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ilyra

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About Me

Hmmmmmm..... Where to start...where to start??? Well- my real name is RyanAnn. My friends all say I went from Freak to Betty Freaking Crocker or Susie freaking Homemaker. I guess that is partly true, but I am still a freak at heart, and probably always will be. You dont like it- go fuck yerself. :) I am a Stay At Home mama. My sweet little boy is almost 7 and my baby girl just turned 2. There are VERY VERY few in this world who actually know me. And Im not talking know who I am- I mean actually know me- deep down know who I truely am and what Im really all about. I dont let people in very easily- but once you're in- there's nothing that I won't do for you. No lengths that I wouldn't travel. But you fuck me over and you're as good as dead to me. I believe 100% in the old addage- Forgive but never forget. It is sooooo true. So yeah, you fuck me over- sure I'll forgive ya. But you will NEVER be let back into my little circle of trust- as I will never be able to forget your betrayel enough to truely trust you again. I have a wicked temper that rages on demand. Whether I want it to or not. Many can attest to that- unless they were a victim of it. ;) In which case- good luck finding them. Mwaaaa-haaa-haaa-haaa. :-P I have 9 tattoos- many, many, many more to come. Will hopefully be starting a tattooing apprenticeship soon. I'm constantly changing my hair. Chances are you'll never see me with the same hair for more than a month. (of course- since marriage and kiddies- Im desperatly "trying" to be more domesticated and grown up) but I still fuck with it- I'm not trying to be anybody but me. I had my son 10 days after I turned 18 so it was hard- I married a month after I turned 21 (been with him though since mid 97) Sure- it is a HUGE adjustment and sure I may not always be happy with the marriage- but I'm like those animals that "mate for life". I believe I was brought into this marriage for some reason or another and as the wife it is my job to make it work. (he should help too- dont get me wrong) but he busts his ass at work so that I can stay at home with the kids and homeschool our son, so in some aspects I'm very lucky. I didn't always feel this way- I was MISERABLE for a while- but Ive come to the conclusion that if I "put on my happy face" for long enough- maybe it'll stick. You remember "don't make that face or your face will stay like that" To think we actually believed THAT shit though. I guess that's it.... If you've made it this far I'm amazed and if not then you're not reading this part anyways, so.......... And in case you couldn't tell~ I Love Brandon Lee~ especially as The Crow!!
Industrial rock! Just like Marilyn Manson, you
know what you have to say and you just say it!
I like you very much...just be careful you
don't scare me away...
What genre of rock are you?
brought to you by QuizillaThose who know me- How perfect was this?(this Manson) Like it was even remotely possible that my results would be anything but this, right? But HOLY HELL ISN"T HE HOT AS FUCK?!?!?!
Sway: You're Sway from "Gone In Sixty Seconds"!
The grungy, adrenaline rushing, car stealing,
Sway. You're more of a tomboyish girl, the one
to have more guy friends than girl ones. Lets
just hope you don't have car stealing in your
future... ;)
Which Angelina Jolie Movie Charecter Are You?
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My Interests

my children, tattoos, music, writing, drawing, extreme sports, old friends, The Crow (just in case you couldn't tell)....
Which Rock Chick Are You?HELL YEAH- I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY. THIS WOMAN IS JUST FUCKING AMAZING!!!! GOTTA ADMIT- HOTTER THAN FUCK,TOO....
Your inner soul is saying SCREW YOU! For some
reason you gave up caring about things. You use
to be warm and loving, but now you've started
crusting over to a cold, hardcore bitch who
doesn't take crap from anybody! Even though you
try not to show emotions, you desperately want
to let loose and go wild! You have an attitude
that makes you irresistible to others and you
are the one usually to take charge of
situations. Try to let loose and have some fun
because we all know how much you really want to
^-^

What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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I'd like to meet:

Jim Morrison,Janis Joplin( hopefully not for many years tho) and Angelina Jolie@ --'---,---'---,---'---,---

