attend school. and my dad lectures the same lecture every chance he can get. each day is the same load of crap that i can hardly even handle anymore. most days it hurts to wake up, and the others are me usually awoken by a vomiting stupor.
to put everything aside though, i'm not a bad person. i'd like to think that i withhold a good personality, sense of humor and knowledge of right and wrong. i play video games like the best of the boys and i watch g4 religiously. my room is cluttered, my mouth is dirty and i give my heart out seldomly to boys who shine above the rest. i make plenty of mistakes, and i will never tell you otherwise. i can be a liar, a bitch, a trick and every other bad thing out there, but give me the chance and i'll show you i can be every good name too.
i'm not here to make anyone's life a living hell. if you dislike me in any way, rest assured that i've disliked myself way before you have. i'm not as cocky as i let on. that? that's all fake, unlike this. my vulnerability, my weak state of mind, that's real. this is a reality check.
i hardly reply to comments, and it's a rarity for me to reply to chicks. i'm sorry if that's offensive to you. i just don't swing that way, girls !