[s0le_reaper]
05/27/08
Head-Ach (is that how you spell ach or is there an "e" in it)?
Mood: Jealous!
I'm feeling very hateful right now!! And Jealous! but at the same time not.. So, my little cousin got to go to KMF.. and I wanted to go.. and I didn't know that she was going.. T^T it's HEART BREAKING you know!!! and I just found out.. if I'm right.. that my online friend went also!! *Sigh..* they're both lucky.. I don't know.. I'm not feeling too well.. so I'm just gonna go do homework.. wich won't help me feel much relieved.. it'll just make me feel more ... confused.. crazy.. irrate me.. lol but I think it'll be alright because as long as I listen to some music that I like, I'll be fine.. so yea.. um.. well..
Good-Night!
Nepa
and Maybe this weekend I'll go out somewhere with Vince.. maybe.. it depends on my sister and her boyfriend.. @.@
05/07/08
WOW
Mood: most happy
Hehehehehe. So, recently I've been getting a lot of friend requestes (well, not really... but for this year yes) and I'm like "Wow, how in the world do these people know my name" and then think, "Hmmm if they sent a friend request, then they must know me.... or maybe they're just stalkers.... or maybe I just didn't set my privacy thingy the way I wanted it to be because I thought I had set it to require my last name or at least my e-mail to be able to make the request."
Luckly you know that the first one turned out to be my cousin from Fresno! ^__^ and then the second was David... then the one I just got today was my really old friend from 2nd Grade, Asia! ^__^ (What a great time we had.. hehehehe hope we can hang out someday later! ^__^).
Well... thats all I wanted to write for today since I have not been writing in here... lol ^___^ umm... SORRY IF IT LAGGS YOUR COMPUTER...
~Nepa
04/20/08
Homework time?? @.@
Mood: don't feel like doing homework, but will do after this
Hm.. its really short.. but Do you like my new layout?? hehehee i just ♥ it!! =D and the colors go right?? ^__^
.. now i must go and do homework i'm falling math right now.. with a 78%.. which i should be getting at least a high B or an A!!! =_=U
~Nepa
04/19/08
Blurrrr
Mood: ....(not feeling innocent thats all i have to say)
Hm... too tired to make capital letters and so on.. but dang.. my vision is getting blury.. @.@ and i know why too.. i dont have the lights turned on while using the computer.. hehehe.. =_=U.. no thats bad.. i shouldnt even laugh.. but okay.. lol.. ummmm... i've been thinking.. should i just ask him.. i mean.. i have lots and lots of thoughts... like i MIGHT (yes i know i said not capitals..blah blah blah.. but that is just to exaggrate) be MOVING during the summer.. @.@ to .... dont want to say it.. but somewhere up north ^__^ and where my sister resides in.. lol but in a way i dont want to move.. you know those feelings.. but anyways.. back on track, should i ask him or not... because i'm scared of being kidnapped up there.. its a very traditional thing to do.. and if i tell them that i have a ________ then they'll PROBABLY leave me alone.. and i know that i'm not the best looking girl.. but it scares the (*%$&) out of me.... uggh.. I'M HUNGRY.. @.@ i shared my quisequda (i know for sure i spelt that wrong.. sorry.. you know Taco Bell food.. my brother bought it for me.. and i shared half of it with my brother.. and the taco that was supposed to be for me too... i gave it to my little brother's friend Niki ^__^ he looks just like a younger version of his older brother ^__^) gosh.. hanging out with my brother's friends are soo much fun.. unlike my sister's friends.. @.@ they're scary to hang out with.. and sometimes piss me off.. like this one time.. where i'm laying down on my bed doing homework.. and shes sitting on the floor.. and says to my sister, "Whose THAT on the bed?".. what came running through my head was "WTF DID YOU JUST CALL ME $%^#&@" yes.. i got really irrated when she called me "THAT".. "i'm not a 'that'.. and you could at least ask: Is she your sister?" "dudh~ f-en dumb f*%$er" yes.. even now it pisses me off.. and no.. those were the thoughts that came in my head.. @.@ i'd never have the courage to say that to a person's face.. @.@ yea.. i'm mean like that on the inside.. though on the outside i look just as happy as i can be.. like i'm in heaven.. ^__^ and sometimes.. people think that i fake it.. because they know me.. but yet at the same time... they dont.. @.@ lol... hmm.. i got side-tracted.... because i'm hungry.. soooooo.... oh yea..