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Music:


Bif Naked, Poe, Garbage, Kittie, Type O Negative, Manson, Union Underground, The Doors, Janis Joplin, Medicine, Lacuna Coil, Korn, Disturbed, Ted Nugent...too many to name really, My son when he thinks no one is listening, my daughter when she sings herself to sleep (yeah- at 6 months old- its cute I swear!)...And last but DEFINETLY not least.....OZZY.
cute but psycho. things even out.

which IT'S HAPPY BUNNY are you?
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Movies:

The Crow, The Lost Boys, Tank Girl, Pump Up the Volume, Heathers, Beatlejuice, (tho that spelling just don't look right) The Legend of Billie Jean, Dazed and Confused, Red Sonja, Twister, Girl Interrupted, TombRaider, Gone in 60 seconds,Empire Records, Hackers

Books:

anything good.

Heroes:

My big brother Jason, for always being there, my friends from high school for helping me survive thru life's shit stains...My dad for being so strong and hanging on to life when I know he sometimes longs to give up, and my mom for always being there whenever I need help with the kids and shit and being such a wonderful person.And my kids for their care-free I give a fuck attitude! LOLIt really is such a shame that he is gone. :(.. http-equiv="Page-Exit" c.."revealTrans(Duration=4,Transition=23)"

My Blog

this blows

So..... It's been a while... I cannot believe it has almost been 2 years since my dad died. I cannot even comprehend that fact. It's so scary- his voice and his face are slowly fading from my memory.&...
Posted by ilyra on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 01:40:00 PST

more lyrics

Please come love I think I'm falling Holding on to all I think is safe It seems I've found the road to no where And i'm trying to escape I yelled back when I heard thunder But I'm down to one la...
Posted by ilyra on Fri, 09 Dec 2005 10:58:00 PST

Fine Again

"Fine Again" It seems like every days the same and Im left to discover on my own It seems like everything is gray and theres no color to behold They say its over and Im fine again, yeah T...
Posted by ilyra on Fri, 09 Dec 2005 10:52:00 PST

Ghost of You

This REALLY sums up how I feel right now. Ironically- this was the first song that I heard the night that dad died..... "The Ghost of You" I never, said I'd lie and wait forever If I died we'...
Posted by ilyra on Fri, 09 Dec 2005 10:47:00 PST

Seriously, FUCK IT ALL (dont worry NOT lyrics) LOL

It seems like its already been 10 years without my father when in reality its been 3 weeks. Each day drags on for fucking ever.... Each minute feels like an eternity... It really does feel like the s...
Posted by ilyra on Wed, 07 Dec 2005 02:35:00 PST

THIS HOUSE IS NOT A HOME

HOME: Lyrics. Three Days Grace (This song sums it up all too well right now) Ill be coming homeJust to be aloneCause I know youre not thereAnd I know that you dont careI can hardly wait to leave th...
Posted by ilyra on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Fed Up......Newest Rant

I am really tired of not having someone to turn to... Sure I know people I can talk to- but to not have it where it is needed most... That really hurts.  So dad has bene in the hospital for 3 wee...
Posted by ilyra on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Just cannot take this anymore

I am just beyond words. I am so fed up with feeling so fucking insignifigant and useless. I am tired of being treated like shit by someone who is supposed to "love" me. I am so past my mother fucking ...
Posted by ilyra on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

So apparantly I'm a fat ass lazy bitch

Or so Mike tells me... Yeah- why??? Well because somehow or another I threw my lower back out and it has been out for almost 2 weeks. So OF COURSE the house is horribly trashed. Bad. I cant really ben...
Posted by ilyra on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Til Death Do Us Part?? my drunken rant

I swear I have sooooo absofuckinlutely had it with mike. this is just ridiculous. Where to even start? Last night- Wednesday I think- the day of the last big storm... Mike calls me at like 5:30 to tel...
Posted by ilyra on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST