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About Me


♥My names Emily, Emmerz, Buckwheat..ya know..whatever. i laugh, i cry, i scream, i bitch, i sing, i dance, i party, i love kids, i sleep, i work, i read, i WRITE, i listen, i talk, i love, i dislike, i'm broken, i'm alive, i'm outgoing, i'm outrageous, i'm badass, i'm weak, i'm strong, i'm happy, i'm sad, i'm excited, i'm one of a kind, i'm a loser, i'm a lover, i'm a dork, i'm unique, i'm EmOtIoNaL, i live LIVE, i'm not invincible, i'm not worthless, i'm not you....i'm just ME!! I can't change the past, i can't take back my faults, i can just look to the future and be who i am. so take me or leave me your choice.
♥LAuREn is my EVERYTHING! the best friends are the ones you dont have to talk to everyday, who understand why you didnt take their advice to not call him or why you keep going back to him after he breaks your heart,the ones who call you at 4 AM to let you know theyre drunk, who listen when theyve heard the same story a thousand times, the ones who call just to say hi, & whether youre dancing on the table or passed out drunk, theyll turn & say, hell yeah, thats my best friend.
"Side by Side, or miles apart, best friends are always close to the heart." --You leave the best footprints on mine!!
♥Dear Lauren,
I can't live without you .
You are my one and only.
You keep me going through the good times and the bad
We go together like cookies && milk
peanut butter && jelly
&& macaroni && cheese
I can't wait to stay up late with you, eat pizza rolls and watch camp at 2am
call FAGGOT and be all sexy
hold bras that are too small up to ourselves
take pics with the geeksquad at BEST BUY
Stalk sexy verizon boys
and all together be with you again
I miss waking up to your messy hair
and your snoring sounds
You, my dear, I love with ALL my heart
I will love you til forever and not a day less
Forever Yours,
Emmy Wemmy Pemmy Poo
♥ Sean McCarey wow. what to say about this kid. i think i couldn't live without him to be honest! he means the world to me in so many ways! he is a GREAT best friend! and i love him to death! thanks for always being there me seaniekins! don't forget--we are each others love doctors!!!! i ♥ you lots and lots babe! and i thank God everyday for having you as a friend. i really do. you show me that all guys aren't the same and you are so good to me. no one could ask for anyone better!! keep you're head up. you're so strong and so freaking FANTASTIC sean! you really are.
♥sooo my sister and i fight but im not gonna lie...i love her!!! ♥you Andrea
♥ KAYLA HAWKINS!!!! girl you are my world and so much more! we have some wonderous memories with you and i'm going to continue making memories with you because you are another girl whom i dont think i could live without! honestly! thanks for always being there even when you weren't around. we've had our fights but in the end...you know i'm always here for you and you are always here for me! thanks for being so amazing darling!
♥LAUREN aka ALFALFA!!!! girl living with you was the HIGHLIGHT of my senior year! i miss you tons but i still feel like we are closer than ever!!! you are just a great friend all around. I want to eat ice cream and watch porn forever with you baby!!!! infinite x's and o's
♥ Ethan Soper wow you know 99% of everything there is to know about me. you've been a great friend for over 4 years. what i would do without you..i do not know. you listen to me bitch and whine and why you stick around i dont know...but thank you! thanks for always being there...you're like a big brother and a guardian angel! thanks for helping me find my way!
HOBY HUGS
♥ The Hugh O' Brian Youth leadership program has honestly changed my life for the better. I will continue to volunteer my time and energy to HOBY and help other students have the same life changing experience I was fortunate enough to have.
♥I am currently attending Illinois State University for Elementary Education. I enjoy kids. My bosses kids are like my own. Dalton-18 months, Morgan-7, and Sydney-10. My weekends are full of good times with these kids!! I love them together.

My Interests


So this is how it is..
I'm a slut because I'll wear shorts & a tanktop,
I'm a bitch because I don't let you push me around,
I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything,
I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong,
I'm ugly because my face isn't perfect,
I'm a whore because I like boys,
I'm annoying because I'm not chill enough,
I'm a loser because I'm not friends with your group,
I'm fake because most of the time I'm happy,
I'm weird because I'm not like you,
I'm controlling because I get mad sometimes,
I'm clingy because I like to be around people,
I'm selfish because I like to be satisfied,
I'm naive because I'm younger than you,
I'm conceited because I'm proud of who I am,
I'm rude because my manners aren't perfect,
I'm unappreciative because I don't praise you.

Don't try to tell me who I am because I already know.


All Time Low is by far my ALL TIME favorite band at the moment. Their lyrics are so indescribable and their music and voices are to die for!!! ALL TIME LOW YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!