Yes or No?? i'm just scared to get kidnapped over there.. its just very traditional....... heeheheheheee.. ummmm... at times... i pretend that i dont know anything.. but i know that he likes me.. but i'm confused.. like somedays.. i just feel like giving him a hint.. but then my friends are there watching.. and sometimes i feel a little jealous.. but i brush it off and say that we're just friends.. maybe i'll never get another chance.. @.@
uggh.. ohhhh.. and that guy that i had a crush on at the beggining of the school year.. i dont think i have a crush on him anymore.. hes just... um.... tall ^__^ heheehhe and muscular @.@ i dont know how to describe him.. but yet.. you wont know who i'm talking about.. because every guy that i know is taller than me.. mouahahahldfjsjflkj *cough cough* hahaha ^__^
Well.. good-night
04/04/08
Weird Dream
Mood: Impatient.. (is that how you spell it?)
Yes, last night I had a weird dream.. @.@ Vincent was in it... OMG... am I secretly having thoughts about him?? @.@ Soooooo freaken weird. Okay.. (hi Paola! now I know that you read these ^__^) so heres my dream [the parts that I remember]:
We were at school.. but it wasn't school.. you know.. those types of dreams where you know where you're at.. and [ohhhh.. last night I saw the Simpsons show.. the cartoon.. and it was when Homer grew his hair back and got a promotion ^__^ so maybe it has something to do with it..] well there was this new building by the autordium of our school and there was a really long and endless flight of stairs. So, anywho, I was eating lunch with my friends near the endless flight of stairs like i always do on Mondays [the only time when I get to hang out with my 2nd lunch friends... btw.. Pola.. where do you and Khris hang out at??????!].
Then we see Vincent [who btw looked very handsome and was not himself...like he was in a different body, but my friends and I knew that it was him] came by, deleviring pizza, for community service hours, to the person way at the top of the new building. He's going up the long flight of stairs; and as I yell at him saying, "HI VINCENT~" along with Christine and my other friends that know him, he stops and looks at us. Such an adorable face he had [note: remember.. it was not him in his own body]- looked just like a pizza boy.. @.@.
Anyways, I then start to have weird thoughts going through my head in the dream.... I start to think:
"Hmmm.. maybe.. When he gets into the elevator, I'll go in and talk to him alone... and then if he say's yes......- I'll give him a kiss."
[OMG~!!!!!! =_=U...]
another thought: "wait... the elevator is glass..see-through and everyone will see... @.@"
So I didn't do it...
Weird dream right???? @.@.... woah... is just what I have to say... or actually.. right now, think... lol ^__^
03/29/08
I Hate the World
Mood: Hateful
Yes, I hate the world right now.. i'm being a very bad person.. procrastination.. not obeying what my mother tells me... but yet, when they're not here, i do what my mother would tell me to do.. and i enjoy doing it without being told.. @.@ so i guess it balances out.. but yes... back to what i was saying,
i'm not taking care of myself..
My mother hates me... but at the same time she loves me and i know it.. T___T i'm a bad daughter... this month is not my month.. and i dont think April is going to be either........... i need a tutor.. T__T and community service hours... the library still hasnt called me.. but i can guess why... my sister lost her cell phone and on the paper under contacts i put her cell number on it... @.@....
I guess this is it.. i have nothing else to say.. though maybe because i really really have to go pee.. @.@ i've been holding it for the past hour because of my essay that i just finished! ^___^ but now i need to revise it and proof-read it! ^__^ which might take another 1-2 hours
03/22/08
Home Alone
Mood: um.. somewhat freaked out..
