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About Me

I'm a guy. I blog. I wish people paid me to blog. Maybe someday they will.
-Cruz
My I-just-met-you-in-the-club-and-I-dont-trust-you-enough-to-te ll-you-my-real-name is Jason. I can't swim. THE WHOLE THOUGHT OF HAPPILY EVER AFTER makes me sick. I wish I wasnt color-blind. I know every single worthless facts. Saying something random is my expertise. Slow drivers should be lined up and shot in the kneecaps. I dont go anywhere without my cellphone. The most creative art are on public restroom walls. I only eat the outside part of onion rings. I have this almost fictitious psychotic passion for shoes. I have this really goofy smile when im nervous. I have low self-esteem but people think that my insecurities is a way for me to fish for compliments. I have a mean sense of humor. I would die for my (real) friends. I love being around KIDS! I don't like to explain that I'm filipino. I have multiple personalities, and they all refuse to get along. My face turns red when I drink. Anything with a lot of buttons will keep me very occupied! I wash my hands a lot. I never lost a fist fight. I was made to be center of attention. I love my chapstick. I probably won't pick up my phone during the day time. People who are over 18 and cant spell words like "Definitely" or "Receive" shouldn't make an attempt to reproduce. I stopped praying a long time ago. Im allergic to watermelons, cantaloupes, and bananas. Im addicted to my baby's smell. Midgets scare the crap out of me. I want to play a bad guy in a movie. I could fall in love with a girl who can be goofier than me. I wish I can speak French fluently. I love it when i dont have to say, "I told you so". I don't own a pair of regular solid colored jeans. Harassing people who dont want to be bothered is fun. I'm afraid of the day that I lose my hair, my teeth falls out, and I have to make that, "ugh-Ahh!" sound everytime i stand up.

My Interests

My babies!! my babies

I'd like to meet:

I wish I can meet someone so amazing like you... If you ask about where your position is on my "Top 24" I will pistol whip you and throw your unconscious body towards oncoming traffic. oh yea.... I'd probably delete you. haha

Music:

I'm a tru Jim Jones fan... i was yelling out "ballin" and "hardbody" before you even knew there were dipset members, other than Cam and Juelz. So fall back, slide to the left cuz ya'll werent supporting them when they was underground.

Television:

My page would be empty without at least one racial attacks towards asian people... lol

Books:

"i've been getting mentally and physcially beat down my whole life, now that i refuse to be a victim... they're going to call it violence."

Heroes:

My mother, for putting up with all the hell I've caused. To be able to realize her sacrifices... it's appreciated. Reggie Cruz, for showing me that you dont have to care what people think about you... he taught me to never hold back, that its ok to just be, "me." I miss him. R.I.P.

My Blog

Dear Journal (a reminisce)

Man I wish I can speak to God, the way I speak to these pages/ I want my soul in heaven one day/ but I don't trust THOSE PAGES/ So I guess this world, we call hell... is where' I'd be staying/ It seem...
Posted by iCruz™ on Wed, 01 Aug 2007 11:29:00 PST

Aaron v/s Cruz

Cruz:i know you aint hearing me now, so ima clarify the points you missinguntil i get pissed, people never even knew you existednow you telling me stop the bullshit, but now im telling you how?!this i...
Posted by iCruz™ on Sat, 14 Jul 2007 10:21:00 PST

A Woman's Work

Please don't hate me for putting our business out in the streets But the best poem I wrote, described the causes of these tears The love ecstasy is gone now, we breathing in reality It almost became a...
Posted by iCruz™ on Tue, 26 Jun 2007 09:30:00 PST

Why I Cried....

The realest poem I ever wrote/ this is how it goes/ Two baby mothers/ two kids, 3 sisters& no brothers/ I grew up into his spitting image/ but my father doesn't know/ No wonder why I act like a cord n...
Posted by iCruz™ on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 08:07:00 PST

Excuse me, Ms. B...

Ms. B We used to kick it in the good old days/ Now we don't hardly speak nowadays/ I loved the way you loved me/ I thought that's how it'll always stay/ Now it's just& I nod, and you'd nod bac...
Posted by iCruz™ on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 05:24:00 PST

Bottled Up

I've been meaning to talk to you/ It's been way too long right? Me and you got some issues/ Don't move, just sit down tight/ Remember I stepped up and protected you/ That wasn't just fear or ...
Posted by iCruz™ on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 05:24:00 PST

Nocturnal Silence

It's 3:00 AMI'm awake and you're still dreamingIt's 3:00 AMNow the silence sounds like its screamingIt's been so long since my head's been this clearJust like a ship lost in the nightI just don't know...
Posted by iCruz™ on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 10:43:00 PST

I remember...

Lost Touch I remember you signed my yearbook/ "My boy forever" / you even drew that cute heart with the arrow, remember? Harper Square Housing is where we grew up/ who can blame us for being sc...
Posted by iCruz™ on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:46:00 PST

Cigarettes and Tissues

We've been stuck in-between I love you and goodbye God must never had liked me Cause the day he put the stars on the sky He decided to take you away from me You became my rainy days and Mondays I can'...
Posted by iCruz™ on Sat, 03 Feb 2007 01:44:00 PST

Father's Bedtime Story

Son, I know this probably hurts/ but to fix the things you heard/ I wrote this poem/ how me and your mama is impossible to get along / it aint my fault that mom is never home/ but I would never l...
Posted by iCruz™ on Tue, 09 May 2006 01:08:00 PST