Jasey Rae

I said, "I still hear the rain."
These images have filled my head
Now keep my fingers from making mistakes
Tell my voice what it takes to speak up, speak up
and keep my conscious clean when I wake

Don't make this easy
I want you to mean it, Jasey
(Say you mean it)
You're dressed to kill
I'm calling you in
(Don't waste your time on me)


Now there's an aching in my back,
A sudden pain that says I lack
the common sense and confidence
to bring her hands to promises
that I'm making time for desperate conversation.
Holding my knife could be better than this in the end.
(Just say when)

Don't make this easy
I want you to mean it, Jasey
(Say you mean it)
You're dressed to kill
I'm calling you in
(Don't waste your time on me)

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames are getting out of control.

Calling your name, kill me with words.
Forget about me, it's what I deserve.

I was your chance out of your town,
but I took the car and left you to..

...wait outside.
I hope the air will start to remind you
to get me out of this place.
I'll remember your face
and my words are as big
as the beating in my chest.

"Lie To Me"

Our candle burns away
The ashes full of lies
I gave my soul to you
You cut me from behind


Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cuz who I am, is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel
You fallen again
You're no super hero
I found in the end


So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end...

You said you were there for me
You wouldn't let me fall
All the times I shared with you
Were you even there at all?


Nowhere to run and no where to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cuz who I am, is where you wanna be

Don't act like an angel
You fallen again
You're no super hero
I found in the end

So lie to me once again
And tell me everything will be alright
Lie to me once again
And ask yourself before we say goodbye
Well goodbye
Was it worth it in the end


Why'd you have to up and run away
A million miles away
I wanna close my eyes and make believe
That I never found you

Just when I put my guard away
It's the same old story
You left me broken and betrayed

It's the same old story

I'd like to meet:



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Music:


A
All Time Low
Academy Is, The
Audition, The
Aly and AJ
Ashley Tisdale
Amber Pacific
Angels and Airwaves
Academy Is
All American Rejects
Avenged Sevenfold
B
Boys Like Girls
Bullet for my Valentine
Breaking Benjamin
Boxcar Racer
Buckcherry
Big and Rich
Billy Currington
Billy Joel
Blue October
Brad Paisley
Brand New
Bowling For Soup
C
Cute Is What We Aim For
Carrie Underwood
Chris Brown
Counting Crows
D
Dashboard Confessionals
Dave Matthews Band
Death Cab for Cutie
Dierks Bentley
E
Early November
Eve 6
Eminem
Evanecense
Everclear
F
Fall Out Boy
Fort Minor
Fray, the
Five For Fighting
Foo Fighters
Future Leaders of the World
G
Gym Class Heroes
Good Charolette
H
Hawthorne Heights
Hinder
Hellogoodbye
Hannah Montana
HIM
Honorary Title
Howie Day
I
Incubus
J
Jack's Mannequin
Jonas Brothers
Jeremy Camp
Josh Turner
Journey
K
Kill Hannah
Keith Urban
Katherine McPhee
Kenney Cheasney
L
LostProphets
Linkin Park
Less than Jake
Lifehouse
Little Big Town
M
Motion City Soundtrack
Muse
Mudvayne
Montgomery Gentry
Mercy Me
Mario Vazquez
N
Ne-Yo
Nickelback
Nick Lachey
O
Ok Go
P
Pink
Plain White T's
Panic! at the Disco
Papa Roach
Q
Queen
R
Rise Against
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, the
Rascall Flatts
Relient K
Red Hot Chilli Peppers
S
Something Corporate
Secondhand Serenade
Snow Patrol
Savage Garden
Starting Line
Shinedown
Simple Plan
Smile Empty Soul
T
Timbaland
This Day and Age
Taking Back Sunday
Third Day
Tonic
U
Usher
V
Valencia
Vanessa Hudgens
Vertical Horizon
W
Weezer
X
Y
Yellowcard
Z

Movies:

boondock saints

american pie presents band camp

she's the man

click

camp

the girl next door

the breakfast club

pretty in pink

the ringer

rent

gladiator

cinderella man

jarheads

Television:

the 4400

gilmore girls

supernatural

monk

house

Books:

wicked

hearts in atlantis

mr. murder

harry potter series

Heroes:


RIP DADDY I miss you so much dad! xoxoxo

lauren , babe. you are my world. i love you to death and you are my best friend. i cant imagine living without you!!!

♥Sean McCarey and my Cousin Martin
Sean--you are for many reasons my hero. I love you to death! thanks for always being there for me! i miss ya and can't wait for movie night
Martin--you're a great cousin and I love you to death. It's as simple as that!

Jonathan Kyle Price You are a fallen hero my friend! Thanks for fighting for what you believed in and for keeping our country safe! we ♥you!!!

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