Hmmm.. so I'm home all by myself.. well, as a human, but the dog is here... so i'm not really by myself.. lol ^__^ well.. i'm sorta freaked out because i start to think really really... you know.. far (ghosts).. @.@ but its cool, i have Blue to protect me!.. but shes sleeping right now.. but shes right next to me, so i feel much safer and i have music playin' ^__^ heheehe.. but anywho..
Yesterday was my Mommy's birthday.. and i totally forgot.. so today i'm supposed to bake her a cake.. but i have nothing to bake with.. no cake batter or whatever it is.. T__T i feel bad because Yesterday i was BEING a total "B" to her.. T__T and when my sister came to tell her Happy Birthday, i went to my mom and told her "I'M SORRY~" ^__^ and today i went shopping with her and picked out an out-fit.. but she didnt like any of them.. so whatever.. she has weird taste.. its really OLD FASHIONED... @.@ but its my mom.. lol ^__^ I LOVE MY MOM no matter what! ^__^ Same for my Daddy ^__^
Well thats all that i wanted to tell you.
Bye-Bye! ^__^
02/28/08
time: 1:01am.... T___T Mood:STRESSED!!!
thats all i have to say today!! T^T yesaa.. i just finished a rough draft that had to be 3 pages!!! i'm not even sure if its half of the 3rd page.. but its good enouh for just one day!!! @.@
I'm Tired.. So G..Night!
*sigh.. thnx to these music i was listening to..i stayed up!!! yay!! hahaha.. they get me into a dancing mood.. but i'm tired.. so i'm just wavering side to side..
.. -- Here to insert imeem playlist! --
Today's Current Mood:
...yum.. chocolate... something with FERRERO chocolate
02/14/08
Hm... today is Valentines.. and I have none.. okay.. so what.. I've never had one for my whole entire life so far.. but maybe soon I will.. hehehe
Oh.. I've been meaning to write here.. I had a Dream!! ^__^
The guy's name was Yoon Sung-Min... he was the guy from the drama series "Coffee Prince".. ^___^ soo georgous!! ^__^ hehehe.. well okay.. for some reason.. i was chasing this crush that i liked.. well "Lik'ed'" ^__^ and my sister wanted to see him.. so i tried to show her.. so thats why i was chasing him around.. @.@ i went out side.. and now i'm outside of Wal-Mart=) ^__^.. i look for him.. and see him drive off in his car and turn to tell my sister that he left... so she was like "Okay Whatever" and left.. then i went inside walmart and sitting there was Yoon Sung-Min.. I then asked him, "Whats your name again, I keep forgetting."
He said, "Yoon Sung-Min."
and I was like... 'For some reason I know that name from somewhere'
Then he asked me, "Why are you depressed?"
"Because,... My sister really wanted to see my crush."
he just looked at me and was like.."*pssh..whatever."
I asked, "Why are you sooo angry?"
"Nothing.."
I left outside of Wal-mart again depressed and went to the car.. or something.. and saw my guy cousins. Sung-Min drove by and just passed...
(Melissa!! Your name was mentioned..)
For some odd reason, I felt jealous. He drove by and I said, "Hey, can I have a ride."
"Do I know you?" he said, "because I know a girl named Melissa" in a playing way.
I got mad, and he left.
I looked at my cousins and asked them about something. They were like whatever...
I was really upset that I couldn't get home.
Out of no-where, Sung-Min comes behind me and wispers, "I'll give you a ride." He doesn't have his own car anymore.
and I look at my guy cousin, wanting to borrow the motorcycle and pleading him with my eyes. Finally, he agrees.
I jumped on the motorcycle and Sung-Min in front of me driving.
I just held him tightly and let him drive, enjoying the ride.
The End
Thirsty
02/11/08
Hm.. today is a monday.. and i have it off.. and all i did was:
Yesterday i played the X-Box360, my brother just bought it 2 days ago... @.@. I played Halo3 with my brother on campaign..(i'm not sure if i spelt that right..) and yea... played from like 10pm-5am...@.@ my daddy came and started to yell at us to go to sleep.. hm.. the best part of it was.. that when i let go of the controller... my hands were stiff like they were still holding on to the controller.. @.@ thats bad.. games are evil.. haaahahahha.. but anyways.. I also played Devil May Cry 4!!!! it is freaken awsome!! hahahaaha ^__^ *drool*.. Dante is freaken Fine as Heck!! ohhhh.. and I *CLAIM* Dante!! mouahahaslfkjdsflj ^___^ and Nero ^__^ i think they're son and father.. @.@ but i doubt it.. hahaha ^__^ they just happen to look like each other.. well anyways... i think i had a dream about Dante.. sooo Georgous!!! hahaha well its a *Secret*
Hm.... okay... thats all for now.. because as always.. i still have homework to do.. @.@
Bye-Bye~!
♥ ~Nepa
Tired
01/28/08
I'm soo tired that I'm gonna make this short.. heres a poem I wrote in just 3 minutes.. I hope you enjoy it ^__^ Its... oh nvm.. here you go.. it tells you the story..I think...
Memory from the Past
By: Me (^__^)
My beloved dear, how I miss you so.
Waiting for me on the stairs where we met,
Id smile sweetly.
On rainy days you were wet,
Id cover you with my umbrella.
On winter cold days,
Wed hold hand in hand.
When your trying to keep warm,
Wed hold each other closely.
...
01/27/08
My current mood is "..." because I don't know what is my current mood.. or maybe I just cant think.. @.@ well yea. T__T I'm growing a pimple on my face!! its right on the side of my nose.. which hurts like heck!!! @.@ I dont know how V can deal with it.. am i secretly making fun of V?? @.@ if I am.. I'M SORRY~!!! I mean.. V has a very clear face.. but once in a while a pimple will grow.. and its in the same spot.. @.@ *sigh.. am I being mean.. @.@ I'm very Sorry.. T__T ohh well.. I hope it's gone tomorrow because school is gonna start a new again!! ^__^ hm.. I don't yet have a new year's resolution.. but I've been a lot more motiviated to exercise.. hahahaa ^__^ and one more thing is that i hope to get a new MP3 player.. so when i run/jog.. I can listen to my music.. and enjoy the run/jog.. ^__^ my brothers broke my other MP3 player.. so I'm pretty sad.. T___T but whatever.. they owe me another one.. hahaha and I told them that I wanted a better one.. lol.. but just anything will do... I mean, I don't need one of those iPod's because they break eaisly.. and I rather have those fat ones.. lol but it also has to come with a arm band/ wrist band.. so I don't have to carry it in my hand.. ^__^ okay.. well thats enough for today.. ohh.. and i plan to change my background soon ^__^ that says the same thing... "DO YOUR HOMEWORK" lol ^__^ can't you just imagin DBSK saying that to you?? hahahhaa ^__^ well its like a motivation for me to do my homework when I come on here and stare at my page.. @.@ so yea... I get distracted eaisly.. hm.. K K.. gotta go.. and get the laundry done.. along with emptying out my Folder of school work.. ^__^ My mommy and daddy bought me new clear sheets for my papers ^__^ so I'm excited.. plus.. i can put my drawings in it ^__^
Crying
01/20/08
At the moment, I'm not really inspired... its jut better than putting "Sad" as my mood...they dont have "crying"... but yea.. well that should be what i'm doing right now.. but okay...its a mood.. I think.. hahaha
Okay.. so I just finished watching "A Moment to Remember" and no.. its not "A Walk to Remember".. its a Korean movie!! Its soo good!!! and thats why I'm Crying... lol ^__^ I recomend it to whoever likes to watch Korean movies!! Very good!! I give it 5 stars if I could.. and .. more if I could.. and if there was such a thing.. hahaha ^__^ well I guess this is my Journal entry for today..
And no.. I'm not going to tell you what happened the whole day.. because thats my business.. and the whole world shouldn't know about my business.. because it's mines.. hahahaha you get the point.. plus, my page is not set to private.. so yea.. and theres a picture of me.. so yea..
Bye-Bye